Ah thank you! I felt I was kind of doing it wrong. Itās because I spend so much time visualizing the image & feeling associated with the goals & everything.
I think Iāll try out this speed trick I was trying before but still felt authentic and not just trying to get it over with. It just matters more my intention to have a shift of mental vibe.
Heroās Day Streak: 57
Affirmation: Keep it up self! Iām loved by many and those many believe I will find great success. For the most part, I do believe in myself, the love is more moderate and still feels a bit weird when I say it. But, I do deserve to be loved by the most important person who can love me which is me.
Grateful for: My spiritual wife for another great day. Thereās a Pokemon go event on and weāre having a blast. Iām finally back to getting my 10k steps every day due to 1. Having a tolerance to the cold Canadian winter for this year and 2. Iāve got a solid work schedule to-do list whatever you want to call it that I do every day and it helps me streamline my success which now gives me more free time to do whatever. Grateful for the amazing Chinese food we had for our Valentineās Day dinner today (we thought itād be smart to have today because our special place was near empty so it was more private and intimate). This Chinese place is great. For $13.50 CAD ($9 USD?) even a bigger fellow would have a hard time eating the full portion. I got shrimp chop suey, so it came with a lot less than my spiritual wifeās plate as the shrimp add cost. She barely ate half and when we go we always get pretty hungry first. I walked 10k steps before that and her over 15k steps so we had a hunger on. I had 1/3 left. But, the great thing which I was leaning into is you actually feel full 30 minutes later, not like most Chinese food places. I finished my 1/3 amount left like 1.5-2 hours later which is just normal hungry time at that point, plus I barely ate before that. I love Panda restaurant.
Another productive and clean day!
Number of thoughts: 0
Number of urges: 0
Number of practices: 10ā¦ Thanks @forerunner for the tip. I did in exactly 10 minutes, but my mom texted me in middle of it which totally distracted me because she was asking if I was sure itās my city of cornwall Ontario Canada the coronavirus patients are behind moved to vs. UK and my spaz brain started going of somewhat worry because it is in fact my city theyāre moving them too.
Damn news though, fk fear mongering. Itās totally overhyped just like H1N1 many years back. Only people who have died are old people or people who already had bad ailments. All it is is flue like symptoms for 1-2 weeks and youāre fineā¦yet uber drivers arenāt picking up people with Asian sounding last names. Itās too bad really. Also, many internet marketers are freaking out for their dropshipping businesses on BlackHatWorld because of shipping times being delayed. That, Iād say you could blame China for because there was no need to shutdown factories for how similar to a normal flu it isā¦ Itāll be a forgotten tale 6 months from nowā¦
5 Reasons to quit PMO
Iām in the challenge again!!!
I will become physically more fit, more energetic, and productive after 60-90 days.
With restored integrity, I feel love and connection to GOD, to my higher self, and the people around me. Iām finally free, bursting with energy, creativity, and motivation. Iāve regained my self-control, and I advance daily towards a happy, meaningful, and successful life by GODās Grace.
A. I ACKNOWLEDGE that sometimes I have some URGES to peek or relapse.
B. It is NATURAL to get such temptations.
C. But I am FREE TO CHOOSE.
D. I do not want misery caused by pmo. I choose my VISION, where I am happy and SUCCESSFUL.
I will use my sword ten times daily for the first 21 days. After 21 days, I will use it two times daily. I will keep a physical copy in situations where I am away from my laptop.
I have Covenant Eyes, Google Family Link, Stay Focused, and BlockSite. I have intelligently built, unsurpassable, experimented blocks and blocks to prevent disabling those blocks. My Full NoFap Plan completes my shield.
[I started from zero today because I like the number 16]
Affirmation - I am happy and SUCCESSFUL.
I am thankful for - Iām thankful for the help I receive from God and true friends.
Progress - No slip or relapse! Clean day!
Number of mini urges defeated, practices completed - 0, 10
16 Feb. 2020
Reporting day 8
One affirmation - I can achieve anything I put my mind to.
I am thankful for - A great day.
Progress - clean day
Urges 0 / Practice 3
Day 25 (178)
Affirmation: Stagnation breeds relapse. Been too lazy for this weekend
Progress: none. Sleeping and finally feeling better, plus college work
Urges: as always, too many to count
Notes: stagnation breeds relapse. Although I have a straight laced schedule, I fell off these past few months. God, it feels depressing when all you do is lay in bed, listening to the same old BS. You are much happier when you are at work and not gaining weight. Doing my workout right now after this post, because God help me, I feel miserable. Kinda like how you feel right before you relapse. Stay busy. Yes, there will be days when it all feels hopeless and impossible, but It is only impossible if you give up. Who knows, tomorrow might be the day you finally see some fat shed off those abs, or get a good paycheck, or she might just text back. It wont happen if you give up and just stay lazy.
@Forerunner, please update my details according to my new start. I started from ā16 (+0) 
0ā yesterday. I am in Apprentice group at this time.
Heroās Day Streak: 58
Affirmation: I will achieve greatness! Iām already living the dream, I just have to scale it up!
Grateful for: My spiritual wife for giving me $60 due to being a tight month thanks to not thinking well on my part. Iām still getting used to having $120 less per month from my business as Iām reinvesting that money now. I would have been fine, but I went crazy ordering stuff on Amazon with extra money I had in an old fun money account, but then I ended up going over what was in there. Also, Valentineās Day dinner was $38 plus $10 gift and a few other things. All of the stuff off Amazon was important. A seat cushion for my computer chair to not slide, have better posture & far less back pain. A foot rest for the same reason. Fish tank heater & new filters for cheap fish Iām getting soon so my cat has something to look at when Iām at my spiritual wifeās place.
I just should have bought all that stuff over 2-3 months, not one. Idk what got over me. I think I just got adrenaline going through me when I realized I had an extra $140 and then my mom bought me a split couch (futon, but looks like actual couch) and I got uber excited and guess I just felt like I had that kind of money to spendā¦($430 after taxes and shipping).
Iām investing $50 with wealth simple per month, and could always transfer money from my savings/business earnings in an extreme situation, but shit like this doesnāt fly. Thatās why Iām so fucking grateful my spiritual wife gave me $60 to help me out.
Another productive and clean day!
Number of thoughts: 1
Number of urges: 0
Number of practices: 2
@Forerunner @tuku @EmeraldArcher @Sacred @KarmaYogi @Martial_Beast @Aragorn @Adioz @richard21 @SelfMadeNinja
Affirmation - I am happy and SUCCESSFUL.
I am thankful for - Iām thankful for the help I receive from God and true friends.
Progress - No slip or relapse! Clean day!
Number of mini urges defeated, practices completed - 1, 10
Day 26 (179)
Affirmation: āIf it feels so good, why are you always trying to quit?ā
I am Grateful for: having time to do my exams for college and getting better after being sick for a week. The struggles make me stronger.
Progress: working on my first exam for college
Urges: as always, too many to count
Notes: Its not gonna feel good or rewarding going back to porn. I know it all too well and lost many a streak due to it. Hell, I am surprised that tomorrow I hit 180 Days! After almost 30 relapses on NoFap, 180 Days. 6 MONTHS! Almost halfway there to a year. God it was rough. The urges, the depression, the FREAKING Wet Dreams nearly twice a week for the past month and a halfā¦not to mention the inevitable flatline that will happen. And then there is the constant wave of doubt and hopelessness that we all feel.
WORTH IT!
Now to get back into habits and to overcome the hard times and numerous amounts of work.
A fap a day keeps your crush/Ideal love away, as they said somewhereā¦I think Reddit.
Keep going. 90 days isnāt the official reboot period. Its is just a milestone, as it takes 21 days to make a habit, 90 days to make it a lifestyle, or at least easier to assimilate it. NoFap is life. If you think all the superpowers and good fortune will be there in one dayā¦well, I have bad news for you, buddy. One year as Gabe Dawg said. One year to see real benefits. Keep going.
17 Feb. 2020
Affirmation - I am happy and SUCCESSFUL.
I am thankful for - Iām thankful for the help I receive from God and friends.
Progress - No slip or relapse! Clean day!
Number of mini urges defeated, practices completed - 3, 12
Heroās Day Streak: 59
Affirmation: Iāve earned my success so far and commit to the continuation of personal growth across all aspects of my life.
Grateful for: My awesome day with Spiritual wife. We ended up fully mooching the event and walked 14km today after walking 20km yesterday. My spiritual wife actually walked 100km this past week! Itās common for us to walk around 10km per day with 1-2 days off or light walking. 50km is easy in spring summer fall with no snow (first stage Pokemon reward) 100km not so much (second stage pokemon reward). We commonly walk 60-80km at the end of each week most weeks weather permitting, but that extra 20km is not a healthy desission. Personally I like about 65km per week in good weather.
Another productive and clean day!
Number of thoughts: 0
Number of urges: 0
Number of practices: 2
Iām more busy with my work now, but at the same time I used to waste so much time at home. This will allow me to still comforably walk 65km per week still I think. My work day is only 1-2 hours unless im learning something new, but thatās only maybe 1 day - 1 week tops of more than 4 hours per day.
Donāt get me wrong, I love working on my online business, but Iāve had a mindset shift to work efficiently and focused. But, when my business grows as I do, my efficient work day will get larger.
When I first got into Internet marketing, I had a 70 hour work week 4 weeks in a row due to researchā¦8-10 hours a day doing research.
Glad Iām well informed now and know what I want to do.
Day 27 (180)
Affirmation: Diamonds are made under pressure
I am Grateful for: having a Great Amount of time to sleep
Progress: making sure I get a lot of time specific stuff that needs to be done today at the right time.
Urges: Got one right now. But day 180, soā¦No.
Notes: Its not gonna be easy, but it will be worth it. 6 months without PMO. Wowā¦almost halfway there. Gotta keep going. Been good and praying for continued fortune.
Reporting day 10
One affirmation - Confidence in my work has improved.
I am thankful for - Good insights.
Progress - clean day
Urges 0 / Practice 3
Heroās Day Streak: 60
Affirmation: Iāve gained so much traction. Keep going!
Grateful for: Nice inside day to give my physical body a break from all that walking. My ability to use insight and objective thinking. My spiritual wife for loving me. My cat who loves to pop out and try to scare me, play hide and go seek, tag, and cuddle.
Another productive and clean day!
Number of thoughts: 0
Number of urges: 0
Number of practices: 10