CHECK-IN
Days completed: 11
One affirmation: you have to take charge of your life.
I am thankful for: what I have, we see only our pain, but there are many who are going through much more than us.
Progress: clean day
Urges: experienced, but I can control them.
Thank you so much man! It means a lot. Iāve always had that strong inner fire. But, the things that held me back in the past was not proper medication, not eating enough, not attending life coach like therapy, not having an awesome nurse I see every 2 weeks which is a form of therapy as well, working too many hours when honestly I shouldnāt have gone into the work force after graduating college or at least not shift work & over 30 hours per week and instead worked on getting properly medicated & eating well at the least, not managing my money well, and having smashy phone/wall anger problems.
(finally! After 4 years of earning my own money, Iāve been debt free since Oct 2019 and not living paycheque to paycheque since Nov 2019)
All of that was obviously weighing a fuck ton on my inner fire which is all solved now. The core things are bettering my eating and managing sleep that Iām making great progress on and not fully solved yet, but thatās okay
I got bullied a lot in school which I think started from me being the new kid and just grew from there as I became an easy target. However, Iāve had 6 teachers throughout my years of schooling who believed I would accomplish so much when I grow up, far more than the average human being.
Also, dozens of middle aged adults have told me Iām smart for my age and that always made me feel great.
I have around 6 mental health diagnoses which were triggered when my parents got divorsed when I was 8 years old. My home life was 3/4 shit 1/4 pretty good because I was such a troubled child going through the system to get the best help and medications (thank you free health care). So, Iāve lived a lot more than most people 10 years older than me (Iām 25).
People my age tend to judge me a lot because Iām different. But, people who are middle aged often see through my weirdness as just my personality and know itās weirdos like me who find success because we refuse to follow the norm like go to college, get a job, get married, have kids, buy a house, buy 2 cars, buy all this fancy shit you donāt need to keep up with the jonses all before youāre 30ā¦no wonder debt is so bad in America. The American dream is a lie. There is an American dream, but itās called creating passive income and eventually only working when you want to not because you have to and at a job you love.
I know over text it may sound like I have a sense of grandeur. Itās just hard to explain that stuff without sounding like that unless youāre in person and see my facial expressions and hear my tone of voice.
I donāt really tell people about my accomplishments because, well most people wonāt listen. But, also, most people donāt understand that success is 99% failure. If you tell everybody your goals then you fail because thatās part of learning, theyāll laugh at you and if youāre just starting to taste shit (meaning explore) you wonāt have the biggest confidence yet and you may never break through your glass ceiling which when you break through it, realize it wasnāt even there in the first place.
My true self is a mixture between ADHD hyper randomness and calm, collected and not phased easily. I just see haters as miserable people and live my life the way I want to live it because I trust myself.
I do judge people sometimes, and make close minded comments, but thatās when I get caught up in the moment.
Afterwards when I reflect, I go back to the mentally that 99% of peopleās problems are just stupid shallow shit that doesnāt matter. I care more about how I can double my work efficiency and increase my sales by 20% in the next 3 months than my stupid neighbor who blows a few leaves on my lawn or a guy cut me off while driving.
Total stream of consciousness there, hopefully whoever reads this learns something.
Peace, Love, Happiness, and Respect!
Ah thank you! I felt I was kind of doing it wrong. Itās because I spend so much time visualizing the image & feeling associated with the goals & everything.
I think Iāll try out this speed trick I was trying before but still felt authentic and not just trying to get it over with. It just matters more my intention to have a shift of mental vibe.
Heroās Day Streak: 57
Affirmation: Keep it up self! Iām loved by many and those many believe I will find great success. For the most part, I do believe in myself, the love is more moderate and still feels a bit weird when I say it. But, I do deserve to be loved by the most important person who can love me which is me.
Grateful for: My spiritual wife for another great day. Thereās a Pokemon go event on and weāre having a blast. Iām finally back to getting my 10k steps every day due to 1. Having a tolerance to the cold Canadian winter for this year and 2. Iāve got a solid work schedule to-do list whatever you want to call it that I do every day and it helps me streamline my success which now gives me more free time to do whatever. Grateful for the amazing Chinese food we had for our Valentineās Day dinner today (we thought itād be smart to have today because our special place was near empty so it was more private and intimate). This Chinese place is great. For $13.50 CAD ($9 USD?) even a bigger fellow would have a hard time eating the full portion. I got shrimp chop suey, so it came with a lot less than my spiritual wifeās plate as the shrimp add cost. She barely ate half and when we go we always get pretty hungry first. I walked 10k steps before that and her over 15k steps so we had a hunger on. I had 1/3 left. But, the great thing which I was leaning into is you actually feel full 30 minutes later, not like most Chinese food places. I finished my 1/3 amount left like 1.5-2 hours later which is just normal hungry time at that point, plus I barely ate before that. I love Panda restaurant.
Another productive and clean day!
Number of thoughts: 0
Number of urges: 0
Number of practices: 10ā¦ Thanks @forerunner for the tip. I did in exactly 10 minutes, but my mom texted me in middle of it which totally distracted me because she was asking if I was sure itās my city of cornwall Ontario Canada the coronavirus patients are behind moved to vs. UK and my spaz brain started going of somewhat worry because it is in fact my city theyāre moving them too.
Damn news though, fk fear mongering. Itās totally overhyped just like H1N1 many years back. Only people who have died are old people or people who already had bad ailments. All it is is flue like symptoms for 1-2 weeks and youāre fineā¦yet uber drivers arenāt picking up people with Asian sounding last names. Itās too bad really. Also, many internet marketers are freaking out for their dropshipping businesses on BlackHatWorld because of shipping times being delayed. That, Iād say you could blame China for because there was no need to shutdown factories for how similar to a normal flu it isā¦ Itāll be a forgotten tale 6 months from nowā¦
5 Reasons to quit PMO
- I want to respect women, they are not objects.
- I want my energy again that Iāve wasted in PMO.
- I want to become Confident.
- I want to live a new life without PMO.
- I want happiness, love, emotions in my life.
Iām in the challenge again!!!
@Forerunner I am in!
Strong reasons why I want to quit
- It hindered my spiritual progress.
- It stopped me from pursuing my goals, hobbies, and success.
- It made me physically weak and underweight.
- It caused frequent nightfall problem and PE.
- It took the natural glow and happiness away from my face.
- It made me disinterested in the right relationship with my parents.
- It fuelled anxiety, depression, loneliness and self-loathing, and caused deep shame, regret, social isolation and low self-esteem.
Strong reasons why I want to be free and clean
- I will improve a lot in spirituality.
- I will be doing the job I want to do. I will be successful and happy.
- My physical fitness will be admirable.
- There will be no x health problems.
- My face will get a natural glow, and my personality will become charismatic.
- My relationship with my parents will improve.
- My confidence, self-respect, and integrity will renew, and I will be happy with where my life will be leading.
Short, powerful vision statement
I will become physically more fit, more energetic, and productive after 60-90 days.
Positive Vision of a Free and Clean Life
With restored integrity, I feel love and connection to GOD, to my higher self, and the people around me. Iām finally free, bursting with energy, creativity, and motivation. Iāve regained my self-control, and I advance daily towards a happy, meaningful, and successful life by GODās Grace.
My Sword
A. I ACKNOWLEDGE that sometimes I have some URGES to peek or relapse.
B. It is NATURAL to get such temptations.
C. But I am FREE TO CHOOSE.
D. I do not want misery caused by pmo. I choose my VISION, where I am happy and SUCCESSFUL.
My Practice
I will use my sword ten times daily for the first 21 days. After 21 days, I will use it two times daily. I will keep a physical copy in situations where I am away from my laptop.
My Shield
I have Covenant Eyes, Google Family Link, Stay Focused, and BlockSite. I have intelligently built, unsurpassable, experimented blocks and blocks to prevent disabling those blocks. My Full NoFap Plan completes my shield.
My Commitments
- I choose to believe in myself. I know that I deserve to be free, and Iām willing to do what it takes to make that happen. I will give it my very best. Iām here to add 90 days to my streak.
- I choose to accept no excuses. I am stronger than every urge. No matter what comes my way or how I feel, I prefer to continue being free and clean. My streak will not be affected by any stress, anxiety, distress, boredom, anger, frustration, exhaustion, insomnia, or illness.
- I choose to allow only positive thoughts to remain in my mind. I choose not to indulge in any s thoughts, fantasies, or p memories.
- I choose to challenge each urge directly using the method described and choose my positive vision of a better life every time. I look forward to experiencing the power of transformative change.
- I choose to report here whenever Iām struggling and to help others if they need it.
- I choose to put in the work and check-in daily with my progress.
Day 16 (+0)
[I started from zero today because I like the number 16]
Affirmation - I am happy and SUCCESSFUL.
I am thankful for - Iām thankful for the help I receive from God and true friends.
Progress - No slip or relapse! Clean day!
Number of mini urges defeated, practices completed - 0, 10
16 Feb. 2020
- Affirmation - I believe in me!!
- I am thankful to- Iām thankful to God
- Progress - A Clean Day!
- Number of urges defeated, practices completed - 0, 0
Reporting day 8
One affirmation - I can achieve anything I put my mind to.
I am thankful for - A great day.
Progress - clean day
Urges 0 / Practice 3
Day 25 (178)
Affirmation: Stagnation breeds relapse. Been too lazy for this weekend
Progress: none. Sleeping and finally feeling better, plus college work
Urges: as always, too many to count
Notes: stagnation breeds relapse. Although I have a straight laced schedule, I fell off these past few months. God, it feels depressing when all you do is lay in bed, listening to the same old BS. You are much happier when you are at work and not gaining weight. Doing my workout right now after this post, because God help me, I feel miserable. Kinda like how you feel right before you relapse. Stay busy. Yes, there will be days when it all feels hopeless and impossible, but It is only impossible if you give up. Who knows, tomorrow might be the day you finally see some fat shed off those abs, or get a good paycheck, or she might just text back. It wont happen if you give up and just stay lazy.
@Forerunner, please update my details according to my new start. I started from ā16 (+0) 0ā yesterday. I am in Apprentice group at this time.
Heroās Day Streak: 58
Affirmation: I will achieve greatness! Iām already living the dream, I just have to scale it up!
Grateful for: My spiritual wife for giving me $60 due to being a tight month thanks to not thinking well on my part. Iām still getting used to having $120 less per month from my business as Iām reinvesting that money now. I would have been fine, but I went crazy ordering stuff on Amazon with extra money I had in an old fun money account, but then I ended up going over what was in there. Also, Valentineās Day dinner was $38 plus $10 gift and a few other things. All of the stuff off Amazon was important. A seat cushion for my computer chair to not slide, have better posture & far less back pain. A foot rest for the same reason. Fish tank heater & new filters for cheap fish Iām getting soon so my cat has something to look at when Iām at my spiritual wifeās place.
I just should have bought all that stuff over 2-3 months, not one. Idk what got over me. I think I just got adrenaline going through me when I realized I had an extra $140 and then my mom bought me a split couch (futon, but looks like actual couch) and I got uber excited and guess I just felt like I had that kind of money to spendā¦($430 after taxes and shipping).
Iām investing $50 with wealth simple per month, and could always transfer money from my savings/business earnings in an extreme situation, but shit like this doesnāt fly. Thatās why Iām so fucking grateful my spiritual wife gave me $60 to help me out.
Another productive and clean day!
Number of thoughts: 1
Number of urges: 0
Number of practices: 2
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Day 17 (+1)
Affirmation - I am happy and SUCCESSFUL.
I am thankful for - Iām thankful for the help I receive from God and true friends.
Progress - No slip or relapse! Clean day!
Number of mini urges defeated, practices completed - 1, 10
Day 26 (179)
Affirmation: āIf it feels so good, why are you always trying to quit?ā
I am Grateful for: having time to do my exams for college and getting better after being sick for a week. The struggles make me stronger.
Progress: working on my first exam for college
Urges: as always, too many to count
Notes: Its not gonna feel good or rewarding going back to porn. I know it all too well and lost many a streak due to it. Hell, I am surprised that tomorrow I hit 180 Days! After almost 30 relapses on NoFap, 180 Days. 6 MONTHS! Almost halfway there to a year. God it was rough. The urges, the depression, the FREAKING Wet Dreams nearly twice a week for the past month and a halfā¦not to mention the inevitable flatline that will happen. And then there is the constant wave of doubt and hopelessness that we all feel.
WORTH IT!
Now to get back into habits and to overcome the hard times and numerous amounts of work.
A fap a day keeps your crush/Ideal love away, as they said somewhereā¦I think Reddit.
Keep going. 90 days isnāt the official reboot period. Its is just a milestone, as it takes 21 days to make a habit, 90 days to make it a lifestyle, or at least easier to assimilate it. NoFap is life. If you think all the superpowers and good fortune will be there in one dayā¦well, I have bad news for you, buddy. One year as Gabe Dawg said. One year to see real benefits. Keep going.
17 Feb. 2020
- Affirmation - I believe in me!!
- I am thankful to- Iām thankful to this community.
- Progress - A Clean Day!
- Number of urges, practices completed - 0, 2
Day 18 (+2)
Affirmation - I am happy and SUCCESSFUL.
I am thankful for - Iām thankful for the help I receive from God and friends.
Progress - No slip or relapse! Clean day!
Number of mini urges defeated, practices completed - 3, 12
Heroās Day Streak: 59
Affirmation: Iāve earned my success so far and commit to the continuation of personal growth across all aspects of my life.
Grateful for: My awesome day with Spiritual wife. We ended up fully mooching the event and walked 14km today after walking 20km yesterday. My spiritual wife actually walked 100km this past week! Itās common for us to walk around 10km per day with 1-2 days off or light walking. 50km is easy in spring summer fall with no snow (first stage Pokemon reward) 100km not so much (second stage pokemon reward). We commonly walk 60-80km at the end of each week most weeks weather permitting, but that extra 20km is not a healthy desission. Personally I like about 65km per week in good weather.
Another productive and clean day!
Number of thoughts: 0
Number of urges: 0
Number of practices: 2
Iām more busy with my work now, but at the same time I used to waste so much time at home. This will allow me to still comforably walk 65km per week still I think. My work day is only 1-2 hours unless im learning something new, but thatās only maybe 1 day - 1 week tops of more than 4 hours per day.
Donāt get me wrong, I love working on my online business, but Iāve had a mindset shift to work efficiently and focused. But, when my business grows as I do, my efficient work day will get larger.
When I first got into Internet marketing, I had a 70 hour work week 4 weeks in a row due to researchā¦8-10 hours a day doing research.
Glad Iām well informed now and know what I want to do.
Day 27 (180)
Affirmation: Diamonds are made under pressure
I am Grateful for: having a Great Amount of time to sleep
Progress: making sure I get a lot of time specific stuff that needs to be done today at the right time.
Urges: Got one right now. But day 180, soā¦No.
Notes: Its not gonna be easy, but it will be worth it. 6 months without PMO. Wowā¦almost halfway there. Gotta keep going. Been good and praying for continued fortune.
Reporting day 10
One affirmation - Confidence in my work has improved.
I am thankful for - Good insights.
Progress - clean day
Urges 0 / Practice 3