29 March, 2:45 am
•Confession !!
I want to confess something here about my NoFap journey and overall growth and other stuff.
● On new year, I decided (like everyone did) to change myself to my better version in Studies, NoFap, Overall growth (like exercise, good sleeping schedule, etc) but now when I look back to last 3 months, I destroyed myself. I did nothing. Literally nothing to become better, to get out of this crap, to make myself and my parents proud. I just wasted my last 3 years.
● Today I was thinking about me that how I used to be 3 years back (now I am almost 20 years of age). Full of confidence, glow, super attractive, childish but at the same time top alpha, good in Studies, less introvert, never fapped, happy, proper sleeping schedule, best mental health, no overthinking, no phone addiction, used to ride bikes a lot (sports bikes), lots of male friends + female friends (many of them had crush on me), etc etc. In simple words :-- FREE !!
But now just opposite of what I wrote above. Just failing in almost every department of my life. Didn’t used Instagram, Facebook from last 4 years.
● My biggest biggest and biggest mistake was to accept that girl proposal 4 years back. Before her I had rejected almost 20-25 girls Proposals. But after accepting her proposal my life turned upside down. We were in relationship for almost 3.5 years (broke up in February 2022, more than a year now). I am not saying that she was wrong but … nothing…leave it. (Don’t want to write about this topic).
● From last many months I m trying so hard but failing miserably everytime. In Studies, growth, Nofap (writing my Relapses of this year)…
TOTAL RELAPSES ::-- 19 (from 1 January 2023)
TOTAL NIGHTFALLS ::-- 9 (from New Year)
》NOW I M GOING TO SLEEP. MAYBE I’LL TRY ONCE AGAIN FROM TOMORROW. YEAH, ILL TRY ONCE AGAIN. BCZ GIVING UP IS NEVER AN OPTION (Atleast until my death or mental breakdown).
PS ::-- If you read it till here, then THANKS BUDDY. Need your BEST WISHES
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