Oh okk… I never did this. I didn’t even know the meaning of edging before this.
Yeah. I m trying my best 
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My bad with the semantics. By ‘edging’ I didn’t necessarily mean masturbation without orgasm. I meant staying in an almost constant state of arousal through fantasies and whatnot.
Anyways, don’t let these nightfalls bother you so much. It’ll get better with time. The good thing is you didn’t do it voluntarily.
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24 February 
• Study
• Monk Mode NF
• Yoga
• Light Exercise
• Good Diet
• Sufficient Water
• Supplements
• Hair Care
• Screen On Time < 2hrs
• More Actions than Thinking
• Sleep between 1am to 8am
I relapsed on 23 February night and wasted 24th February. Slept late, woke up late and didn’t even eat breakfast. Watched some YouTube videos and used RC.
I payed 250 Rupees to one of my friend as I Relapsed on 23rd night. It was penalty or you can say Relapse fee. I’ll be doing this on each Relapse if Tiger bro will not make thread for himself, one more contestant and for me where we’ll put our money and the winner will get whole money. Let’s see.
Anyway, starting this day now and update it at night.
Bbye 
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》25 February
• Study
• Monk Mode NF
• Yoga
• Light Exercise
• Good Diet
• Sufficient Water
• Supplements
• Hair Care
• Screen On Time < 2hrs
• More Actions than Thinking
• Sleep between 1am to 8am
Improved little bit but far from best. Today I didn’t get good diet bcz all my family members got sick except me 
. But yeah diet was not bad at all. Only skipped lunch. Studied little and made some plans.
I decided to finish 100 Chapters in 33 Days. Means I have to finish all 100 Chapters till 31st March. From tomorrow I’ll be posting my done Chapters for the day. Seems very tough or almost impossible task to finish 100 Chapters in 33 days but not completely impossible. I’ll give my best and let’s see what will happen.
Now going to sleep,
Bbye, GN 
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All the best brother! Your hardwork will surely pay off!
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Best of luck Yash.
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Thanks brothers !!
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》26 February
• Study (only 2 hrs.)
• Monk Mode NF
• Yoga
• Light Exercise
• Good Diet
• Sufficient Water
• Supplements
• Hair Care
• Screen On Time < 2hrs
• More Actions than Thinking
• Sleep in 7 hours range
Woke up very late (around 12 pm). Then wasted 1 hr. in Overthinking 
and had breakfast. From tomorrow I’ll keep one point check for No morning Overthinking. Then Oiled my hairs, ate sandwiches (family members are sick so no proper lunch) and wasted time on YouTube. Bathed around 9 pm and ate dinner. Watched Ben 10 and after 12 am started my studies 
. Studied only 2 hrs today but definitely improve it tomorrow bcz only 33 days left and 100 chapters are on the line.
Going to sleep, Bbye, GN
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》27 February
• Study
• Monk Mode NF
• Yoga
• Light Exercise
• Meditation
• Good Diet
• Sufficient Water
• Supplements
• Hair Care
• Screen On Time < 2hrs
• More Actions than Thinking
• Sleep in 7 hours range
• No Overthinking after Waking Up
I m going through so much Urges to watch ■■■■. I even opened site for 2 minutes then I closed it immediately. I realized one thing that my body isn’t craving for masturbation but my mind is craving for ■■■■ (obviously for Dopamine). I m fighting them with so much stiffness. If I Relapse then I’ll No Longer be a man of my words🗿.
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》28 February
• Study (4 hrs.)
• Monk Mode NF
• Yoga
• Light Exercise
• Meditation
• Good Diet
• Sufficient Water
• Supplements
• Hair Care
• Screen On Time < 2hrs
• More Actions than Thinking
• Sleep in 7 hours range
• No Overthinking after Waking Up
Nothing special today. Had very strong urges but somehow survived.
I just finished my dinner at 11:35 pm (I know it’s pretty late). Actually I was taking lecture of about 6 hrs. and finished it at around 11:10 pm.
I realized one thing today i.e. I quite messed up everything in my studies. There’s only 65 days left in NEET and I have left all 100 chapters to prepare 
. Before starting my preparation I was thinking covering 100 chapters will be easy but when I finished just only 1 lecture of 6 hrs., I realized it’ll be so so tough to cover such huge number of chapters in such a short time.
Anyway, can’t leave anything behind. I did this mistake and only I can fix this. Going through heavy stress just bcz of Syllabus completion. Anyone can give me some tips for how to complete such a huge Syllabus in no time.
Maybe now I’ll study for few more hours.
EDIT:- I just watched explicit content. I did peeking back to back 2 days. I didn’t Relapse though but end result of prolonged peeking is always Relapse. So now I have to take control of my brain and Stop peeking.
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Almost Relapsed but somehow closed the tab and gathered consciousness. Now I have to follow one strict rule i.e. No Adult Content in any kind of urges whether they’re light or heavy.
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My obsession for nature increasing day by day. It skyrocketed in the last 1-2 years.
I don’t know why but I love Animals much more than humans. There’s no specification or discrimination about any animals. I love all of them equally whether it’s a Dog, Cat, Cow, Buffalo, Squirrel, etc etc. I don’t have many pics bcz whenever I see any animal I started playing with him/her and everytime I forget to take pictures. 
But I took this today after playing with them for 20-30 minutes.
PS: I love Dogs and Cats more as compared to any other animals 
One of the best color in flowers I ever seen.
These flowers are present at my rooftop.
PS: I know this post is not related to my Diary or my studies but I was feeling to post it so that’s why.
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Bro same i love my cats! i mean look at them how can something be cute and stupid at the same time 
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You have cats as pets ?
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Yeah bro,
The cat was very weak and i think it was going to die but my mother fed her and now she doesn’t leave our house 
- She created her own family here
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You are very lucky. I m feeling jealous 
.
Everytime I try to pet cats or give them food they always runs away.
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Yeah some cats are like that , but some are friendly also
My cat when i try to pet her: ignores
Then after sometime it comes to my study table and sit infront of me like : You have to pet me now 
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5 March, 11:32 am
I relapsed last night. This was my longest streak in last 1 year (almost 10 days). Actually I was peeking from day 8 and finally it happened. Not feeling so bad but yeah not good either.
Anyway, I’ll post wallpapers saying my day from day 10 bcz I already posted till my 9th day. So not posting till day 9 and will resume it after day 9. I know this 9 days journey will not be easy but I know can do it and after surpassing day 9 I think it’ll become easy for me to go beyond day 10.
PS: This journey will only become easy if I’ll not Peek anything. Peeking is the biggest distraction or enemy for me. Idk why but my brain always convince me for peeking but never for porn. So porn isn’t Problem for me but peeking is definitely a big problem.
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