Damn those urges hit hard last night mentality and physically. Well last night I watch a bit of YouTube and I love the Pongfinity channel its awesome so I watched their new vids they uploaded. Then hopped around a bit to other ping pong vids. And then bam it struck me the urge to jump to porn, it was calling in the back of my mind then I relised I’m in troubled waters so I immediately switched of my Wi-Fi turned off the phone and went to sleep. But in my body it still called me that urge, so I just prayed until I fell asleep.
But I feel great beating it. This is the first time in 3 weeks on my streak that porn is calling me I can use my trigger for something cooler instead. I know I am like an alcoholic with the glass in his hand and poking around in the fire and can get burnt, but I wanna rewire my mind to use Youtube to inspire me on the things I like and not to encourage me to go back to porn as it was my trigger.
Still going strong, still building this , I don’t wanna go down, not now. I am stronger, wiser than in the past. Falling for lies and empty promises. I am done with the past and the bad things thereof. With this darkness inside coming out hitting and hurting, but I come and fight back. Knowning this time with the armour of God, I am protected and a mighty warrior.
So the devil is crying saying Cubenix come back to some plesure and some fun. Well I told him he better run… Because I am done with his crap what it has done. If he angers me more he’ll face the wrath of my God, and with God’s blade I will cut the darkness inside out of me all the demons wouldn’t touch me, because their heads will be chopped clean off. Peace!
LET’S GO FOR THAT GOAL! GOOD JOB FOR MAKING IT SO FAR ON YOUR JOURNEY AND CONTINUE TO PUSH ON AND GROW STRONG! IF YOU RELAPSED BOUNCE BACK FIGHT HARDER AND BECOME THE BETTER VERSION OF YOU, YOU WANNA BE. THANKS FOR THE READ AND STAY STRONG STAY AWESOME AND GOD BLESS YOU ALL!