Ever since I was born , most of my decisions were based on the opinion of others. Never I took major decisions in my life because I want it. I am not here to blame. I want to change it.
So this is a self challenge ( like many ) . One of my main obstacles I am facing is the lack of meaning. So I am like creating a topic here for accountability where I mention my wildest dreams and ideas and be accountable for that.
In the 2nd post , I’ll mention my bucket list there with checklist there which act as milestone to my main goal.
Unless there are important stuffs happening like exams etc , I am planning to atleast spend 30 minutes daily.
I’ll update here daily . If I have not done anything. I’ll update as nothing done.
Lack of Self esteem these days make me doubt my consistency. But being a failure is better than being a coward. The worst case scenario that can happen is that I will fail to be consistent and this also becomes a part of many failures I had in my life. But if I win , this will be a life changing one being able to compensate the failures I had till now.
I’ve created milestone for every bucket list that can come in my mind rn.
There are 2 types of bucket lists - Temporary and Permanant
Temporary - Meeting celebrities like Dhoni
Permanant - Having 75 Kg and Six pack
Bucket List Scrap - Twitch 1 M followers
Reason - I used this bucket list as a reason to study regularly. like I livestream myself studying , " The study with me " thing. But there’s a problem. My lap is an oldie with problems with microphone and poor quality video. So I think I better scrap this idea now.
Attended all classes without bunking . This is acheivement comparing my performance last few weeks. But have to study more. Will post deadline in my diary.
I have many ideas I only think about stories while drawing sketches and designs of my characters. I remember I said you to draw one for you but sadly forgotten about that sorry for that but will surely help !
As long as I didn’t reveal any more like her full name or her face , I believe its fine. Also only few people know my real name.
Like u tell me ? What can you infer from that name ? A women with a random name. I could have said another names like Shradda or Alia and that will not create any difference
I am just writing that to emphasise certainity to my actions. If things backfire , like if someone i know irl comes here. I anonimise this account and start a new one fresh
Thats a solid advice. But here’s the thing. I am just setting this as a goal so that I will study Mtech.
Personally I don’t wanna be the best in that. In fact I reached a state where I feel I don’t wanna defeat her. But I am writing it as my bucket list so that I will consider studying as priority
Why would you have to do that though? If someone from your real life comes here, they’d be joining here to overcome the addiction and self-improvement only. I believe it’ll rather provide you with an option to have a real support system in the form of a friend who can support you both here and irl. Like when I joined here back in 2020, I had invited a friend from real life here and he joined as well but never posted here. We used to support each other a lot in initial days. If you wish to protect the girl, you can instead get this thread deleted by requesting to moderator.
I said that for an example but since you have no problem then why would I have? On the top of everything your reasoning is correct I can agree with you! Also since it motivates you then it’s a great thing as long as it can help you in surpassing your limits.
Best of luck bro! You can do It
I had a shit experience when I studied Btech. I had a crap friend who was suffering from PMO too. Due to some coincidence he confessed to me that he had that addiction.
I had like 100 + streak that time. So I suggested this app and this forum and said I have 100 + streak. He got very crazy and frequently started to talk about it ( I dont talk about no fap or PMO at all irl so I hate those convos ) .
He started to say like " You are good at studies because you have a good no fap streak ryt ? etc etc " . These dialogues became a normal conversation. Even some girls in my class came to know about this.
Those girls who knew about it kept silent but it was a shit experience.
Reason 2 - I keep a cold exterior irl. I don’t express too much emotions outside. I vent all up here. I don’t want people to know me personally.
Only if your friend is sensible and matured enough. Unlike the friend of mine.
Thats a good idea. Thanks for that. Will look into it.
bro! You can do It 