The Hero's 90 Day Challenge! 👑

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Day 61, 214

Affirmation: change your environment; make the good things easy to do, the hard things bad to do.

Urges: the tipping point. Wanted to go look, tried to a little, but…well, thank God for ■■■■ Blockers. With a few exceptions, I couldn’t even if I wanted to. Think like me in a padded cell clinging and clawing at the walls. “GIMME ■■■■!”. Yeah, too bad. I swear, this must be what a junkie in withdrawal feels like.

Too bad. I could go searching and find nothing. Even then, I may just snap out of it. Cranky as hell, though. I swear this beast gets worse by every day. Might need a therapist before I find a way to get to the sin.

Progress: Survived and saved myself from a baaaaaaad relapse…again. Dunno why, but the urges have been horrible these past 2 weeks. Still going strong. I don’t wanna go back to 0.

Notes: Get a good ■■■■ blocker like Detoxify and Blocksite. Ones with uninstall blockers. Might just save your streak, and your life.

“Oh, God, I need a fix, but…the ■■■■ blockers won’t let me… GIMME MY FIX I WANT MY DOSE OF ■■■■, GIMMEGIMMEGIMMEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE—”

LOL like a rampant animal in a cage. Its good to be alive. We gon be aight, yall. Still, even with almost no way to get to ■■■■…urges can be a killer.

UPDATE: AND GOD HAS REWARDED ME! Got sent home early to study and get my stuff together for an inportant thing wednesday. I guess Teshawn’s Adventure was right: A special superpower is that everything tends to work in your favor. Law of Attraction and all. Thank you God for ■■■■ Blockers and a little Self Control.

Let it be a lesson, Yall: Good things, via Law of attraction, tends to happen a lot when you have finally given up all hope, but decided to keep going one more time. Remember the diamond miner pic:

Three-feet-from-gold

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:dagger: Streak = 19 (+19)

:lion: Affirmation: Har kisi ka din aata hai. Mera bhi ayega.
:innocent: I am thankful for: God’s Mercy
:white_check_mark: Progress: Free And Clean Day :smiley:
:martial_arts_uniform: Urges Defeated, Practices Completed: 2, 10

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:crown: Hero’s Day Streak: 94

:yin_yang:Affirmation: I love myself and I will use social distancing as a huge opportunity to grow like I have been the past week.
:white_check_mark: Another productive and clean day!
:thinking: Number of thoughts: 0
:frowning: Number of urges: 0
:martial_arts_uniform: Number of practices: 2

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Day 1
Affirmation I am strong and will surely succeed.
URGES: 0
Practice 3 times.

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:dagger: Streak = 20 (+20)

:lion: Affirmation: Har kisi ka din aata hai. Mera bhi ayega.
:innocent: I am thankful for: God’s Mercy
:white_check_mark: Progress: Free And Clean Day :smiley:
:martial_arts_uniform: Urges Defeated, Practices Completed: 4, 10

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Reporting day 11

One affirmation - Creativity is enhanced.

I am thankful for - Having patience.

Progress - clean day

Urges 0 / Practice 3

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Day 62 (215)

Affirmation: Love your Enemies

  • Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

Gratitude: grateful for sites, Subreddits, Stories and groups of people that make me mad. Sometimes just reading a thread about some prejudicial person degrading me or generalizing people due to porn addiction actually angers me not to relapse. Seriously. Again, look on reddit or read stories of betrayed spouses and divorcees, who then become so angered that they believe in stuff like “People are this, people are that; some people need to be this or that; i am better than you”. Shaming can be a great motivator.

Urges: Sooooooo wanna relapse right now. Been getting worse, no matter what I do. The more I resist, the more it urges me. The more I resist, the stronger It comes back. I keep going to Reddit, YouTube and Here, as well as others, to keep fighting the urges. Got a big day tomorrow and I will not be swayed by relapses or shame.

Progress: bout to do a quick workout and then study for a big day tomorrow. I will win this. And then I will celebrate with joy because The demons didn’t win.

Notes: Sometimes attacking your ego and angering you can motivate you. Seeing stuff like feminists or chauvanists talking smack on reddit generalizing, people being zero sum with us, talking smack that we will forever be addicted losers and low value people…I know it isnt good to be codependent on validation from others, bit man does it infuriate me the more I fight and persevere on Nofap.

Perhaps this video (NSFW: Strong language and prejudice, but harsh reality.) might get my point across and anger you enough to say “NO! I refuse to be put down like that. Don’t EVER talk to me like that again. I ain’t your inferior, I ain’t no Porn Addict and I’ll be damned if ANYONE will tell me that is my reality. Screw YOU, buddy!”

https://youtu.be/Q4PE2hSqVnk

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:bow_and_arrow: Streak = 21 (+21)

:lion: Affirmation: Har kisi ka din aata hai. Mera bhi ayega.
:innocent: I am thankful for: God’s Mercy
:white_check_mark: Progress: Free And Clean Day :smiley:
:martial_arts_uniform: Urges Defeated, Practices Completed: 2, 10

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@Alegend promoted to the Mercenary arena

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Day 63 (216)

Affirmation: Nofap is Life

Gratitude: I am SO Grateful for winning my Promotion Board! I need to improve, but I am still grateful. As Dr Tian mentioned: “Gratitude Drives out fear”.

Urges: was not so bad today, because I had seeious Priorities.

Progress: I won. Kindness of my superiors, God’s blessing and NoFap and Studying, as well as a few other things, has got me a win. Sometimes, Things just turn in your favor. Let this be a milestone before I go back to Mr. Pessimism. I could have relapsed last night, but I held on to it. It gave me power. I was nervous. I was shaking. I slipped up. But through it…somehow I stayed resilient. NoFap…there is some magic to it. Something I cannot explain.

Notes: Keep your seed. Keep your life energy. Sometimes, the benefits do not show up until a certain time. There is some sort of magic here. Don’t relapse. Win. Fight. Persevere. Remember the cause. Remember the Glengarry Glen Ross Speech and other motivational speeches.

2020 is OUR year. The Year of the Nofappers. We taking over like you mentioned, @HappySoul

UPDATE: Remember this, Though: Porn Blockers and Accountability Partners are good, but they are not perfect. I have to routinely update my porn blockers, especially on my computers, and test search results, which is a gamble. You need to understand that the greatest blocker is your own willpower. If you value Porn, you will find the loopholes and a way to get to it. Hell, I KNOW the loopholes of my blockers, and I ain’t gonna lie, especially with tonight’s search results failing (Luckily it is just search results and not images, don’t do that; that screwed me over many times), Urges are always there. Sometimes I think a Flip Phone may be the best way.

NoFap does not mean you will never see temptations; It just means you are going to resist the urge EVERY single time. We gonna make it. And thank God for Porn Blockers; best investment I made in my life.

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Regardless, I did do the search results for testing porn blockers, and…well I would consider that a peek so…yeah. restart.

Day 0 again. Damn. Rules are rules. 215 days yall. New freaking record! Hell yes!

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Safe surfer is the best porn blocker in android play market really works it automatically blocks porn sites and you can manual block the sites you want for example I blocked some porns sites which safe surfer doesn’t block automatically, also I blocked youtube.com (because of its time killing), fb.com all society except wp

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:bow_and_arrow: Streak = 22 (+22)

:lion: Affirmation: Har kisi ka din aata hai. Mera bhi ayega.
:innocent: I am thankful for: God’s Mercy
:white_check_mark: Progress: Free And Clean Day :smiley:
:martial_arts_uniform: Urges Defeated, Practices Completed: 3, 10

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Reporting day 12

One affirmation - I am focussed and determined.

I am thankful for - Meditating daily.

Progress - clean day

Urges 0 / Practice 3

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:crown: Hero’s Day Streak: 97

:yin_yang:Affirmation: Keep mooching this opportunity to grow personally, financially, spiritually, significant other, and health.
:white_check_mark: Another productive and clean day!
:thinking: Number of thoughts: 0
:frowning: Number of urges: 2
:martial_arts_uniform: Number of practices: 2

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And Im back. Day 0.

Affirmations: Struggle makes me stronger.
-Fearless Motivation

Gratitude: unpopular Opinion: I am grateful for the relapse. After all this time, the greatest lessons and new ideas and God intervened Breakthroughs happen after I relapsed. I just hate that when I fall, I fall hard. Oh well.

Urges: well, its not so bad right now, bit It will get back to me.

Progress: just modified the living CRAP out of my phone. Working on my Laptop now. Found some sister apps with my Detoxify Porn Blocker.

Hey, I am looking for a stronger challenge now. I thrive off of new high stakes levels. And with these, it makes it harder to get ANY stimulation. Not perfect, as I can still go to search results, but no further than that.

Notes: New apps, new rules, new standards. Still need some more training on urges and stuff, but we getting there. A chance for a REAL pure streak. Rebooting is gonna be MUCH faster and better now.

Also I am looking for some accountbility partners with my new app. You can message me for details on how the app works if you are interested.

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:bow_and_arrow: Streak = 23 (+23)

:lion: Affirmation: Har kisi ka din aata hai. Mera bhi ayega.
:innocent: I am thankful for: God’s Mercy
:white_check_mark: Progress: Free And Clean Day :smiley:
:martial_arts_uniform: Urges Defeated, Practices Completed: 3, 10

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Day 0 Continued.

Gratitude: for some freaking ingenuity and how tos for the internet

Affirmation: If you really want something, you will find a way. If there is no way…You will MAKE one.

Urges: A crap ton. Luckily, I upgraded the blockers and protections through various apps and modifications. Not 100 percent impossible to find something, but isnt that the name of the game: to find better improvements and the self control to conquer urges?

Progress: Costs some cash, but I upgraded on my phone by changing my browsers, app locking stuff, disabling some stuff and getting accountability. Plus i got Uninstall Protection for things, so…yeah…

Still working on my laptop. Man, NoFap brings out the dogged creativity in you. I’ll find a way, and then it will be very difficult for me to fail. And then, Imma keep working on urge resistance.

Also wanting to try Monk Mode sorta by reducing dependence on technology. Phone and internet addiction is getting to me, and I dont need that. Limit my time on Rewire as well with App lock.

Notes: familyfirsttechnology is a wonderful freaking organization. That is all.

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:crown: Hero’s Day Streak: 98

:yin_yang:Affirmation: Life is good!
:white_check_mark: Another productive and clean day!
:thinking: Number of thoughts: 0
:frowning: Number of urges: 0
:martial_arts_uniform: Number of practices: 2

Getting back on track of checking in here every day vs once then not for 2 days, then one then not for 2 days and so forth.

Live has been changing rapidly over the past 2 weeks in a good way, so I just have some adjusting to do :blush:.

Keep up the great work crew!

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:bow_and_arrow: Streak = 24 (+24)

:lion: Affirmation: Har kisi ka din aata hai. Mera bhi ayega.
:innocent: I am thankful for: God’s Mercy
:white_check_mark: Progress: Free And Clean Day :smiley:
:martial_arts_uniform: Urges Defeated, Practices Completed: 4, 10