I honestly think writing on this forum is a waste of time.
Time that I could spend on my craft. But I am somehow still a slave of my mind.
I need to observe it fully.
I was horny today and so what I did was to write here. This needs to stop sooner or later.
That is the reason why I quit this forum once and decide to pursue Akhand Brahmacharya.
But by saying that I was saying to my mind. “Fuck you ! You messed up. No sex for you for lifetime.”
And the mind kept bringing me more thoughts of sex. Again and again. It went worse till I had to come back to this forum.
That is the ultimate goal that we become OBSESSED like and EINSTEIN, a TESLA, an ELON MUSK to our PURPOSE in life.
We all know our PURPOSE at this point. At least we have clues. BUT WE ARE STILL SLAVE TO OUR MINDS.
One thing that I have learnt is that the mind does not like to be bullied. Nor does the body.
WE HAVE BEEN BULLYING IT ALL THIS WHILE. NO SEX FOR YOU. NOFAP, NOORGASM. ETC.
I realized this with my cold shower thing. There is always a resistance when doing cold showers. (Back hwen I was consistent with it.). The mind would be like. NO NO NO. Dont fucking do it.
THere was so much resistance. My attitude was FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU. You have no choice. And it went good. For a long time actually. Then somehow when I went to a place with no GEYSER. I HAD NO CHOICE TO SWITCH TO A WARM SHOWER and I found that I was skipping SHOWERS all together few days here and there. THAT WAS TORTURE for THE MIND.
Now what I do is I take a cold shower and after that I turn it to warm after 30 s or so.
This way when mind resists I say ITS OK. I WILL GIVE YOU YOUR WARM SHOWER SOON.
There is no mental RESISTANCE. THE MIND SUPPORTS ME ON THIS DIFFICULT TASK.
WE NEED TO BEFRIEND OUR MINDS GUYS. Easier said than done. WE NEED TO SHOW THE MIND BETTER PLEASURES AND NOT TORTURE IT TOO MUCH. SO WHEN WE TORTURE IT FOR GOOD, IT SUPPORTS US.
WE NEED TO HAVE PLEASURE FROM BETTER SOURCES SO THAT The mind is ready to QUIT PMO AND SEX.
Those SOURCES ARE SPIRITUALITY, CONNECTION TO LIFE PURPOSE AND CONNECTION TO FRIENDS AND FAMILY.
I also NOTICE THAT WRITING ON THIS FORUM OR WATCHIGN VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE IS A SHORTCUT TO FEEL CONNECTED.
WE NEED TO OBSERVE, UNDERSTAND AND TALK THROUGH OUR MIND. UNDERSTAND THE ROOT CAUSE. !
I again spent more time on this forum. BECAUSE I TOLD MY MIND LIKE A DICTATOR. WORK WORK WORK.
AND THE MIND IS LIKE FUCK YOU. IT IS MAKING IT DIFFICULT TO WORK. WE have to PROMISE IT SOURCES OF PLEASURE.
We have to treat our minds like we treat kids.
When your kid is addicted to fapping, what would you tell him ?
No ! YOU CANNOT FAP !
I hope not. You would listen to it, understand the problem and be compassionate.
TREAT YOUR MIND LIKE YOUR KID.