The Ambitious One's Diary - Growing up with losses

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Ah shit dude. :people_hugging:
It’s ok bro, it’s all ok.
Just get what you are supposed to do done no matter what you feel.
It’ll get better.
Plus you can always call me, anytime.

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Bruh. Sorry to hear this
 Don’t be sad bro
 Be strong and go out and enjoy


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Brother @The_Ambitious_One
Don’t cry buddy, you are not alone.
Do not think that you are. Look outside! You can see!
You are still alive and each breath is a blessing from the lord. He loves you and he wants you to be happy. So he gaved you a life to work for happiness.
Don’t isolate yourself from the world. There is no shame to ask for an advice from your mother. She is the one who loves you the most and her advice is from her heart. Cheer up! Enjoy your life!
There is absolutely no reason to be sad.
Excuses are obstacles, Excuses are lies!
And the only way to escape lies is with truth.
And there is only one truth.
Which is in your heart.

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yes :triumph: now its enough

thats really overwhelming dude thanks a lot :people_hugging:

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3 Feb
Woke up early , didn’t get much concentrated sleep but I don’t care . I will try my best to improve . Studied 2 hours in the morning and went to exercise and meditate in early sunshine . It feels fresh .
Observations :–

  • It was difficult to silent the mind as different voices and memories were going around .
  • The past failures were dragging my present happiness and that causes worries and tension , whether I would be able to pursue this or I will end up being the same .
  • Negative emoitions have a little edge over positivity .
  • I can study just as fine if out of worries and completely focused on it .
  • When things get clear , I start focusing on whether it stays like that or its just temporary . Which causes negativity due to thinking in some time .
  • Everything changes in the matter of hours . The days are just phases of emotions and everything is temporary . A small failure in any field leads to negative thoughts about it and ends in more stress .
  • I build perception about good and bad fast , if I can do things smoothly , I get motvated . When I can’t I feel demotivated and can’t go further because of that negativity .

Conclusions -

  • Need to stay in present . Just observe thoughts and let them pass by acknowledging their nature and time . If the thought’s about future , I don’t need to worry . If the thought’s about past , its gone , can’t change it . If its just imagination , its never happening . All I have to do is live in what’s happening now .
  • Stop paying attention to the negative feelings all the time . I have been doing it every year , I will do good this year too .
  • Things don’t change , they are just perceptions . If I just focus on my work without having to worry about how am I doing it , then there won’t be any problems .
  • Practice more mindfulness and increase positivity .
  • Get busy on other things when thoughts arise .
  • BE STRONG AND ENJOY LIFE . EVERYTHING IS TEMPORARY .
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Feb 6
Time’s passing fast . But I am giving my best . Just need to work off a few worries . I can find out when I start thinking and focus on the present more now . Study time increasing gradually . Can’t post much habits here because I am already maintaining offline and online journal . Daily life habits as well as study tasks . Have joined discord pomodoro sessions when I need have some work on my laptop . Rest is smooth . Not forgetting to live my life along with studying .
Peace out

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I feel great now
I use mobile only for 10 mins
No SM
I felt really great but I slipped today but I Will go Again, Its not about nofap anymore
Its about how happily you can enjoy life
Progress creates Happiness

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11 Feb

Its 15 days rush now . I have to grind as much as I can . Compulsory 12 hrs a day is must for me . I am doing good too , the only thing remaining is fear and anxiety , after all I had faced in recent . I started doubting my capability . Few things are still there in my head , able to focus on work and get out of thinking during the day , but in night it subconsciously happens . From past 3 days , I get awake suddenly in the middle of the night thinking its morning now . But I will keep fighting , there’s a bit of entertainment in this , waking up to grind , fighting all day and feeling proud at night . I need to be consistent and focused that’s it . Not gonna focus whether fear about its boards or whatever , what others are studying like , or about nightfall , I don’t care. Just keep studying like always and give the exam without thinking about conclusions . I know mind is weak right now , I am getting affected from little to little things , such as others doing better than me or myself failing in some questions . That’s life , learning , failing and getting up and learning again . I don’t need to tense whether I will remember things or not , I will , I believe myself and I believe in god . NO TIME TO DIE
PS: Mom’s returning tomorrow :smiley:

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Finally :partying_face::partying_face:




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Why tf are you so happy? :skull:

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I was wondering too :skull:

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That’s seem suspicious, I think we should rewind some chat in the previous diary of aadi and the legendary quote, If
I mean, Aadi doesn’t mind​:skull::skull:

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The Office No GIF - The Office No Angry GIFs

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Wait lemme just send it? or should I stop myself.:joy: I am just connecting dots

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you better should
‎ vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv

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Lekin sacchai tak toh pohchna padega,

ye rishta kya kehlata hai isko samjhna padega

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Someone get this guy out of here

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I really wanna send that picture, uncontrolable urge, but no.

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weird fetish but its old now , no one’s affected

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