It’s the same
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Arey bc(bohot changa)
We actually have invisible characters. Try copying in front of the message I sent.
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Wait th.
I ain’t gonna say anything because i am feeling sad myself and can’t imagine how guilty you are feeling rn.
But dw, the end of that streak is going to be the beginning of an endless streak fs!!
And you know what to do bro!
Nothing is lost, you have just slipped,you haven’t fallen yet, and you won’t fall , you have to be more careful this time.
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January 20
Started my day… pretty confusingly . Thoughts even during sleep have degraded the quality of sleep so I find it difficult to wake up peacefully . Well , did exercise - meditation properly and studied well . I was much productive today as compared to last 1 week and now , have the motivation to push more . Though , I was getting out of drive frequently . A thing which I noticed was the gain and loss mindset . For eg , while doing tests , I feel very confident if I am able to solve it nicely . But as I get stuck in a few questions , my mind diverts more towards the worries than focusing on solving . I get underconfident , panicked and confused . I need to be peaceful .
After this , came home while feeling very low and opened youtube . I was lucky that Hamza’s new video popped and it was exactly related to what I was facing . I saw his video and watched a podcast from where he sourced it . IT BLEW MY MIND UP .
I have learnt a lot… lot about all the dopamine craving and lack related issues . It was very long but managed to watch it in less than 1 hr .
I have understood all the basics of dopamine functionality .
Basically , my baseline has been disturbed after the peak . After the peak , I think I’ll be back to normal dopamine baseline soon but instant peek leads to dopamine below the baseline . I start feeling bad , out of drive , unmotivated . Not just PMO peek , but all the things giving me instant pleasure have added to this and I keep finding more dopamine to feel good . I was indulged in social media , procrastination and games(for some days) . I did not work to neutralize it and kept feeling bad cause they provide only a short lived dopamine which skyrockets and then falls deep down the baseline . I order to get back , I first need to detox so I gain that tendency back and then use the gratifications wisely . There is always the pleasure and pain balance like the 
yin yang . Heavy peak = Heavy drop in baseline and more instant pleasure gives more pain . When it gets into the long run , the pain is long run too .
But there is the opposite to this too , which was the most important part I learnt . Which is accessing pleasure from pain . Hardwork and and embracing pain lead to pleasure in the long run and provide internal motivation . But the thing is , I don’t have to do work hard only for gaining the pleasure in the future , I won’t be able to do it that way because the central thing then is the reward and not the activity . I have to do it because I like doing it . I need to tell myself that I am feeling pain , though there will be rewards for this , but now I am doing this because I am a warrior and I love fighting . Also , after successfully completing the work and feeling good , I don’t have to get involved in the peeking again . I don’t have to get spike after that activity , I have to get it from doing that activity .
For me rn , the main sources of intense pleasure were : sleep in the morning , sitting in front of the laptop and doing nothing , scrolling youtube , thinking and fantasizing .
After so many days , I could not sit for study for even 3 hours straight . So , now we are fighting all these and not running behind relying on happiness or pleasure .
Its just that I get afraid and panicked fast and that blacks my whole mindset .
Singing off
MOTIVATION IS TEMPORARY , DISCIPLINE IS PERMANENT
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Oh no that got too long
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That’s the point in journaling man! The more you write the more you benefit from it. Don’t write a little for others, write a lot for yourself. Even if it’s long, there will always be someone who will read everything and also benefit from it 
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The universe is based on balance. If your dopamine hits 150% it will be 50% later on cause the number between them is 100%. So stay balanced at the normal 100% cause in life, the unbalanced never last forever.
I’m glad you became better bro. All the best for your latter on exams as well. You truly inspired me @The_Ambitious_One
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Don’t only watch Hamza. He’s a little narrow minded and also all of his views aren’t accurate. Learn to take the best from everyone, so like I do, watch him and other YouTubers as well, and take the best from all of their experiences. That’s what great people do.
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true . I reject some of his opinions but this video let to a very helpful podcast of a guy .
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22th January
Things have been fluctuating in my mind . Did detox yesterday , felt good . But got distracted today . I need more focus . Its just about the perceptions in my mind . The cycle of negativity and positivity . I feel good by evening and night but the thoughts go around all night and I get stuck in the morning again . Although , I found out that getting concentrated in work again gets it better . Yesterday , mood was positive all day and no thoughts inside but they appeared as soon as I went to sleep .
Well , listened to some spiritual affirmations to remove out all worries . It works well and just think to be no more negative but when some or other problem arises , I start thinking bad again . I am just limited by my thinking , that’s it . I will still try to not focus in it and will always do . These small problems are very small in comparison to the vast expanse of the universe . There are bigger things going around in the world , and things more to enjoy than feel sad about . Time is finite and everything is greater than imagination . These thoughts help me come back to the present and live the moment .
Also , watched a very inspirational video -
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285:Days of No Fap is nooo Joke
You are the 1% Aadi
I want you to be more Calm
I feel the strugle and Anxiety in you when I read the Journal
Everything’s gonna be fine
Be Happy <3 
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thanks 
sure 
How are you doing
online after so many days
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26th January
Happy Republic Day
I am feeling more positive than before now . There is some lack of concentration but I ignore those and focus on my work . Days are still good , nights are hectic . Sometimes , I can’t figure whether a thing happened in reality or in my mind during sleep . Struggling to sleep peacefully . But I have adopted it now and working to find the causes . Today I started good in morning , but many guests came in afternoon and got distracted . Still , I could have done better , I will not use it as an excuse . Sometimes I feel like forgetting what I am studying after a few days . But stop worrying , because I remember everything while writing .
I am focusing mainly on being healthy , strong and disciplined . Regarding nofap , I didn’t even realize when 10 days passed unlike the other times . Its like I am not forcing myself to do nofap . I just DO NOT FAP . Though , some sexual thoughts arise in night , night again , everything happens in night but I will do my best . No such urges as of now . Now I really enjoy fighting and tolerating pain
Meditation is effective now , I face problem in the starting but as I move on , I am able to focus at one place . Study till night and then sleep . I got left behind of today’s tasks . Tomorrow , I will complete today’s as well as tomorrow’s tasks .
Guess what guys ,
that headphone which I broke and missed for months but then got a new one so forgot about it… is now repaired 
. The sound was back . But mic wasn’t working so no use during calls and study . Gave it to my mom and I am good with new one .
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Damn. Did time repair it? 
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no no
my father had already sent it for repairing many months back
I had no idea
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Things get worse or better , we do not stop living .
I will keep slaying the demons till I am alive . I will not be weak . Everything is temporary and will pass soon . I will work my best and show them how its to achieve even if you are not on your upmost . Its never peaceful , I will make it peaceful . No crying , no sadness . I will make the pain feel pain . I will love feeling pain . HAPPINESS AND SADNESS ARE JUST SEASONS
How it feels to fight the inside as well outside at the same time and still maintaining the power .
I will come out as strong as no one will ever imagine .
I will climb back
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Feb 2nd
Things are getting up and down . I started good in the morning , but slowly as the day passed , I felt miserable . I am feeling physically and mentally exhausted from past 2 days . Worrying and stress are rampant . I keep making myself motivated and losing it again and again . I am mostly alone in the daytime in my home . Mother has went out for few days , She told me to call her whenever I feel something , but when I tried to , I really didn’t want to do so . I thought that its my problem and I have to face it myself . Though , she gives the best advices , but I need to harden myself . Today , my stress kept increasing by evening , teared up a little bit . Still feeling to do so . I thought it might be due to excess nightfall , but its still because of nightdream thoughts and low quality sleep . It is lopping like a chain . I feel worse , get frustrated and tear down , get motivated again and again feel the same after several days . Exams are near , I was okay with all I was . I could still do my best…but this is draining everything . I try to forget and move on but it sticks , I try to leave all worries and focus but what I think earlier that motivates me drains out of my mind and only fear , worries persist .
I want to escape . I can’t stick to a feeling , either self - belief or the belief in god . Focus and memory are weakened . I feel tired and sleepy . And when I actually sleep , I never get enough quality of sleep .
God knows what happens now . Tears while writing this
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Whats happening?
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