I wish that was true
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Here’s the whole story -
After I watched P 2 days ago , I was feeling bad but not that much . I was easily getting away from that incident and I felt almost normal by today morning . Although , last night I could sleep very little because of uneasy and dizzy thoughts and this thing has been going on for many days . Saying , I was very weak already .
But then , when I opened youtube , I saw some movie video and there was a bad scene in that . It wasn’t really like a craving but I had no idea it’d cause me this much . In no time I started opening browser and started searching for videos . I watched a lot , it was a lot of dopamine at once . Even though , the urge was a lot smaller than compared to what I have fought in the past . But I don’t know what in my mind was going on and kept watching . And when I decided to stand back and closed laptop , I could feel the horrible condition of what was going in my mind . Things kept revolving even while studying and I for no reason MADE MYSELF RELAPSE only because I was feeling to do so .
I was numb after doing it was trying to process . At once , I was not feeling that level of regret and mind shit . But later I began to realize what I had done . My brain was feeling stuck a bit and I could feel unconfidence and fear straight in my soul .
I even wanted to cry hard after reading my old journal . But I have to make up in my mind that don’t treat it as a failure . I did it for 285 dayss , I can do more , I can do better . I am just learning . Either way , every failure will one time lead me to success .
I have to be assured that I haven’t lost everything . Even if I feel worried , struck or my face looks pale . I don’t have the time to fear .
I will meditate and journal and try to get back normal as soon as possible .
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I have a learnt a lot in this streak and will keep doing until my last breath . I achieved so much but never really cared about it or made myself proud , all I kept thinking about one single failure and not 285 successes . Only thing I cared was what’s happening in my mind or how I was feeling . Last time I broke down and killed myself inside . I looked at fear at that time . I am looking at it even now too , but if fear looks back , I am not blinking this time .
Time to forget anything serious happened and just get busy and happy .
I will do nofap like a kid this time , enjoying every single success of the day and reminding myself that failures are eventually leading to success .
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This is not gonna happen like last time, Trust me and yourself too.
That’s my Bro 
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that’s real blackmagic 
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Alright man the Journey started again
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Yeah because there’s a difference of 285 days streak between last time and this time.
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Goddamn son. You’ve done it now Haven’t u brother…
Well look first of all i will only say what’s the most common thing for people to say in this situation.
“Dont let i get to you” but the thing is how?
Its really simple… just engage yourself in other things and think that you’re not on nofap. Trust me this works. Now what i mean by other things is get your things done such as study, play some games, watch some series or movies, eat your fav food, choclates and stuff. Basically, Maximum fun and minimum torture (the guilt u feel and get by idle thoughts of past relapse) .
Now look there’s no way u can stop the thoughts of the relapse but what u can do is just accept them cause THEY ARE YOUR PAST. YOU DID IT OFC IT WILL COME TO YOU. So wear it as an Armour instead of being ashamed of it. Be like “Yes i relapsed but that doesn’t stop me from living life. Infact my life has been ever better!” Thats the attitude you should have.
(That aside, you did really really well soldier. Proud of you. And a salute from my side to Nofapper Aadi the teen who slew titans and titans of urges all alone. 
)
Who’se ready for a better streak now?
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Thanksss dude
I really need to change my viewpoint
Hell yeahh
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Really unexpected to see this…but it’s okay…
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January 16 2023
The day started very lazy . I was feeling extremely sleepy and my stomach was off too . Went to gave the exam , I was feeling weak and sleepy while writing too but managed to do it well . Came home and tried to relax but worries were surrounding my mind again . Watched some videos to stop worrying . I was still feeling lazy , couldn’t walk , mind was off too . But then it hit my mind , I am doing the same thing all over again , crying over things . I said fuck this , and went straight to do some workout . Was lazy but felt motivated slowly .
Did 50 pushups , 50 situps and 30 jacks . I was feeling stress wearing away . I was about to meditate too but my friend came to play badminton so I went to have some chill . It was really a good time and I was talking fluently and confidently , not like other relapses . Which made me realize that this one wasn’t mistake , it was necessary . Even if I was good on streak , I was mostly unproductive , lazy child workouts and no motivation at all , overthinking and stressing . But this one has really changed my mindset . After now , what happens , I am ready to tackle . I don’t fkin fear . That is the mindset I need to build . Either way , I feel captivated at home , more when I keep thinking and do nothing . So even when I am at home , I will try just to be busy in study and fun along with giving outside time . A slight string of cloudness I can feel , but I don’t need to worry at all as long as I have confidence . And that confidence this time comes from disciplines and not by cramming up things in my mind .
That was it , will meditate now
++ this was the last time I will be talking about the relapse and I will give my best try to not give time in thinking about this . I will take this as a success for the future mission . Not relying on time to get better or friendly .
If I keep fostering this mindset and let no other thoughts come in my mind , I will be back to normal in less than a week and I WILL DO IT .
No cryin this time beechh
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Hey bro @The_Ambitious_One Seen you have fallen. But you are not failed. We have miles to go before we are gonna sleep. Let’s make the day 0 to 
. We hope you can do this bro. You can.
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Brother Its Normal To Feel When Your Stomach Is Upset Avoid Heavy Foods Instead Try To Eat Fruits Or U Can Take Buttermilk Or Dahi Which Will Help In Stomach Problem
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ooohkayyy
well feels better now . It started from morning . I will see if it happens tomorrow or not
sure thanks
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If you went more than 100 days without watching any porn at all and without masturbating, you’re simply too far ahead to go back to zero with this relapse. All that happened was a minor slip, you’re too far ahead to actually fall back to level zero so stay calm and keep focusing.
I read that you saw porn and didn’t count it as a relapse. I understand the mentality why, because you want to fight the urges and relapse, but from this time on I’d advise counting watching porn or any form of media for sexual pleasure as a relapse, that’s what I do, because the aim is not the streak of nofap, it’s the lifestyle that nofap teaches. Not how long you go without seeing porn, but not desiring to watch it anymore, regardless of the streak.
Keep fighting, king
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Yes yes . That’s what I am targeting this time.
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Woahh understood sir
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What the heck happened to that 20 characters shit 
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Idk
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