These are really hard to capture in words I’ll do my best
For me, being mindful means to be aware of my surrounding, my current activity or myself / my thoughts.
It’s a different feeling to take a shower while being distracted by all sorts of thoughts or on the opposite site being aware of the nice sensations of having a nice, warm shower.
Or take walking to work. If you are mindful, you can see beautiful little things on your way. Or you can just head towards your work place, distracted and not aware of your surrounding.
I use these two to relax. They fill me with joy and let me calm down. For me, stress and no way to relax is always a huge source of relapses.
The second one, being aware of my thoughts is used to detect urges in advance and also detecting negative feelings. Listening to my mind tells me what it needs.
(Sure you can’t do that all the time, sometimes the mind needs freedom to do whatever it wants to do)
For the procrastination, Unfortunately, I haven’t completely wrapped my head around that problem yet.
I feel like I have two problems. One, that I don’t do the things that I have to do. The higher the pressure, the more am I looking for alternative ways to do something else. I don’t really have a solution for that yet. Other than just writing myself a fixed plan with the things I have to do. For example I tell myself to do the call I should do today at 2pm.
The other thing feels like a combination of procrastination an mindfulness where I start things but don’t end them.
- I come home and throw my bag into my room, my jacket onto the ground and start doing something.
- Later I need the bag. So, I take everything out and place it on the ground.
- I cook dinner and eat but keep my cutlery on the table after I’m done.
This leads to stress since I see all the things that are just a mess. And always the thought, yes I will clean that up once I have time. And I will never find time. So, the stress is increased
I now try to finish my tasks. Even if I don’t like to do them. Already after a day, it gave me so much pleasure to do the things I hated before.
- I come home, place my jacket on a hook, I empty my bag and put all the stuff to the places they belong and THEN, I start the next thing.
it’s more neat, I don’t have to worry about cleaning up old stuff or removing something I just placed somewhere.