Man these urges wonât go away. Since last night I feel like Iâm drugged or something 
After this phase is over Iâm never going back to pmo again. It keeps demanding and torturing you.
Leave me alone you fucking moron. I donât want to release my seed.
Not to mention Iâve lost my sexual intelligence too. I feel clueless about what I want and I have trouble understanding dirty dialogues.
What did he do bro?
That reptilian part of my brain is trying to get me to relapse. What a fucking loser.
You havenât relapsed, so youâre definitely not a loser. Take away its fuel by knowing it brings you no happiness, and you have many other happiness to pursue, especially those you can pursue only without PMO depriving you of vitality, clear mind and confidence. Then it suddenly has no power and you easily defeat it 
My rational part does understand it, but before 9 days I relapsed almost every 2 days or even daily on multiple occasions. This chaser effect is really strong. Yesterday I went through our meme group and found this which actually helped me.
So throughout the day I was good but the urges suddenly came back when I was about to sleep and have been bothering me since.
everyone is recommended to watch this. It implies what actions we take now can influence ourselves aside from our genes, which will also influence the future generations. All of us here trying for self improvement isnât just for us, itâs for our future generations too.
Internet is so fucking full of soft â â â â . Every woman there is a whoring piece of shit. Everyone just wants to display her tits. I need a break from everything.
Lmfao, Broâs raging 
If thatâs the case. Let my fatherly instincts take over. No way I am disappointing my future little one.
Watch the video. Donât just make assumptions based on what I wrote.
I think you didnât get what I meant to say.
I meant it in a positive way, that I have one another reason to be on the right path.
get up you fucking loser
you worthless piece of shit, youâre going to fight even if you hate it. Get up and start.
hold it you fucking loser. Stop complaining and simply just shut the fuck up!
Thanks bhai, needed it.
No urges today. I got control over it after roughly 2 months of struggle.
The things which caused me sadness are gone too, with the exception of the girl. But even for that if I donât think about it, Iâll be good.
Sometimes nihilistic point of view really gets to me, that nothing really matters. My hard work and shit donât matter. But somewhere deep down in my heart I want to enjoy my life.
And by enjoying the life, I mean to enjoy the greatest freedom of all - self discipline.
Stabilizing the self isnât an easy thing at all, thats what makes that progress extra sweet.
