buddy - I’m the monster
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to everyone struggling like me - I request them to watch this.
and if you don’t want to you can read it here.
1.His height was barely 4 feet 11 inches.
2.he enlisted for world war 2 and was in the jungle of burma. when the enemies attacked him.
they threw grenades at him, and he threw 2 of those grenades back.
3.But the 3rd grenade blew up in his hands. He lost his fingers, his hearing (diwali ka patakha bhi karta hai waise) and his eyesight was also severely reduced.
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In that broken state he stayed alive and fought 200 enemy soldiers for the whole fucking night and killed several of them. All while shouting - “come and fight me”.
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he went on to have 5 kids, and lived to an age of 92 years, I bet even Yamaraja was scared of him. and probably came to him and said - “ab aa bhi jaiye sirji, apke liye special bhainsa laya hu sawari k liye”.
That’s a monster right there. Mrityu bhi darr rahi hai ye admi se pakka. Chetibod apni problems kya hai iske aage? Sala tab se easy mode par jee raha hu mai fir bhi ro raha hu.
Your not the monster, your mindset which make you think this. You have to change your mindset. People get exhausted doing nofap because there asscociate their will power. Just remember you aren’t losing anything you are just gaining.
I’m a monster and I’m not simply doing nofap. I’m doing a lot of other things. And my willpower is definitely at the edge. But I want to keep moving.
And as the summer has approached, I’m looking better. My face is glowing more. Chalo kuch toh acha hua
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Man I remember sending a college buddy of mine some of my physique photos as I was exercising and building up my body
He then told me to send more nudes 
I want to give up so bad. But I can’t. I have to hold on.
well atleast writing this off in my diary does ease my irritation. Love you my diary 
you are the only one who understands me
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Keep going strong brother. You can do it. 60 days is no small accomplishment - I haven’t reached that highly in nearly 2 years. You don’t want to throw that away.
Being aroused is not the problem - that is your vital sexual energy which can be channelled to produce a great life. It will be with you until the day you die. All great men of history had high sex drives. You want to accomplish a great deal in your life - use that sexual energy and work towards it.
The problem is that through years of addiction we have developed the negative habit of abusing our sexual energy with pornography and masturbation. So when we feel aroused now that is the first thought that comes to mind. Sublimation is the best choice - the intentional transformation of sexual energy into productive work.
You can do it man. Never give up.
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well that’s kinda where my problem is. I find it very difficult to study. I have to overcome my study phobia. It’s not going to be easy.
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Keep going Nep. Don’t doubt your decision to quit. You can do it.
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She got married. And it hurt a lot. But I have to hold on. I have to keep moving.
I wish to never have feelings of conjugal love ever in my life. I wish to keep away from women and save my seed. I wish to never release my sperm and let it go and nourish my body and willpower.
I have to keep fighting. Every second of my life I have keep fighting for my goal.
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I’m going to be AIR 1
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Damn, you good bro??
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Ara bha desprasson 
I was kidding bro
I cried yesterday. And whined a lot to someone.
I got a very dear friend I have from this forum. She has always been there for me no matter what. Probably can’t thank her enough in this lifetime.
And in the evening I even told to my dad about this.
So for now I’m a little better.
My dad was actually very understanding and very happy that I shared my problem with him.
And he told me about his struggles, how he survived in poverty (sometimes he had to skip meals for a day or two). His dad (my grandpa) died when he was 8th or 9th standard.
He even told me that he has seen me trying hard to put efforts and believes in me. He will support me till the end. I guess I got really lucky to have a father like him.
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Man back in college jabhi whatsapp group par bakchodi chalti thi and we had vacations, group par pta nhi log kitni saari bekar si baate karte the.
Ek baari ghadi detergent ki ad ki baat kar rahe the, ek banda bola ki baar baar ek hi ad aati aur wo aurat baar baar chatni girati.
And to him I replied - bhai girata to baar baar tu bhi hai, tereko hum kuch bolte kya 
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Sahi baat hai, jab jeebon me lakh guldaste phir kyu ek phool pe atke 
Nahi seriously you’re really lucky to have a friend to support you in these tough times and also you have a great bond with your father. Really fortunate.
Jis mehfil ne thukraya hume kyun uss mehfil ko yaad karein,
Aage lamhe bula rahe hain chalo unke sath chalein
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