Here is mine…
ddm6v4
Here is mine…
ddm6v4
Okay
New plan
Starting slow, starting small
I’ve also learned one thing - small consistent steps are always better than big steps followed by nothing after some time
I’m resetting my days too
Not sure how many times chaser has got me and I didn’t bother to show up
So I have to reset them now
What did you just do?
I’m sorry
What do you mean?
@FlowForCourage
If you’re speaking of relapse no I haven’t done it, I haven’t done it just now
Read here
My bad!
I have seen “19 min” under your nickname on the app… I thought it was a relapse!
So
I’ve got a stone in me
It’s not big, just 4mm (which they told me is not big and can be dissolved I guess)
Not much big of a problem, however hurts like hell
Yesterday I know I could barely sleep due to extreme pain
He told me to recover and then continue my workout after that. Everything will be fine I hope.
I cannot say I have been there …
But I had a major scare because my urologist suggested me a Scan as I complained of pain around my urethra
Turned out it was just because of over sitting in lockdown
I wish you speedy recovery champ.
We shall play hopskotch with that stone
Or if dissolved idk .
But hey you got this!!
I got this
One of my people said she got a feeling that I’ve crossed the hard part
It’s evening again, the excruciating pain is supposed to start now, it hasn’t
Yesterday, when I wrote my last entry I was doing great. I was in the hospital. Had my things checked up and was about to go home. However while coming back, the pain started. We were on the bike, I was still 50 km away from home. I did bear it, then had to be admitted. Had to have some saline bottles. That stupid nurse - couldn’t find my vein twice. I don’t even remember how many times I was pierced with needles(yeah I’m afraid of them😂, even if a grown up). And then another couple hours of unbearable pain. When it was over I can’t tell you how relieved I was. Today morning I still had pain, but not as severe. I went through it. No pain so far. I don’t want to take those needles again. But as it seems to me - I’ve been through the hard part. Now the end remains. I’ll get the stone out and be back again
Just when I thought it was over
Nope, not over yet. It’s 4 in the morning and what a smooth transition of painless to mild pain to a stronger one. This has been ruining my sleep since I don’t even remember now
What in the world? I want the fucking stone out now. Just fucking out. Out of me. Get the hell out of me man! At least the pain is bearable enough to let me type this now. Those other times were horrible. Literally horrible. I wish this doesn’t happen to anyone else. Drink plenty of water folks!
I wish you a lot of courage during this ordeal … May you get well quickly.
I’ve lost again
Relapsed
Thought I could do NNN
But all pathetic.
Stuck like before again. I’ll have to start all over again. Everything. Start all over again!
I have to get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight. Get up and fight.
The monster can’t die. Can’t die. It can’t die. It just can’t die. It can’t die. It has to get up and fight. No matter what happens. Monster has to fight. My monster has to fight. My monster has to fight. My monster has to fight. My monster has to fight. My monster has to fight. My monster has to fight. Fight. Fight. Fight. Fight. Fight. Fight. Fight. Fight
There’s no other way. Only way is to fight back. Only way is to fight back.
:’( Why did you do that!!!
I’m sorry bro. I’m really sorry. I can use a lot of help rn. Will you help me???
This has got to be my last ejaculation of this year. Like you. I need help. I really do. I can’t keep losing like this. Chaser has got me really good.
Okay
New rules
Rule 1 - I know what’s the problem. There’s a trigger. A woman. First off I have to eliminate her at max. I can’t eliminate her completely. So I have to keep her at bay. No choices at all.
Rule 2 - don’t, and I’m fucking serious don’t even take a peek. A peek will be considered a relapse now. No matter what, no peeks. Edging is also a relapse now. That’s it.
Rule 3 - I can’t afford to sleep in a position that stimulates my thing. Nope not at all.
Rule 4 - absolutely no sexual thoughts while sleeping. No thoughts at all.
Rule 5 - plenty of exercise. To exhaust myself for good.
My kidney stone is almost solved, so this should be not be much of a problem now. I can do it. I can do 50 again and that will be good.
Rule 6 - The max probability of this happening is during the night when I’m sleeping and during the afternoon, when I’m alone. So be careful regarding that. Edging at this time isn’t allowed, so is sleeping at bad positions.
My goal now is one week. Start small, continue small, let it all accumulate and achieve big
After that I’ll try to get back to routine. This has to be easy. Yes it is easy. Who am I kidding? Before this I could fight off urges for 10-12 hours straight despite severe stressful situations, while simultaneously doing the work. My dopamine levels are just a bit higher now. Have to bring them down and bear with it. This is my training. I can fight and win. I can fight and win. I can fight and win. I can fight and win. I can fight and win. I can fight and win.
Hey bud! You really dont need rules…Imposing rules means restricitng yourself–This subconsiously creates an image that PMO is a “Forbidden Fruit”.
Take this analogy… In childhood we were told to not do something…BUT rather than not thinking about it …We started thinking about it MORE and MORE… Its just human nature.
So I say… You start enjoying life rather than restricting it…
Just follow the following intructions as given in the EasyPeasy Book and You will surely be PMO free!!
*If you follow these instructions, you cannot fail:
Had an urge last night
Glad I didn’t give in
It feels really awful later, not to mention the loss of strength.
Today I did 50 sets again, and I must say I’m affected because I didn’t exercise for a long time. Usually I’d finish 50 in 8-10 mins, today it took me 15. My flexibility is still doing good, or perhaps even better. My strength isn’t gone yet. I have to hold on. I can do it. Got my share of dopamine too, not to mention the sense of accomplishment.
2 days out
I have less anxiety now.
I’m glad I’m holding up😃
I have to fight. I have to hold on. That is the only way. I know very well what it does
It hurts
It scares you
It overwhelms you
But when you cross that
It pumps you