man I recall when I was 13, I was having my nipples swollen. I happened to hear the girls of my class how theirs hurt too, and now when the pain is gone they have grown.
I was worried for long that I’m going to develop breasts and that I’m half man half woman 
Puberty was a bitch
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WtF !.!.! 
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It’s so hard man. I can’t push anymore. I’m having a severe brainfog. I just wanna sleep
I don’t want to quit. I don’t want to quit. Don’t want to quit. Don’t want to lose. Don’t want to settle for less. Don’t want to quit. Don’t want to lose. Don’t want to quit. Don’t want to lose. Don’t want to quit. Don’t want to quit. Never want to quit. Never in my life I want to quit. Don’t want to quit. Don’t want to quit. Want to fight. Fight it. Fight it. Fight it. Fight it. Finish it. Don’t stop. Never stopping. Never quitting. Never falling back. If you fall down you get up. You get up and start again. You start again. You fight again. You fight for yourself. You fight for you. Fight and never stop. Never stop. Never quit. Never lose. Never give up. Never lose. Get up. Don’t stop. Can’t stop now. Can’t quit. Fight back. Fight it. Hope for it. Have to achieve it. Have to push forward. Have to push myself. Have to fight. Have to fight back. Have to move. Have to give my best. Have to do better than that best. Move it. Move. Move forward. Move yourself. Don’t stop. Don’t ever stop. Don’t give up. Don’t give up you fucking idiot. Don’t quit. Never quit.
Will keep this for reference here.
I also understood one thing, my goals have been too small and I have accomplished them. Now I need to make them bigger and tackle them down. For that I need to prepare myself to stay stronger and give bigger efforts.
I did finish 64 sets of suryanamaskaras without a single break. And if I have miscounted, then I probably did 68
Big thanks to @Forerunner and @The_integrous_one
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I was in the mindset that if he can hit me 10 times, I still can get up and hit him back once.
But that’s where it ended.
I now need to think if I can hit him once, why should I stop there? I can hit once I can do it again. And again. Over and over I can hit him more and more.
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alright
I’m out of everything. I wrestled against my brain and and I’m on the verge of breaking down. My self doubt is really intense and at this point I don’t know what to do.
Now either I’m going to lose it, or make it to the other end.
Whatever happens tonight - I’m fucking honored to be here.
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Hey @Nep_12 in between your complex words and phrase, I need to remind you a simple thing that NOFAP IS THE BEST DECISION OF YOUR LIFE AND YOU ARE GETTING CLOSER TO FREEDOM EVERYDAY.
What has PMO given you anyways? Stress anxiety, pain etc You are not Sacrificing anything by leaving PMO. PMO gives you no genuine pleasure or comfort. Quitting only involves pain when you believe you’re making a sacrifice
Enjoy your life, Envision that monster and Kill it.
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buddy - I’m the monster
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to everyone struggling like me - I request them to watch this.
and if you don’t want to you can read it here.
1.His height was barely 4 feet 11 inches.
2.he enlisted for world war 2 and was in the jungle of burma. when the enemies attacked him.
they threw grenades at him, and he threw 2 of those grenades back.
3.But the 3rd grenade blew up in his hands. He lost his fingers, his hearing (diwali ka patakha bhi karta hai waise) and his eyesight was also severely reduced.
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In that broken state he stayed alive and fought 200 enemy soldiers for the whole fucking night and killed several of them. All while shouting - “come and fight me”.
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he went on to have 5 kids, and lived to an age of 92 years, I bet even Yamaraja was scared of him. and probably came to him and said - “ab aa bhi jaiye sirji, apke liye special bhainsa laya hu sawari k liye”.
That’s a monster right there. Mrityu bhi darr rahi hai ye admi se pakka. Chetibod apni problems kya hai iske aage? Sala tab se easy mode par jee raha hu mai fir bhi ro raha hu.
Your not the monster, your mindset which make you think this. You have to change your mindset. People get exhausted doing nofap because there asscociate their will power. Just remember you aren’t losing anything you are just gaining.
I’m a monster and I’m not simply doing nofap. I’m doing a lot of other things. And my willpower is definitely at the edge. But I want to keep moving.
And as the summer has approached, I’m looking better. My face is glowing more. Chalo kuch toh acha hua
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Man I remember sending a college buddy of mine some of my physique photos as I was exercising and building up my body
He then told me to send more nudes 
I want to give up so bad. But I can’t. I have to hold on.
well atleast writing this off in my diary does ease my irritation. Love you my diary 
you are the only one who understands me
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Keep going strong brother. You can do it. 60 days is no small accomplishment - I haven’t reached that highly in nearly 2 years. You don’t want to throw that away.
Being aroused is not the problem - that is your vital sexual energy which can be channelled to produce a great life. It will be with you until the day you die. All great men of history had high sex drives. You want to accomplish a great deal in your life - use that sexual energy and work towards it.
The problem is that through years of addiction we have developed the negative habit of abusing our sexual energy with pornography and masturbation. So when we feel aroused now that is the first thought that comes to mind. Sublimation is the best choice - the intentional transformation of sexual energy into productive work.
You can do it man. Never give up.
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