To be enough . To know that I deserve the best always , I try to force myself to believe it , it’s difficult to me …
Why my acting is like I am not trusting myself , like I am on walking on a hanging rope , if I lose any second of confidence I will die permemtalty , the fact that anything is a period and will finish good or bad , I am not happy🔺 and I am not crying or sad🔻 I am in the mood of praying to God eat anything front of me and study as I can watching tv at least 3 hours…
The message to myself today is
Do what you want, there is no need to anticipate the next step or think about what will happen next… whether this thing is mine or not, all this is not important, the important thing is that you dared and did anything, did not let fear stop you in your place and did not give in to the harmful situation. My advice to myself, if you need to stop, you should think of not stopping as if you were train 
. You should not miss any opportunity to go to the next station.
I am in the right place (rewire companion) , need to change the direction of my thoughts to gain it ,
No time for looking back …
I need you to believe this with meI will accept my presence with all bad damn worst things I did in the past , I will change because I belong to be here
You see, this is a small light, and despite that, he does not care about how much the darkness around him is shining, even though what is around him is not good, and heralds any state of reassurance… Calm your anxiety and let you have a rest of your mind and start even if the journey is long.
How Do You See This !!
Think 5 minutes , Think Deeply 
I see it ; someone comes out from this cave though he was for a long time suffering …
But This Not The Only Viewpoint
For This I Told You Think 
Maybe someone see it no it’s someone decides to go inside without any hope or passion for any single try , he decided to enter without any desire for opening the door again …
For this
Your Thoughts , LEAD IT CONTROL IT … GO AND Find It And Lead AGAIN … SEARCH And Don’t Stop … oops 
THIS NOT THE END
You Are The Master Of Your Mind
What happens in the past was so painfully and hurt , my feelings still surprise me (in trouble ) , specially when it comes from your parents (lot of selfish attitudes) , it’s perfect time to work for it . To not take anything personally because someday my soul will rest in peace .
I am saying it because you are not alone in this universe that you will get shock between what something have to and what is real .
You are good to yourself only, it’s yours
Thank you for all of this motivation.
Keep it up!
Appreciated your excitement , thank you @auroraborealisss …
Of course I am not doing all of it …
I try to do like archive for myself first for a moment that I will be weak , this momoent that I become blame myself afterward i don’t want to renew this fault i want to learn from it and this community mean to me much .
i try to reload my power with you , maybe i will become better .