Ki11 diary of nofap

Thank you brother
What day are you on now?

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Day 191
I am starting to feel confident.
I am also trying to read books and whenever i have negative feelings or thoughts i try to switch them off to something good…and it really helps…it doesnt make sense to have them if i know they gonna make you feel worse .i am also getting closer to giving my whole life to god
Have a nice day reading this :slight_smile:

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Day 201
Yesterday, i finally reached 200 days after 6 years of no fap…when I joined this app i had 2 goals. .to beat my previous record of 185 days and to get to 200 days…and I did both…the past 400 days I failed only for 3 days…i wanna thank everone who supported me to achieve my goal
I will soon write what i learned about this journey in my next post

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Mad respect for you sir , Not an easy task tbh.
Could you please tell me what kind of mindset you have made to reach upto this Streak.

I believe that some small mindset change or small guidance can change a man like anything. I know one cannot succeed in No fap ( Not only no fap but anything we call success ) by just desperately trying again and again.

In short , Could you please elaborate what you have learnt from your past relapse which made you what you are today ?

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I will do it tomorrow or a bit later :slight_smile: cos i am tired atm

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wow that’s amazing. Keep going :blush:

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Thank you very much :smiley:

We gotta protect you at all costs!! :laughing:

You’re an inspiration, Sir!!

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Hahhaha thank you :smiley:

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So today is my day 202…
In my streak i learned a few things…what helped me to not to fail again after my previous 163 day streak is that i didnt wanna lose everything i gained during those days…it pushed me.
I learned many things during this streak. I got closer to god also thats my plus in life haha…
I was sick for 190 days during my streak and i still am…i started to realize that you should be more thankful for the things that you have like health…even thou i am sick i can feel how my mind is clearer than it was before…ofc i still feel a bit foggy but it is cos of my sickness…
Here are the benefits i got during that time

  1. Mind cleareness
    2.more motivation
  2. More energy
  3. More peaceful
    5.less anger or better anger managment
  4. More strenght and better reflexes
  5. Stronger mentality.
    8.less anxious a d better communication skills.
    What pushed me also to make it this far is that i know people are watching some of my posts so if i fail first i am gonna be dissapointed in myself cos now people can see that i failed…secondly i wanna show people that if i could do it you can also
    When it comes to tips @anon87955785
    1.i always think about the phrase when it comes to urges …better to be strong that 1 day than to be on day 1 again,
    2.always think if you dont change …and if you know that you keep telling yourself next time next time …at one point in your life you wont have these chances to change your life around…you have to start changing now…next time is just a idiotic self pleasuring mechanism that tricks you that you can do it another time…but you have to do it now…
    3.cold showers also help…they make you do things that you dont want…same as nofap…your brain doesnt want to stop watching porn…so you make it still happen…doing cold showers gonna lets say imitate that process…
    4.whwnever you see a woman or good looking one stop watching her immediately atleast when it comes to instagram and etc…you have to delete your triggers otherwise you wont be able to overcome them…i usually failed cos i saw some good looking girl on instagram thats almost naked and i watch her videos and then i get aroused and then i fail…cos the adrenaline and dopamine rushes throu me and it is hard to control it…dont even get to that place where that happens…when you see her photo just move on from that point and go wagch something else…
    5.start training
    6 . Go more outside to the world.
  6. Be disciplined…every day do everything you listed…but dont overdoo everything.
  7. Whenever a negative thought comes… try to think immediately of something good…like lets say a girl looks at you…and your brain tells you you are ugly to her…tell yourself immediately no iam not i look good…something like that…
  8. When it comes to me i am really religious…what helped me for sure is my god Jesus…i realised…i am gonna give my best and he is going to do the rest… i mean he knew how i would become if he gave me thse genes and circumstances and they are the reason how i live and where i live…he knew if he gave me lets say only a mother cos my father died that i would become a porn addict…but he also gave me this life cos he knows what my actual purpouse is…and how great i can be if i only give me best and i give my life to him everything will be good…
    10.alwqys remember…God or whatever you believe in gave you this 1 life…and if you already beat lets say 100 milion sperms so you could have that 1 life…what makes you that sure that you cant beat a small porn addiction…every human being is strong enough to destroy this addiction…many did before you …and many will do it…and you are going to do it also…just start and never stop
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Also remember you are good enough, you are going to be loved just remember you are here for a reason. You will find the love of your life…all you have to do it start believeing in it and give the best you can

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Thank you brother for your time and energy to write this. Every advice here is Gold.

Have a great journey brother

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Thank you and remember , if porn destroyed your life you can destroy it back :smiley: hope you gonna read it and sorry for it being to long hahahaha it took me like 20 minutes :smile:

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I know brother , and I really appreciate it. Thank you.

God bless you.

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Day 205
I really feel at peace today :smiley:
I can see my confidence going up, i can also feel how less aggressive i am the last few days.
Reflexes are better, i want to be more with people, i will probably very soon go to gatherings since i am finally feeling ready, also i really feel closest to God since the past 4-5 years…
I only hope that my sickness wont last much longer…but if it is Gods will then so be it.

Day 208
I got the stupid corona virus, i had the highest temperature ever in my life 39.9 C
Every muscle and bone in my body hurts, i never expected it to be this bad really but what can you do, having 2 sicknesses at the same time isnt easy to survive xD .
First time in my life i completed every training session in the past week …and i did it while being sick unconciouss haha.so my mentality really got stronger

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I’m so sorry for you bro, hope you get well soon!

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Day 221
I am feeling unusual peace the past few days
I am currently recovering from the corona virus
Regarding the urges i had kinda a bigger amount of them the past few days…the lust for women is a bit stronger , especially today .but what can you do when you have them is push through them

I lost count on what day i am xD i think i am on day 241 or 242…my phone broke so it went to the phone service…now my streak is reseted , i had really big urges the past 15 days but i didnt fail . Last 15 days were rough for me cos of many things…now i am waiting for it to calm down…

Day 241 if you want to change your life…nofap isnt the only thing that you need to change, you have to change also everything else…i am still not as happy as i would want to be cos of other things stressing me out…my life is still really hard and i feel really bad most of the time…i have been sick for about 230 days…i cant do things that i would want to be good at and my confidence is still low even thou i am going to a psychologist…the only person who can help me is God and myself at this moment…hope he gonna lead me and help me