Aint gonna lie from the lets say from 70 -80 day it was was the hardest part of this journey
I was at an extremely bad place mentally , very depressed sad lonely angry anxious etc etc
I ralized i cant laugh at things as much as i used to …i really need to change my bum life xD
I am still sick so i cant train and go anywhere to much so the cause for my depression and other symptoms is not only porn and masturbation atm …
But i think i am getting more and more motivated despite all the negative feelings
Keep going brother! you are doing too good! Take care of your health:gift_heart:
Thank you bro
I just completed 90 days…i am having depression occasionaly .i am starting to feel a bit more confident.i got out a few times played football went to watching matches with friends…and i can train again…finally i think i recovered almost from the sickness that i had for 78 days lol.To get to 90 days was kinda easier than expected…i didnt have to many urges during those 90 days…I had i think 5 streaks bigger than the current one…but i aint gonna lie…i never felt more annoyed about being on only the day 90…now i feel like 90 is nothing and thats kinda good cos it gives me motivation to push harder.until i am satisfied…i cant let my guard down now .I can still feel my brain trying to rewire…Now i really almost dont care if i get a girlfriend…and i now know that i am still not ready to have her.I have a few problems with talking to people atm but not to many.I am more confiednt and i care a bit less how people percieve me .so the past 286 days i watched porn for only 3 days…in those days i relapsed exactly 12 times…i think i am mentally probably more like on day 166 and not on day 90 .
May god protect me from the devil that is porn .
Good luck in this journey if you have read this
I had today a dream about watching porn .
I had extreme urges the whole morning to peek a bit on porn but i said to myself i cant let that sequence to happen again of peeking and then losing my streak.i worked hard the past 98 days and no way i am gonna be weaker than a addiction.
Great bro ur journey is inspiring
Thank you for your kind words bro
So today is my 100 day… i am now halfway through my goal…100 days left till 200 day…so there were ups and downs…i was sick for almost 80 days from like my day 10 to 90 days of no fap…i am still having some of the symptoms…but i can now train and go a bit out…depression is strong since day 70 to this day…today even tought a day 100 is a big deal atleast for me…i woke up extremely anxious and depressed…i just dont feel liked or loved.i also dreamed of porn today like 3 days ago …was it hard to get to day 100 …well yes and no…i didnt have that many urges …except the past 4 days…i feel my brain rewiring itself still…i still dont think that i am ready to love anyone…kinda feel empty not gonna lie…i realized depression is probably the main cause of my relapses followed by anger…women are the third but they lead me to it…lets say depression is the first domino that falls anger is the second and women are the final domino …ofc there are instances where the main reason are women.
The porn addiction is like an unbreakable cycle your addiction causes sadness and other symptoms
Your symptoms cause you not to be loved not being loved causes relapses
Your relapses cause those symptoms…until you put something between it there is not stopping it…just ask yourself how many times you told yourself 1 more day in your nofap journey…how many times that word became meaningless .dont start it tomorrow because you never know what can happen tomorrow
Maybe you were supposed to meet the love of your life the next day.maybe you would get the job of your dreams the next day but you didnt cos you felt miserable that day because of you constantly moving the date of rehabilitation.start today and never stop again
So today i have been feeling ok in the morning now i am getting sad how my life looks.i am probably gonna search for some psychologist so i can cope with other parts of my life and improve it .
Anyways regarding the nofap.i have wathed porn or masturbated only for 3 days the past 305 days.i have noticed my mentality changing significantly…i dont want to have atm a gf most of the time…just have friends and later when i have a bit stability in my life a gf,on the smaller days i was really needy of having one gf…now i am not at all and i realise that i am not ready to have one…now the big one regarding my traiing usually i never push hard in cardio exercises…but as the days are growing…i literally want to push my body more and more…i actually start liking to be sore more and more and be better day by day and thats really good .regarding the brain fog …i am still foggy not cos of the addiction but cos i am still a bit sick but i can feel my mind getting clearer
So i just wanna say i have been extremel, confident the past 2 -3 days i dont know why
Hope it will last a little bit longer
The past few days i had many urges which is kinda weird i always tought that the bigger the streak smaller the urges but in this streak is the opposite lol.I have been sick now for 120 days , can barely train, cant go swimming or anything else, my summer is kinda ruined but what can you do,constant headaches , lack of balance and my head feels weird…hope nothing serious
I realised you cant just depend on stopping pmo if you wanna change your life for the better , you have to change other aspects of your life aswell.i have been extremely saddened by this year, i finally decided to change it this year but the sickness is keeping me back from accomplishing happiness
Depressed and angry and i feel like a complete failure not worthy of anything .i hope god can change my life cos i want to…the cross he put on me is really hard .i dont know how i can find the love of my life a beautiful women cos i really dont like how i look …i will soon see at the end of this month a therapist
Still many urges but i beat them all today…
Feeling much better than yesterday
Like a week ago it was very hard for me, i even cries for a few days straight and i rarely cry, i have still problems with my health…
I feel more motivated, and i do more work than before…my mentality got a bit stronger.
I had some urges like a week ago.
Today i dont feel any urges. Even thou i am still sick i van feel my mind getting clearer and clearer.
So in the past 351 days…i failed only 3 days…masturbating overall 12 times…thats by far my best overall streak. I am only 44 days from my goal away and 30 days away from breaking my 4 year old and best streak i ever did after i got addicted to it in 2011 or 2012
The past few days i am having huge urges…today especially…i blocked a moronic yt channel, but i still see when they post something…and it gets me recommended every day lol…related to porn ofc…and i had nightfalls the past few days so when i saw it i was thinking about my most watched porn actresses that i used to watch -_- …
I am stressed the past few days…cos i have to finish a paper on my college… i still need to chsnge other parts of my life not only porn…need to find friends etc etc
Could you please share some veiw about how do you deal with physical urges , thoughts ,boredom and unfavourable times ?
Well…it is hard…i failed cos of them dozens of times in the past, but this time i remembered that i am literally on 170 day…and hell no no way am i starting again…170 days is long…but there is a good qoute that you can live by…no one died from urges…and it is better to be stronger that 1 day…than to be on day 1 again…also try to do something immediately like training or something else…you have to realize that you will always be on the same place stuck if you fail over urges all the time…my life is currently lets say kinda f#ed up and if i want to change it i need to beat my addiction
also…idk how it is exactly in your life…but if you want to move on from this point …you will have to beat them
I fell from 270 days, and never reached that streak again, and about being ready for a girlfriend, trust me you will never be ready, even if u are in 1000 days streak, being in a relationship with a real person, streak as long as it is won’t help you at all, that’s another level bro, remember girls on display they pretend don’t have feelings and no personality, girls in real life they all have, and you have to deal with their persona, no matter in what number you are
So after 4 years i finally broke my 185 days record…now i am on my 186th day…
I wanna thank everyone who helped me through this journey…my next goal is the 200 day mark
Wish me luck
2 weeks left to 200, I wish to be where u are, well done bro