[john98] Long walk to freedom

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D2
‘all good’
No PMO: :white_check_mark:

Am on track. Have prioritised spending time with family and friends. No major urges.

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127

D1

No PMO: :white_check_mark:

‘Sometimes you take one step back to go two steps forward’.

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128

D1 (Again)
No PMO: :white_check_mark:

What a feeling if this could be my last day one on this journey. :grin: It very well can but it starts with me being stricter with not bringing my phone to my room at night!

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129

D3
‘tomorrow hit the gym’
No PMO: :white_check_mark:

Am keeping to my sleep and work out schedule. Am feeling good about myself. Have started reading a little each night. Will keep it going.

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130

D0:

It was bringing the phone into my bedroom that got me. Am not going to beat myself up over it. It happens that you give in sometimes. But I will do better by myself, and be more alert to this bad habit. Once again started with a comic before going to videos.

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D0 (again)

Well, once one you give in once it is that much easier to give in again.

So for now, I will just worry about tonight. Not 90 days, 30 days, not even one day. Simply tonight

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132

D1: :white_check_mark:

Here we go! The first of many :grin:Hit the gym and got some work done. Now looking forward to a calm evening

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D2: :white_check_mark:

Had a good work out. No major urges.

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D1:

Back to square one (again). But this time a simple rule I will live by.

  1. No phone in bedroom
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D2: :white_check_mark::white_check_mark:

Been spending time with the family and getting some work done.

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D3::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark:

‘No looking back, only forward’

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D4::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark:

‘no slowing me down’

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D5::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark:

Had an emotionally tough day today because of an argument with my brother. There are lessons I need to learn there, but I will not let feeling shit make me watch porn. Instead I will do better tomorrow and simply call it a night.

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D6::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark:

Cooked a chicken today. My 1st chicken. Very proud :grin:

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D7::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark:

‘Not much better than a good workout’

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D8::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark:

Had a quite strong urge today after a long week but did not give in.

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Well done, brother. You are nearing your best streak again. Don’t give in this time. You are a hero.

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Thanks! :slight_smile: Means a lot!!!

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D9::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark::white_check_mark:

‘this Covid can feel lonely, but I find only solution is to reach out’

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D: 0
:disappointed::disappointed::disappointed:

I broke my rule of phone in bedroom last night. I gave into that false thinking that it is not that bad. But of course afterwards I feel shit.

So now I reset the clock. I go again. I try to forgive myself and to make changes today that my future self can benefit from.

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