[john98] Long walk to freedom

D39
No porn: :white_check_mark:
No fap 2/7::white_check_mark:

It was the 20th birthday of my younger brothers so everything was very much alright. I feel like I have come a long way to be more present and reliable in the lives of the people closest to me.

2 Likes

D40
No porn::white_check_mark:
No fap::skull_and_crossbones:

Today I read an erotic comic and am having a dilemma whether I consider it a relapse. Happy to get any feedback on how to deal with this. Although it is content that is sexual stimuli I do not consider it in the same category as porn. I know it’s best to stay away from any sexual stimulation but I have to say that I do think there is levels to it. So is an erotic comic a relapse ? I think a relapse would be falling back into actual porn. That is what has caused me most problems in my life. A comic now and then is not as serious. And so I want to take it one step at a time. I want to be quit of pornography from my life. So if that means reading a comic now and then so be it. Maybe one day I will quit that too but for now I have an actual issue.

I am open for any advice, and feedback !

1 Like

Day 41
No porn::white_check_mark:
No fap 1/3::white_check_mark:

Today I have had no urges as I have been busy with my studies, and am literally exhausted from a long day of sorting things out in town. Tomorrow is a new day and I am looking to get a good night’s rest.

1 Like

D42:

No porn::white_check_mark:
No fap::persevere:

For some reason I cannot get natural urges under control, yet I am happy not to use porn however not being able to pull a 3 day streak together is showing poor form.

Anyways, tomorrow is a new day :slight_smile:

2 Likes

D43:

No porn::white_check_mark:
No fap 1/3::white_check_mark:

Today was a great day! Got a lot of stuff done, also had time to chill and play FIFA with the bros.
I have started to get my sleep schedule back on track, and am considering starting a fitness programme for the week.

No urges to report :grin:

1 Like

Comic porn is like any porn, if you see it less stimulating then that’s something personal (is like a fetish, not everyone gets turned on at the same level, at the same things) so I personally would consider it a relapse

1 Like

That’s good man, nothing like playing some FIFA to keep distracted! Keep it up :sunglasses:

Thanks for your honestly.

D1:

No porn: :white_check_mark:

Had a very productive day and went for a run in the evening. No urges to report. More FIFA with the bros to pass the time.

1 Like

D0:

Had a relapse on an erotic comic (again). Have to say though that I have no moral difficulty with taking this L, because unlike porn there is no exploitation of women and young people involved when relapsing on erotic comics. The porn industry is problematic not only in its affects on the users but also as an industry that includes human trafficking and exploitation of people from all over the world.

A relapse is always a relapse, and I know I need to work on not bringing my phone to my bedroom and a better sleep schedule. Nonetheless I am happy I am no longer a part of an industry that is exploiting people.

2 Likes

D1
“Back on top”

Recently I have been facing an inner conflict over reading erotic comics. Although the research is not clear on its affects on the brain, I realize that I download a lot and lose money on it once I get started. Therefore even though the jury is not out on its impacts, for me I see a tendency of it interfering with my sleep schedule. Therefore today I deleted all of the comics I had. Wiped the hard drive. A clean slate. And I go back to my one principles.

1.Whatever happens is ok as long as I don’t concede.
2. Replace bad habits with good ones.

2 Likes

Way to go man! It eases me to know that you’re getting a hold of yourself, your two principles are great ones, use them as a reminder and as a guide. Hope to hear soon about those good habits you’re talking about!

1 Like

D0
Relapse again :frowning:

Honestly once I fall into this bad habit I find I have several relapses (on comics) in a row. But tomorrow is a new day and I will try my best to not give in to my urges.

Tomorrow I will go for a run in the morning to start the week strong.

1 Like

D1
‘Back on track’
Nofap: :white_check_mark:

I didn’t manage to go running but had a good day nonetheless. Very productive. No major urges to report.

2 Likes

D2
“Resilience”
No fap: :white_check_mark:

Had another productive day. Went for a walk, and cooked dinner for the fam. I am trying to learn how to be resilient, meaning after a relapse not to let myself go completely. This means I want to keep improving eventhough I screwed up my longest streak (ever). A streak is just a number, but resilience is for life. Here is to self improvement.

2 Likes

D3
“Read a book”
No fap::white_check_mark:

Last night I started and finished a book. Fair enough it was quite short. But nonetheless I want to build an habit of reading. The goal will be to read two books each month.

3 Likes

D0:
“Phone in bedroom”

Need to stop bringing my phone with me to sleep. I feel like 90% of all my relapses happen when I have my phone at night. Am disappointed in myself, but determined.

1 Like

D1
‘reading to learn’
No fap: :white_check_mark:

I started reading two books that discuss the effects of porn and how to get out of this bad habit. I have just gotten started but what motivated me is that I want to learn more about this problem, in order to be able to beat it. Otherwise I had a good day, and no major urges.

2 Likes

D2
19:45
‘just wow’
No fap status::white_check_mark:

I have gotten quite far into Quit Porn and Get Rich by Martin Prescott, and I can only recommend. He refers to many scientific studies on the affects of porn, on self control, etc. I feel like I have had a real wake up call reading this book. Of course some of the things said are simply his own opinions from his own experience with porn, but all in all quite educational.

1 Like