I agree with @user1234567890 rule 10 is hard. Because I go to bed around 12 or 1 am in the morning.
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All the best brother. Though I am no person worthy enough to be included in anyoneâs journey, but I feel very grateful that you still remebered me. Thank you. I know you will achieve everything you want in your life brother. Keep going.
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IronWill, Still I Rise
November 17, 2024 Sunday
Summary
Day 0 of 90
NoFap Streak: 0 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 0/10 days
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IronWill: Still I Rise
November 17, 2024 Sunday
02:01 pm Eastern Standard Time
Summary
Day 0 of 90
NoFap Streak: 0 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 0/5 days
Psalms 69:1-36 (KJV)
Save me, O God; for the waters are come in unto my soul.
I sink in deep mire, where there is no standing: I am come into deep waters, where the floods overflow me.
I am weary of my crying: my throat is dried: mine eyes fail while I wait for my God.
They that hate me without a cause are more than the hairs of mine head: they that would destroy me, being mine enemies wrongfully, are mighty: then I restored that which I took not away.
O God, thou knowest my foolishness; and my sins are not hid from thee.
Let not them that wait on thee, O Lord GOD of hosts, be ashamed for my sake: let not those that seek thee be confounded for my sake, O God of Israel.
Because for thy sake I have borne reproach; shame hath covered my face.
I am become a stranger unto my brethren, and an alien unto my motherâs children.
For the zeal of thine house hath eaten me up; and the reproaches of them that reproached thee are fallen upon me.
When I wept, and chastened my soul with fasting, that was to my reproach.
I made sackcloth also my garment; and I became a proverb to them.
They that sit in the gate speak against me; and I was the song of the drunkards.
But as for me, my prayer is unto thee, O LORD, in an acceptable time: O God, in the multitude of thy mercy hear me, in the truth of thy salvation.
Deliver me out of the mire, and let me not sink: let me be delivered from them that hate me, and out of the deep waters.
Let not the waterflood overflow me, neither let the deep swallow me up, and let not the pit shut her mouth upon me.
Hear me, O LORD; for thy lovingkindness is good: turn unto me according to the multitude of thy tender mercies.
And hide not thy face from thy servant; for I am in trouble: hear me speedily.
Draw nigh unto my soul, and redeem it: deliver me because of mine enemies.
Thou hast known my reproach, and my shame, and my dishonour: mine adversaries are all before thee.
Reproach hath broken my heart; and I am full of heaviness: and I looked for some to take pity, but there was none; and for comforters, but I found none.
They gave me also gall for my meat; and in my thirst they gave me vinegar to drink.
Let their table become a snare before them: and that which should have been for their welfare, let it become a trap.
Let their eyes be darkened, that they see not; and make their loins continually to shake.
Pour out thine indignation upon them, and let thy wrathful anger take hold of them.
Let their habitation be desolate; and let none dwell in their tents.
For they persecute him whom thou hast smitten; and they talk to the grief of those whom thou hast wounded.
Add iniquity unto their iniquity: and let them not come into thy righteousness.
Let them be blotted out of the book of the living, and not be written with the righteous.
But I am poor and sorrowful: let thy salvation, O God, set me up on high.
I will praise the name of God with a song, and will magnify him with thanksgiving.
This also shall please the LORD better than an ox or bullock that hath horns and hoofs.
The humble shall see this, and be glad: and your heart shall live that seek God.
For the LORD heareth the poor, and despiseth not his prisoners.
Let the heaven and earth praise him, the seas, and every thing that moveth therein.
For God will save Zion, and will build the cities of Judah: that they may dwell there, and have it in possession.
The seed also of his servants shall inherit it: and they that love his name shall dwell therein.
Prayer
Dear Jesus, I release all my anxieties and burdens to you. I surrender my will to yours, and trust that you will guide me through every situation. I let go of my need to control and choose to fully rely on your love and care. Take care of everything, Lord, and let your will be done in my life. Amen.
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Quotes that makes sense to me
Enough of this crummy tomorrow your journey should start right now
-Rewire Companion User
What feels worse? A slightly uncomfortable urge that can be taken care of by going for a walk, or the feeling of shame that only time can heal?
-Rewire Companion user
Day by day, in every way, Iâm get better and better
-Rewire Companion User
Itâs exhilarating to start a new journey, but you cannot always be on the step one. Keep going.
-Rewire Companion User
If you can quit for a day, you can quit for a lifetime.
-Benjiman Alire SĂĄenz
As a child of God, man is greater than anything that can ever happen to him.
-Dr. A.P.J. Abdul Kalam
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November 18, 2024 Monday
07:30 pm Eastern Standard Time
Summary
Day 1 of 90
NoFap Streak: 1 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 1/5 days
Genesis 1:1-5 (KJV)
In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.
And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.
And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.
And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.
And God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. And the evening and the morning were the first day.
This is the first day of my reformation. God created light and darkness on the first day. God is still working on me. I believe that when God created light and darkness that He knew this world would be sinful. When Jesus was born light from heaven came down on the earth. Peace on earth goodwill toward all men. I believe my friends that Jesus can shine a light in our hearts today.
Like I said in a previous post we must follow rules to defeat this habit. I have come up with some more rules to follow.
Rules
- Drink plenty of water.
- Eat no junk or sugary foods.
- Donât be overconfident when you reach a certain amount of days.
- Drink no strong drink (caffeine) (if you must drink soda make sure it is not caffeine and dilute the the soda)
- Donât feed the urge or the urge will grow.
- Never hold yourself accountable to anything that hinders you from growing stronger.
- Be kind to others and donât boast about how many days you have.
I may think of more later in the future. Now I would like for you to know my friends that tis is not the end for me, I will rise. Nothing Is Impossible. The Word Itself Says âIâm Possibleâ. IronWill I will stand strong on my faith and believe that my God will redeem me from this habit. My friends I place everything in Godâs handâs to surrender my will and my life to Him.
God created the heavens and earth in seven days, so I will be following the creation of the world in seven days of reformation. I will be patient for each day and do my best to not rush things. Concentrate on what you are doing and believe that hope builds an eternal bridge. Thank yâall for listening my friends.
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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One day down, Brother! That first day really means a lot when youâre getting back up! Itâs like a little boost to get you back a going! Lots of good advice, too! God Bless You, Brother! 
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IronWill: Still I Rise
November 19, 2024 Tuesday
08:00 pm Eastern Standard Time
Summary
Day 2 of 90
NoFap Streak: 2 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 2/5 days
Genesis 1:6-8 (KJV)
And God said, Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters.
And God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under the firmament from the waters which were above the firmament: and it was so.
And God called the firmament Heaven. And the evening and the morning were the second day.
You know how you have the urge to use the bathroom. Thatâs the same way with the urge to m*********. Now Iâm not saying stop using the bathroom to pee, but donât use the bathroom for pleasure. Donât fuel that urge because it will take you for a trip that you will not enjoy. This is my 2nd day clean and I plan to make more days. I believe I can (as God created the earth in seven days) make it to seven days. I am using the creation as my format to fulfill my seven days of reformation. Just as God made the firmament and and waters, He is also working on me to separate me from this habit.
I believe that God can separate every bad habit from are mind and soul if we only surrender our will to God. My dear friends believe that you can and will forget this habit. Always believe in yourself and donât give up hope. Keep going strong and be happy with the days that you have. Donât beat yourself up because you lost so many days. Praise God for everything that goes on your life. Their is a song that I was listening to today that really encouraged me. The name of the song is The Lighthouse - Heritage Singers the song tells of a lighthouse that nobody wanted. But some wanted it anyway.
Jesus is the lighthouse my friends, we are all on a ship heading to our final destination at lifeâs end. Donât be a bit worried if you believe in Jesus because life for eternity is forever. So my friends donât fuel that urge or you will fall into temptation. As I have said my friends forget the days and donât even remember the date that you have failed. Just take each day as they come and soon you will not remember the last time you relapsed. I have done this and I had 110 days before and I will be stronger than 110 days and more.
I have been thinking about what I wrote tonight and I will follow each day that I write. I know I may sound like a topic discusser but it it is good advice that I will follow. To overcome the temptation to m********* stick with it and believe that you can overcome this. 1 Corinthians 10:13 (KJV) There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.
So you see my friends God always will provide a way to overcome this and believe in yourself that Jesus will redeem you. As for me I am beginning to see what spirits are all about because some are good and some are bad. As Paul said in one of his letters I donât know exactly where but try the spirits so that you may overcome them. (Now that might not be word for word but it is close enough for me.) Now temptations may arise but donât give in to the urge because it will haunt you for the rest of your life. Stick with a plan and just take one day at a time my friends. IronWill: Still I Rise!
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
November 20, 2024 Wednesday
08:23 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Personal Information
Day 3 of 90
NoFap Streak: 3 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 3/5 days
Badge: Settler
Genesis 1:9-13 (KJV)
And God said, Let the waters under the heaven be gathered together unto one place, and let the dry land appear: and it was so.
And God called the dry land Earth; and the gathering together of the waters called he Seas: and God saw that it was good.
And God said, Let the earth bring forth grass, the herb yielding seed, and the fruit tree yielding fruit after his kind, whose seed is in itself, upon the earth: and it was so.
And the earth brought forth grass, and herb yielding seed after his kind, and the tree yielding fruit, whose seed was in itself, after his kind: and God saw that it was good.
And the evening and the morning were the third day.
Confidence where did it go? Confidence is when you reach a certain amount of days. When you relapsed all your confidence goes away. I am on day 3 of being clean. I have lost all my confidence when I relapsed. I canât even look my own mother in the eyes anymore because I lost all my confidence. God created the ground and the oceans on the third day. Things do change on my third day of reformation. God also created fruit trees and grass on the third day. Just being a little confident in this reformation is something that is amazing.
My friends take time today and look back on your longest streak and imagine what it was like having confidence. Believe that you can and know with all of your heart that God can help you overcome this addiction. Confidence is what you look forward to each and everyday of your life. Think of Nofap as if you was in the Navy. Navy sailors had to be made to not to m*********. Their lives were always staying busy and not thinking about that habit. So my friends I will spend the rest of my days living like a sailor and keep myself busy at all times.
Now I told you that I had some rules to follow and I am following them to best of my ability. I have one rule that sticks out more than the rest. Suffer the pain of discipline or suffer the pain of regret. My friends I regret that I have relapsed but I donât have to dwell on that regret. Now my friends I know that you would say âWhy does he dwell on that regretâ well I would like to tell you. The reason for dwelling on this regret for a period of days reminds me to not make that mistake again.
Just like God created the heavens and the earth in seven days, my life is getting better in seven days. Just as some of you has told me donât dwell on the past, whatâs done is done. Yes thatâs true and I canât go back in time to erase my mistake I must live with this mistake and believe that I can reach higher than I have before. Even though my 110 days streak is gone I will not dwell on it I will rise out of the ashes and fly like a bird. IronWill: Still I Rise!
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
November 20, 2024 Wednesday
07:36 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information
Day 4 of 90
NoFap Streak: 4 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 4/5 days
Badge: Settler
Genesis 1:14-19 (KJV)
And God said, Let there be lights in the firmament of the heaven to divide the day from the night; and let them be for signs, and for seasons, and for days, and years:
And let them be for lights in the firmament of the heaven to give light upon the earth: and it was so.
And God made two great lights; the greater light to rule the day, and the lesser light to rule the night: he made the stars also.
And God set them in the firmament of the heaven to give light upon the earth,
And to rule over the day and over the night, and to divide the light from the darkness: and God saw that it was good.
And the evening and the morning were the fourth day.
To: My Friends
From: Believe_100
Hello my friends, I am doing well after 4 days of reformation. The light still shines within my heart, I have not let go of my Saviour. God created the lights to rule the earth. The lesser light to rule the night, the greater light to rule the day. He created the stars as well on the forth day. We can be a star in Godâs eyes if we take the time and not fall into temptation. If we fall into temptation then we have fallen into the lesser light. I donât want to listen to the devil, because the devil is a liar and the father of it.
So my friends be careful and donât fall into a trap because the same way that the serpent tempted Eve we could also be a victim of that fall. I havenât had any urges to fall into this temptation today. I think finally I have learned my lesson to not fall short of Godâs glory. I am not saying that I am perfect or face no temptation, but I do. My friends, be careful at what you watch on TV and look at on the internet. Also be careful to not lust after women/men in this world. Jesus said, âthat whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heartâ. Matthew 5:28 (KJV)
This also goes for women as well, even though he said woman, a woman as well can lust after a man the same way. This temptation can be the downfall for all of us. Be careful at what you do and donât fall into this temptation of the dark side. If you are tempted ask God to remove this temptation from you. 1 Corinthians 10:13 (KJV) There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.
This lust is always common to man but God is faithful to not place so much that you canât handle. If the devil had his way he would kill us all and we wouldnât be alive today. But I am glad that God is in control of everything that goes on in this world. Well my friends just be careful at what you do or you will fall into temptation and back where you have started in the beginning.
Now I would like to tell you my friends that to remain strong one must look to the Author and Finisher of our faith because love endures all things. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (NIV)
My friends you can love someone but do not lust after them. Love is all you need among brothers and sisters in Christ. Now Iâm not saying hate those that are not of Christ, but love them too. Jesus said âLove your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.â Matthew 5:44-45 (KJV)
God bless yâall my friends and donât give up hope. Keep fighting and know that our Redeemer lives. Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever.
IronWill: Still I Rise!
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
November 22, 2024 Friday
07:00 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information
Day 5 of 90
NoFap Streak: 5 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 5/5 days
Badge: Peasant
Genesis 1:20-23 (KJV)
And God said, Let the waters bring forth abundantly the moving creature that hath life, and fowl that may fly above the earth in the open firmament of heaven.
And God created great whales, and every living creature that moveth, which the waters brought forth abundantly, after their kind, and every winged fowl after his kind: and God saw that it was good.
And God blessed them, saying, Be fruitful, and multiply, and fill the waters in the seas, and let fowl multiply in the earth.
And the evening and the morning were the fifth day.
To: My Friends
From: Believe_100
Hello my friends, I am on day 5 of my reformation. For the past few days I have been discussing topics, but today I will to the best of my ability tell you about me. I miss that 110 day streak and I definitely regret it terribly. I am stronger now after this fall and I have courage to move forward in life. Today I surrendered my life to Godâs will. I havenât lost all aspects of life because I am alive to fight this battle of the ages. I very well have faith in God and His Son Jesus Christ. Jesus said âfor God sent not his son into the world, to condemn the world, but that the world through him might be saved.â John 3:17 (KJV)
So you see my friends I still have hope because Jesus is the Author and Finisher of my faith. I would like to say my friends that I still have no urges to mention at this moment. I donât know what happened but I think that the devil has left me for a season. Jesus in the wilderness was tempted by the devil for 40 days and the devil left him for a season. My thoughts for NoFap is to follow a certain amount of rules so that I can remain stronger to the cause.
These verses has touched my heart and I will try my best to remember these verses:
James 3:14,15 (KJV) But if ye have bitter envying and strife in your hearts, glory not, and lie not against the truth.
This wisdom descendeth not from above, but is earthly, sensual, devilesh.
This habit of fapping is a sin that I must surrender to Jesus. I have gotten better since the day of my fall. Listen to me I sound like a topic discusser again, I just donât know what it is but I talk about my situation as a third person point of view. Right now I would like for you take 5 minutes of your time and pray for me because sometimes I have this overconfident feeling of making it this far. I know, I know, Rule number 13 is in focus at this moment of writing this entry. I think that we all should have rules, if we didnât have rules we would be totally lost. God gave the ten commandments to Moses as a set of rules that we must also follow.
Jesus said âlove your neighbour as yourself, for this is the greatest commandment.â So you see my friends even Jesus had a set rules from God to give to us. Just like one of my movies that I watch it said âyou canât get around this world without a set of rulesâ. So you see my friends we must have rules to get through life. God bless yâall.
IronWill: Still I Rise!
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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Youâre in my prayers, Brother. There is a God in Heaven that sees what youâre going through, and He hears the cry of His children! Donât give up in this fight, Brother! God Bless You!
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
November 23, 2024 Saturday
07:56 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information
Day 6 of 90
NoFap Streak: 6 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 6/10 days
Badge: Peasant
Genesis 1:24-31 (KJV)
And God said, Let the earth bring forth the living creature after his kind, cattle, and creeping thing, and beast of the earth after his kind: and it was so.
And God made the beast of the earth after his kind, and cattle after their kind, and every thing that creepeth upon the earth after his kind: and God saw that it was good.
And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth.
So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.
And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.
And God said, Behold, I have given you every herb bearing seed, which is upon the face of all the earth, and every tree, in the which is the fruit of a tree yielding seed; to you it shall be for meat.
And to every beast of the earth, and to every fowl of the air, and to every thing that creepeth upon the earth, wherein there is life, I have given every green herb for meat: and it was so.
And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. And the evening and the morning were the sixth day.
To: My friends
From: Believe_100
Hello my friends, I am now on the sixth day of my reformation. I havenât given up hope yet, but I still remain strong. I have hope and confidence that one day I will be at 100 again. Ill try not to be to overconfident because thatâs where I fall. I must always each and every day surrender my life to Jesus. If I donât I will fall again. Now I would like to tell you something that made me fall, I remember that before Sundayâs fall I didnât take my vitamins Friday. So I say that is another rule that I need to put down. This is rule number 18 Take your vitamins as often as you can.
Now let me begin by saying this, my life is different from where I started from at 110 days. I feel so much better because one day I will rise above that number. My reason for living today is I have someone greater than all my urges living inside me. His name is Jesus, my Savior, my Redeemer, and my Friend. My friends I thank yâall for listening to my blabber because I am a talker on the forum but not in the real world. This is a life worth living because I have faith, hope, and love. Tomorrow is just another day for me and I just donât want to remember the last time I failed. It might just be that I need someone in my life to love cherish and hold. I donât know if I ever want to be married or not.
Now I may sound like a monk living my life free of all temptation and not surrendering to the will of the devil. However my life is more like someone who restrains from all temptations and lives in the woods. I know that when things do go bad to worse thatâs when you seek for superior being and that superior being is God. What does it mostly mean when all you do to restrain and then you fall for it anyway? Well to begin with all of this falls into the temptation of satan speaking to you and telling you that âdonât tell your friends it will be fun. Nobody will know that it happened, just you will only know.â Thatâs a lie in itself, because thatâs where I was wrong. Yes the pleasure felt good at that moment and time, but after the deed was done, thatâs when regret finally took over and I had to tell someone. Naturally I would have kept it to myself, but I couldnât bear the thought of cheating yâall that way.
Well basically all things set aside, I finally took the courage and confessed on a forum page. I am glad that I did, because it felt good to write it down but sad that I have lost that many days. Now let me tell you, satan was not happy that day. Now to begin with on that day all I wanted to do was nothing but sleep. I slept most of the day that day and half of the day the following day. I felt drained emotionally and physically. Everything in my body was hurting for three days and I still hurt just a little when I sit in an uncomfortable position for so long. Used to when I did have 109 days my body was healing itself and I really enjoyed not having the pain that I have now. Now starting on Journal entry day 8 I will ask myself those questions again that I have given to some of you to write about. So, I guess that it is my turn to ask these questions to myself. @user1234567890 would you please in your next post write those questions for me. God bless yâall.
IronWill: Still I Rise
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
November 24, 2024 Sunday
07:25 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information
Day 7 of 90
NoFap Streak: 7 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 7/10 days
Badge: Commoner
##Genesis 2:1-3 (KJV)
Thus the heavens and the earth were finished, and all the host of them.
And on the seventh day God ended his work which he had made; and he rested on the seventh day from all his work which he had made.
And God blessed the seventh day, and sanctified it: because that in it he had rested from all his work which God created and made.
To: My Friends
From: Believe_100
Hello my friends, I have finally made it to day 7 of my reformation. I am trying my best to not be overconfident at this stage in life. My friends today was the hardest to get over with because this is just one week. I hope and pray that everyday that I donât fail everyone here. I will take a few moments everyday now to do some breathing exercises so that I will not look back on what happened last week. I must now erase that day and move on to the next day and donât live in the past. As some of you keep telling me is that âwhatâs done is done and you canât undo a mistake.â Now the hardest part of this journey is what must I do next?
I will tell you what i am planning to do, i plan to move on and grow stronger from my past mistake. I may have had 110 days but who cares, not me. I may have doubts about the future but I do know who holds my future. Do you hold my future, do I hold my future, NO, there is only Jesus who holds my future. I might think that I will get better as time moves fast, but only God can heal me and forgive me. I thank God everyday that I fight this battle of addiction and temptation, so that I can and will grow stronger. The battle isnât fought with the weak, it is fought with the strong.
Now some of you might think after that I lost so many days that I am weak, but I say as John Paul Jones said in battle, I have not yet begun to fight. Thatâs truer words spoken of an American hero. I will stand upon these words and proclaim them as my own against this sickening habit. I very well will fight like a soldier getting ready to battle. These past seven days I have been suiting up in my armour and now I am ready to begin my life long journey of NoFap. The enemy will be strong but I will remain stronger than my urges. I have a weapon that can help me and guide me every step of this journey, the weapon is the Bible. As one of them kids songs from my younger days goes like this, âThe B-i-b-l-e yes thatâs the book for me, I stand along on the word of God the B-i-b-l-e.â
Yes I will I will stand along on the word of God each and every day of my life, I will place my life in the hands of the one who created me. I ainât supposed to live a life of shame, regret, and hopelessness. I am supposed to live a life of joy, love, faith. I will always have faith now and forever in my Savior Jesus Christ. I want to be able to say what Thomas said when he saw Jesus alive after the resurrection, âMy Lord and My God.â Those word should ring true with all Christianâs today, but some have turned away. Now I know that my Redeemer lives because at least for seven days I have the honest feeling of being healed.
As I take time and patience for each day I must always take one step at a time. I canât take step seven before step one. I must always take steps that align with the numbers, 123456789. I have this tendency sometimes to try to take a different number number before that and that my friends is where I fall. As I grow up to be the man I need to be in Godâs eyes, I must remain incoherent of the things that I do every day. I must not fantasize or create an image or anything thatâs not related to what God wants me to know is not of God. I must not dwell on the things of the flesh but only on the things of God. Thank you my friends for listening to me today. God bless yâall.
IronWill: Still I Rise
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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Donât feel alone on this one, Brother. Thatâs been a struggle for me as well. âYou donât have to tell everyone else that you relapsed. After all, how are they gonna find out?â Thatâs the kind of thoughts that Iâve had. But for the very same reason that you mentioned, I have to remain honest on here. Itâs hard, but itâs necessary in breaking free from this thing. Lies are what keep us chained, and the truth sets us free!
Sure, Brother 
, weâll go back over them together again!
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I like the letters format. Almost feels like Iâm reading an epistle 
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Thank you @debellator. I thought about that the other day and I like it too.
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
November 25, 2024 Monday
07:55 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information
Day 8 of 90
NoFap Streak: 8 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 8/10 days
Badge: Commoner
James 1:5 (KJV) If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.
To: My Friends
From: Believe_100
Hello my friends I will now stop counting days, I will just live day to day as they come. I am also trying not to be overconfident as well. So if things go they I plan I will rise above and beyond my numbers. However this victory comes I will celebrate with whatever I can. Now to be comfortable with the decision of forgetting the numbers I must also not look at the app. I donât want any reminders of that awful day. Enough about that now, letâs turn the focus on getting better. I am taking time each and every day to prayer meditate and it has helped a lot for my disease. Now I know what you are probably thinking, âwhy does he call this a disease, because it is a habitâ. Well let me tell you why I call it a disease, because it is a condition of PMO. PMO is a habit and I donât like to call it that.
Have you heard a doctor call a disease by there technical name? Now you may have heard of bipolar disorder but have heard the technical name manic-depressive illness. Now PMO for me in my technical term is addiction to erotic behavior. Now suppose someone come up to you and said âdo you PMO?â Now that would make me very uncomfortable and I kindly suggest that they call it a disease.
Now for the next 5 days I will answer a certain question that has helped me before and I know that it will again.
Question #1: Who made me do this?
Well I can tell you right off hand who made me do this? ME, because I listened to something in my head and I should have prayed about it. Now on that day I didnât just to take a shower and said âI know what I will I will lose this streak because I donât care. I felt like just washing down the drain.â No I didnât want to do that at all, but stupid me I listened to devil that day and that is when it all fell apart. No I didnât plan it that way, but it happened.
As for me now I am think that I shouldnât have listened to the devil but I did. Now this verse comes into focus as I answer this question, 1 Peter 5:8 (KJV) Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: Yes my friends I the devil is always walking among us to destroy us. I feel very stupid for forgetting this verse and knowing full well that that he walks among us. Now I ask myself again Who Made Me Do This Me because I listened to someone that I shouldnât have.
As you probably know that I am the one who broke that streak but there is a tempter out there whispering to you. You can choose to listen or choose to ignore. I listened to him that day and I shouldnât have. It was my fault and I canât blame anyone else but me. It couldnât be because of this or that, it was all me and only me. So to conclude this I very well should have just listened to the Creator of the universe. God is the Creator.
IronWill: Still I Rise
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
November 26, 2024 Tuesday
07:16 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information
Day 9 of 90
NoFap Streak: 9 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 9/10 days
Badge: Commoner
1 John 1:9 (KJV) If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
To: My Friends
From: Believe_100
Hello my friends, I am here again to tell you about what has been going on in my life. Well today I have been thinking about changing my username to properly fit what I am. I am a Prayer Warrior because I pray more than most in my community. I even pray for the people on this RC forum. Now you may be thinking that âI thought he believes in Christ 100%â. Thatâs true and I still do. I just need a proper username for what I do most. Now I know that I have fallen several days ago, but I still pray that I donât give up this time. Last night was the hardest night of all for me, because I was fighting my feelings and that is when I turned to prayer. But I only got 2 or 3 hours of sleep and I am tired emotionally and physically. To tell you the truth I look how I feel, I am depressed, anxious, and impatient all at the same time.
My friends, I do believe that I will one day conquer this habit, because I have (after prayer meditating) been stronger and not trying to be overconfident. Now my friends, I have thought about things that was the trigger and I think that the trigger is my philia. I know that @The_Rising_One has helped me in the past and I must try to inform myself that I must implement this strategy again. I donât need this to make me happy, I just need my Redeemer, Saviour, and Friend, His name is Jesus. I know everyday that my Redeemer lives in me and through me.
Yes my friends I still struggle with my philia as of today being 9 days clean. I know that I donât want the memory of my philia ever again this is the reason I done away with my other journal. It was a stark reminder of my past and I pray that I donât have to write about it much in this journal.
My friends, if you ever need a comforting word from me just message me or DM me. I will try my best by Godâs grace to help you in any way that I can. I am a prayer warrior for Christ and I am ready to fight. I hope that you will be comforted by whatever I say. Be strong my friends, and God bless yâall.
Now last night I answered a question about Who made me do This? Tonight I want to answer question 2: what happened?
Question #2: What Happened?
Well I will tell you what happened, I dropped my 110 day streak, thatâs what happened. But owning up to my mistake is the hardest issue for me. As a matter of fact, I confessed in this RC Forum and it made me cry that day. Now there are two sorts of what happened to me that day:
- Donât tell no one and get away with it.
- Tell someone and confess the truth.
Well I answered the second option because if I didnât I would still be lying to myself and others. Jesus said ye shall know the truth, and the truth will set you free. Yes I still take the blame for what I did that day but I could have kept it to myself. Well no I couldnât either, because that would be like cheating on a test. I donât like to lie or cheat, because that is not the way of a true Christian. Now what really happened that day was I took the fall and I should have prayed about it.
IronWill: Still I Rise!
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
November 27, 2024 Wednesday
07:05 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information
Day 10 of 90
NoFap Streak: 10 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 10/10 days
Badge: Apprentice
Psalm 107:1,2 (KJV) O give thanks unto the Lord, for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever.
Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, whom he hath redeemed from the hand of the enemy;
To: My Friends
From: Prayer_Warrior
Hello my friends, I am doing well today. I have been praying most of the day now and I feel wonderful to be this close to God. I am grateful that I have made it this far by the grace of God. I have been praying about my situation and God is my only hope. The other night when I only had 2 or 3 hours of sleep I prayed most of the night that night. But last night I slept well and had peace from God. I must forget everything that has happened to me in the past and live for the future. Now I am not saying forget the most memorable moments, but forget the bad habit that I have suffered for so long.
My friends, I remain strong to this day, but I donât want to be overconfident in my assessment. However I do want to know when I am overconfident. The best way for me to know this is through prayer. My friends, I pray for everyone on this RC Forum every day and I hope that you will understand why. I know that sometimes I can be a bit overwhelmed by prayer but God knows my heart.
My friends, as you all may know my hope is in Jesus Christ. I am a Prayer Warrior for Christ, because I have now prayed more than I have before. My friends, believe me that you can overcome this just as I have, surrender your life to Jesus. God bless yâall.
For the past two nights now I have answered questions that pertains to my mistake. The first two questions where easy but this question will be the hardest.
Question #3: When Will This Ever End?
As you may know I donât know. I hope that this mistake will be the last. The question of the ages when will this ever end? I think it will end when I am dead. Of course that will never happen until at least 80 years give or take a few years. I would like for this to end now and forever. I want it to go away. As I said and I say it again in 1 Corinthians 10:13 (KJV) There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it. God will help me end this pain and suffering that will end when I stop this habit.
When will this ever end, I think it will end when I say so. Believe that you can end this. It will end in the time that will be the most convenient for me. I want this to end today and forever. Donât dwell on your thoughts of speaking out âI will never do this again.â because it will happen again. I used to hear my mother say this all the time ânever say never.â Because when you say âneverâ, it will happen again. In conclusion of this question when will this ever end: IT ENDS NOW!
IronWill: Still I Rise!
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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