November 24, 2024, Day 5
Hey, I hope everyone’s doing well tonight! I know it’s been a while since I’ve written in here. I guess I’ve gotten sidetracked. I don’t know how often I’ll get to write in here, but I’ll try to write on a little more of a regular basis.
So, if you’ve noticed up above, I’m on Day 5 (yeah, I’ve started writing my streak up there again, but I’m not consciously focusing on it, to be honest, I have to look on here to see what day I’m actually on 
). I relapsed a few days ago, and I’ve had to start again. I had a good 35 days streak, but that’s not my end goal, so I’m starting again. @Prayer_Warrior recently relapsed as well, and he asked me…
So, we’re going over these questions again here. Again, I’ll try to answer one per night.
Question #1: Who Made Me Do This?
To this, again, I will have to confess that I made myself relapse. Now it’s not like I was sitting down twiddling my thumbs thinking to myself, “Gee, it sure is boring around here. What could I do tonight? Hey, I know, I think I’ll just throw my streak in the garbage can tonight!” But all the same, I have control over my body, and I have responsibility for my actions. “So then, every one of us shall give account of himself to God.” That’s what Paul said in Romans, and as he said it, I will give account to God for my actions.
This is something that I’m grasping the concept of more and more. I can’t really blame others for my actions. I’ll confess, I’ve done that a lot in my lifetime. But lately, especially, I’ve realized that whatever I do, that’s on me. As the old songwriter wrote of the words that The Reverend Mr. Black used to sing in the valley, “I’ve got to walk that lonesome valley, I’ve got to walk it by myself, oh, nobody else can walk it for me, I’ve got to walk it by myself.” Now that’s not to say that I don’t have companions that will support me, or to say that I should have a self-pity mindset. But no one can live your life for you. That is a gift that God gives to every man, the gift of choice. Others can influence you, either for good or evil, but you make the choice of how you respond. If you waste your life, that’s on you (or, me, in this case).
TL:DR : Big Dummy, me, made me relapse 
, I have to take responsibility for my actions, and for my life. I, alone, will answer for them.
God Bless You In Your Fight!