IronWill: Still I Rise!
November 23, 2024 Saturday
07:56 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information
Day 6 of 90
NoFap Streak: 6 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 6/10 days
Badge: Peasant
Genesis 1:24-31 (KJV)
And God said, Let the earth bring forth the living creature after his kind, cattle, and creeping thing, and beast of the earth after his kind: and it was so.
And God made the beast of the earth after his kind, and cattle after their kind, and every thing that creepeth upon the earth after his kind: and God saw that it was good.
And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth.
So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.
And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.
And God said, Behold, I have given you every herb bearing seed, which is upon the face of all the earth, and every tree, in the which is the fruit of a tree yielding seed; to you it shall be for meat.
And to every beast of the earth, and to every fowl of the air, and to every thing that creepeth upon the earth, wherein there is life, I have given every green herb for meat: and it was so.
And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. And the evening and the morning were the sixth day.
To: My friends
From: Believe_100
Hello my friends, I am now on the sixth day of my reformation. I haven’t given up hope yet, but I still remain strong. I have hope and confidence that one day I will be at 100 again. Ill try not to be to overconfident because that’s where I fall. I must always each and every day surrender my life to Jesus. If I don’t I will fall again. Now I would like to tell you something that made me fall, I remember that before Sunday’s fall I didn’t take my vitamins Friday. So I say that is another rule that I need to put down. This is rule number 18 Take your vitamins as often as you can.
Now let me begin by saying this, my life is different from where I started from at 110 days. I feel so much better because one day I will rise above that number. My reason for living today is I have someone greater than all my urges living inside me. His name is Jesus, my Savior, my Redeemer, and my Friend. My friends I thank y’all for listening to my blabber because I am a talker on the forum but not in the real world. This is a life worth living because I have faith, hope, and love. Tomorrow is just another day for me and I just don’t want to remember the last time I failed. It might just be that I need someone in my life to love cherish and hold. I don’t know if I ever want to be married or not.
Now I may sound like a monk living my life free of all temptation and not surrendering to the will of the devil. However my life is more like someone who restrains from all temptations and lives in the woods. I know that when things do go bad to worse that’s when you seek for superior being and that superior being is God. What does it mostly mean when all you do to restrain and then you fall for it anyway? Well to begin with all of this falls into the temptation of satan speaking to you and telling you that “don’t tell your friends it will be fun. Nobody will know that it happened, just you will only know.” That’s a lie in itself, because that’s where I was wrong. Yes the pleasure felt good at that moment and time, but after the deed was done, that’s when regret finally took over and I had to tell someone. Naturally I would have kept it to myself, but I couldn’t bear the thought of cheating y’all that way.
Well basically all things set aside, I finally took the courage and confessed on a forum page. I am glad that I did, because it felt good to write it down but sad that I have lost that many days. Now let me tell you, satan was not happy that day. Now to begin with on that day all I wanted to do was nothing but sleep. I slept most of the day that day and half of the day the following day. I felt drained emotionally and physically. Everything in my body was hurting for three days and I still hurt just a little when I sit in an uncomfortable position for so long. Used to when I did have 109 days my body was healing itself and I really enjoyed not having the pain that I have now. Now starting on Journal entry day 8 I will ask myself those questions again that I have given to some of you to write about. So, I guess that it is my turn to ask these questions to myself. @user1234567890 would you please in your next post write those questions for me. God bless y’all.
IronWill: Still I Rise
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.