Hunting Eagle's Diary [M 38]

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Day 10/90
Saturday morning,
woke up again on time.
and now it’s time for house chores and a good breakfast.

Just commented on the user Eren Yaeger’s post.
I liked it. but the figures there are way low that what it’s supposed to be in my point of view.

It’s about the daily ■■■■ that is made in this world this world is way more rotten way more addiction to fantasy and virtual world of shit society has made to trap our minds in it.

But reading his post reminded it solidified my resolve to quit ■■■■.
My mind feels fresher these days and my will is stronger with a drive to get things done and not to quit.

The itch is there at certain times.
but I know it’s just some virtual shit that weakens my drive every time I spend watching two random people having sex and jerking of to that fake virtual shit that is not fucking real!
Pathetic.

It’s pretty pathetic actually now that my mind seems to get more clarity after not seeing all that trash getting flooded in my mind through my damn eyes daily.

like another post I read that said stop watching ■■■■ and let the mud recede.
Cristal clear water will be visible as the mud recedes pure as the cleanest river and lake.

The shame of just thinking that…

My great grandfather and many other men passed away long before this ■■■■ shit began to be widespread, they were tough dudes their mind’s where focused and not enslaved to shit they were true Bosses.

I will live in the moment like them with force and limit my exposure to the virtual world and away from the trash of ■■■■.

There is no way I will allow myself to go back to that virtual shit again, to be a slave of a fucking screen.

Now to proceed with the agenda: house chores.

Almost done with house chores then I must go to town.
My oats are finished, and I crave for some pineapple juice.
“Real pineapple” not fake shit on a screen like ■■■■.

That is an "urge I will readily let myself go for it.

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day 11/90

Stayed what late in bed today cause its Sunday.
But it’s time to get active now.
Time to be Dynamic.

Finished my laundry house is clean and I’m chilling out.
A meditation:

■■■■ is practically one of the most potent drug vice cycle there is.

It Injects directly into your brain via your eyes and works fast gives you quick pleasure.
4 seconds of pleasure (and a mess to clean afterward) at the cost of a clear and dyamic mind and my drive and will fight life.

I visualize ■■■■ as a literally a pipe of sewage and gunk being dumped secretly into the brain.

That’s why we all have the feeling of disgust after jerking off.

We all know that rivers and lakes where sewage and gunk is dumped quickly stop sustaining marine life and fauna. Only a breed of mosquitos, bad smells bacteria and unhealthy things remain.

river pollution terrible same way mental pollution through a screen laziness and procrastination is a clear sign of mental pollution in my opinion.

The universe likes speed and change fast a clean river flows fast and is full of life big fish tortoises water birds swans ect… beautiful to see smell bathe and drink in.

A polluted river is full of slug and gunk its disgustingly slow and stale water a breeding nest of mosquito’s bad smells etc…

This few days without watching that shit have been so far great for me this Sunday is a really sunny day and I feel energetic with a drive to get things done.
I can feel my mind is getting cleansed and decluttered of all the bullshit simply by not watching.

The urge still comes around every few nights, but not as strong as before.
Seems to be trying to wait for me to get my guard down.

But I already decided it.

I am really disgusted with ■■■■ I already resolved that I won’t watch those fake virtual images that are so fake and pollute my mind with shit and weakness that slow poison that makes you lfeel less of a man.

I stick to my word 79 more days for the full reboot.
A screen and some pixels cannot force me to do anything.

Ok the night had set in an about 2 hours before my time to sleep.

tomorrow again I will start with my weekly discipline:

getup between 4 and 4.30
leave for work early.

Meditation twice a day: this is like flushing fresh water through my mind.
And primary no ■■■■ watching to keep that fucking sewage pipe away from my mind.
together with cleansing my mind I will start drinking 3 liters of water a day.
I already bought 2x 1-liter bottles.
One I will leave at work and one I will keep at home to drink first thing in the morning.

The urge has started to creep up I can feel the monster right now.
But I have applied martial law on myself and stick to my word.

Actually, I should stop over dramatizing it.
It’s not a monster, it has no power over me.
It’s not a “thing” It’s just a habit formed in my mind by years of watching that piece of shit coated in 4 seconds of dopamine.

I just raised my shoulders now on the urge and feel much better.

I am the BOSS of my life.
like my grandfather and all the other mighty men before me.
not a servant, not a slave.

None of my ancestors or native warriors was sitting Infront of a screen jerking off to fake images.
And neither will I.

This is a good fight. The only fight.

Me vs a bulshit habit that was formed due to ignorance I thought that shit was good gave me pleasure but it was all a damn lie a fake bulshit!

Instead, it is a slow poison a pipe of sewage that weakens my fighting spirit and drive to make me a docile procrastinating pathetic shit! to make me a slave to fake pleasure on a fucking screen.

These few days I have been pushing myself to action through force of will and have not watched that shit have shown me the truth.

I have been so productive overall and have gotten shit done fast!
last week when got to work on time sharp before everybody.
It felt so good and fresh in the morning, and I plan to keep this discipline for the rest of my life.

I already had this upbringing, but ■■■■ derailed me on the way.

The urge is gone, just by venting myself in my diary it has died down.

Now I am going to sleep for this week I will repeat those feats and so many other things I have kept waiting I am going to start getting them done one by one.

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Day 12/90

I am up!

It’s time for action, time to be Dynamic.

Some people are Dynamic for the wrong cause, to enslave and prey on the weak.
They are blood sucking monsters, actually beyond monsters’ they r demons like Ravan.

But we have to be dynamic to improve our lives and help others.

Starting with myself I’m itching for the day,
Itching for the fight against myself against that weak shit habit, that pipe of sewage, that fake gold they try to sell me in exchange for my drive and vigor.

I stick to my word,
I won’t go down without a fight.

Time to talk is over,
Lets go.

  • 3 minutes countdown to get in car to leave for work
    flushed my mind with meditation
    did my morning calisthenics
    prepped breakfast and drank water.

look at me sitting peacefully here.
How many times was I rushing to work to still reach late? leaving breakfast and other stuff.
This is the way to be.

Order, punctuality, discipline this is the life of a warrior. a gentleman.
and I am going back to it.

Its time to go.
I am full of energy ready to seize my day.

I only say this to the addiction.

Just test my resolve!

  • I made it on time to office and a co-worker said: “Is it me late or are you early?”
    Was kind of fun laugh a joking compliment which means they have noticed the change.

But it also made me think of how often they would have been talking behind my back of my coming late days.

Feels very good to be punctual and ordered again overall (why not many people do it?).
I am going to show them a new me!
Not for them but for myself!

Drinking my water quota now pushing to make it happen.

Now back to work.

  • I Just reached home.
    The day was productive, but the water drinking i barley drank a little more than 1 liter.
    But like everything new it takes time. but this is the way to start but i will decrease my drinking to 2 liter of fresh water for 20 or 30 days and then go for 3 liter if need be. I can clearly see I need to form the habit and let my body get adjusted to so much water.

Tomorow i will start with 2 liter then. that’s the way to go start and adjust on the way according to my capacity and build back step by step that’s what elders taught me.

now its time for evening calisthenics.

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Day 13/90

I am up!
It’s time for action, time to be Dynamic.
First, I will start drinking I must drink 2 liters minimum today.

the urge was 0 last night but it’s like its changing strategies and showed a weak urge now.
but I brush it aside as I drink my first glass of fresh water.

Nothing more to say, time for my morning discipline.

ready and set.
I drank 1 liter of water already, forced a little but that is the way.
that was new rest of morning routine was completed as is.

Time to go.

  • back home from work. I managed to drink 2 liter today.
    wasn’t easy had to consciously force myself a little, it’s doable just need to set my mind to it and form the habit.
    I’ll be sticking to 2 liter for at least 2,3 weeks before trying more.
  • overall, the day went good had its challenges, but I made my objecives at work.
    now its time for calisthenics and a good dinner.
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Its day 14/90

I am up!
It’s time for action, time to be Dynamic.
no more of that sewage pipe full of trash n shit being dumped in my mind through my eyes.
My mind really feels fresher.
today i woke up at 3 am to take a piss but after i could not fall back to sleep atmosphere was warm, guess what the addiction tried to creep up, but after about half an hour struggling to get sleep i said fuck it. i am getting up now.

my resolve stands firm.
talk time is over, first lets get the water drinking going.

flushing the body with fresh water and Flushing the mind with meditation its like flesh water being flushed through my brain.

  • Back home, kind of tired from work today was busy i forgot to drink my 2-liter water.
    tomorrow I will go more serious for the water.
    time for calisthenics
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Day 15/90

I’m up!
Time to be Dynamic.
first water.
Yesterday I slept super early around 8 pm i was really tired but i got up fresh.
my back is slightly sore from workouts.

The urge had no chance yesterday but came just now.
I just got up and brushed it off with my resolve.
I’m not letting that pipe of shit bend me over n run a train on meI’ am in control .
I am gaining more control and confidence by the day and I am happy for that.

today again I will focus on drinking water and bag log project.

talk time is over its time to push time for action.

  • more water n meditation

Back home.
water drinking went alot better. almost 2 liter drank today.
time for calisthenics.

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Day 16/90

Up and ready.

Nothing particular to report.
Going in right away for discipline.

  • in office after lunch, i am eager for the weekend to see what the urge will do.
    so far only weak urge in the morning easy to push aside.

■■■■ is nothing but a glass of cold sewage water mixed and coated in sugar fructose and other fake sweet shit.

A pipe of sewage masked pouring shit and piss water in our brains through the eyes.

Not anymore, I’m done with that bullshit.

I expect, I KNOW it will try something tonight weekend.
And I am not praying for it not to show up, I am waiting for it.

I am the predator a tiger an EAGLE.
Not sheep or achicken.

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I’m ready to kill and devour that urge.

Ha! what do you know, the urge just showed up now.
Just as I expected but I am going to sleep.

I am really surprised this shit is no treat for me anymore.
I Just the thought of the sewage pipe strengthens my resolve.

Nofap is pretty simple, just don’t watch ■■■■ and after about 11 days or so I start feeling stronger.
It’s the mind being decluttered of all that bulshit that we have been pouring inside of it for days.

Just killed and devoured that vermin now as a great Hawk or Eagle.
I feel strong, another day of victory I am the boss of my life.
I’m sticking to my word.

Nofap is simple but requires firm resolve to leave the sugar-coated piece of fake shit.
understand that ■■■■ is poison to the mind and then don’t watch ■■■■ have the resolve.
Going to sleep now, tomorrow is a day for house chores.

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Day 17/90

I am up what later today.
Its weekend after all. sometimes it’s good to let yourself go and sleep in rest.

But not on demand like slave for it master. No, and definitely not any more for that pipe of sewage called ■■■■. no more of that illusion bulshit moha.

I am feeling the drive to get up so I am feeding it and getting up. even if not I would still getup for I have things to do. I stick to my discipline.

the drive in us is often exemplified as fire agni indeed its a burning fire.

lets go time for bath, meditation, house chores.

  • Its night time chores complete house is clean and fresh.
    I went to town had my favorite fruit pineapple and did groceries.
  • helped a friend with his computer.
    Overall, day went productive and good.
    I must say meditation is really helps clear and focus my mind.
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Alright day 18/90
waking up on a nice sunday.
It was raining just now and i relaxed in bed.
no urges this morning
Life is really starting to feel natural and energetic.

not that synthetic feeling of ■■■■ and sex constantly in the mind due to filling the mind with sewage water. that pipe has been closed and removed several days ago by force of resolve, once in a while the urge wants to bring it back but I refuse and ignore it.
my word stands.

I have the drive now, how can I dose it off again by yielding to that fake shit?

Talk time is over.
Time for action time to be dynamic.

Lets go.

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day 19/90

I am up!
Time it’s to be Dynamic.
I fan the flame of discipline with discipline.

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day 20/90

I am up!
Time to be Dynamic.
There is no laziness where there is Discipline.
We grow stronger for only the strong, are resolved are disciplined.
Jai Sri Ram
I woke up remembering God today.

The trash is receding I am starting to see clearly now.
My drive to fight, my drive is back to get things done. To kill the Rakshasas like Lord.
a burning flame.

Lets go: bath n meditation time to seize my day.

Let it be a burning flame to burn off all residue of that trash from my mind.

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day 21/90
Time to be Dynamic.

let’s go to be free from that addiction.

I choose for my drive which is like burning fire which is fed increasing every day I abstain.
Over that fake few seconds of pleasure.
That fake illusion which is a pipe of disgusting sewage water poured in the brain through eyes.

My resolve stands like a man I stick to my word.
The strong are disciplined.

talk time is over:
Time to flush fresh water in my mind: Meditation
Jai Shri Ram

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day 22/90

Ready and waiting 8 minutes more to leave for work.
I feel prepared fresh and strong.
I decided to wake up and instead of opening the pc I am doing my routine and in the end I will sit and write here. this way I will to remove the habit attachment of touching technology first thing morning. its a tool not real life.
some urges came but I overcame them.
I won’t trade gold for that illusion which is fake sewage water poured in the brain through eyes.

I am stronger, I decide!

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day 23/90

Morning time
15 minutes, ready buttoned and up sharp to leave for work.

Crushed an urge this morning with pure force again.
For I’m stronger. Discipline is the way to go.

I do what I choose, I will not pour that fake virtual shit in my brain.

That Sewage water that Moha,
That illusion that is fake and abnormal, that poison that weakens manly drive.
Pleasure is used to weaken you.
Awaken gents, don’t trade gold for slow poison.

This drive to fight like a burning flame.

I will do some meditation with the spare time.

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day24/90

Its weekend but I have to go to office today.
Going now, feeling a little low cause i rather enjoy my day off.

But it’s duty and I will raise my own spirit.
The power is in me, the primary source is in me always. (not in outside things)
I just need to get used to tap in and use it.

like a coffee addict after stopping feels low energy but after a few days or a week can rekindle his internal sources along as he does not quit and go back to the addiction.

the furnace needs to rekindle and warm up, just hold on.

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day 25/90

A new month.

Urges to search for ■■■■ still lingering but very very light.
The addict is dying and begging me to give in. To yield for it has no strength to impose on my will.
Previously i got cocky after about 15 days yielded and fell for it.
But no more only a fool let’s himself get defeated twice by the same trick.

I made my choice and each day I reaffirm it.
I know those fake virtual images are slow poison.
I am not trading gold for shit. for a few seconds of pleasure an itch?
For a pipe of sewage being poured in my brain, that doses of my drive and will to fight?

The urge to watch ■■■■ or the urge to fight.
You can only have one you can only feed one.
And I have made my choice and ai’nt going back.

I am not going down without a fight.
I Just crushed a weak itch of an urge now.

Its not the urge getting weaker, it me getting stronger.
My will and resolve are growing day by day.

Discipline and Serious Resolve the way to crush all vices.
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Ready for the new day and the new month.

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day 26/90

I am in this to quit for life.
I don’t really care about the streak, but I enjoy the ride the journey going stronger.
mind feels fresher.
But urges to browse for ■■■■ are still lingering.
years doings something won’t go away that fast but it’s very weak vibration like a beggar.
I just crush it each day again for I decide I made my choice.
I won’t give into that. ■■■■ is just a blunder, fake shit sewage water. like drugs it’s a form of slow poison to weaken your drive and turn you into a weak spineless creature.

slow poison is worse, for it creates an addiction the more its used, you exchange your drive for that fake pleasure.
and when the person realizes it killing them, many feel hopeless for they dug themselves too deep. they gave away all of their drive and will to fight away. it’s like a demon controlling them.
But is Not! don’t give in to that excuse you tell yourself to avoid putting effort! to lazy away of it! awaken realize that some fake images or a bottle or whatever vice you have has no power over you and fight back!

I am not looking back, this drive to fight I will not exchange it for that fake shit.
I am feeding it day by day.
a fighting junkie, a warrior a leader that’s what I feed.

Just crushed an urge to browse now with force with aggressive anger like i do to nuisance people that insist on selling fake shit: piss off!!

Talk time is over time to flush fresh water in my mind with meditation.

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Day 26/90 Meditations:

Quitting ■■■■ is not just for ourselves.
The ■■■■ industry is a multibillion system that thrives on making man and woman addicts weakling perverts it thrives on pain.

Many young and older women are manipulated to join the sex industry in its multiple forms like cams and studios or forced to have sex due to extreme poverty and other needs. almost none does it out of pleasure.
The smiling faces you see are fake, you have no idea how much pain and frustration mistreatment, shame, loneliness, abuse, violence and depression etc… is in the background off screen.

How many people acting in those films as well as addicts have not committed suicide unable to cope with?

Besides the mental slavery and addiction, just see/hear cries of hopelessness we see in this forum itself.

■■■■ eats the true spirit of men and shits out simps with no courage or drive to do shit.

Men turn into weak depraved creatures’ literal cuckolds and lazy and weak soy boys that can do nothing but complain, cry and run from life instead of standing firm and fighting back to make things happen.

Use this as extra motivation to never go back to this shit.
Keep fighting until you break free.
Don’t you dare fucking stop until you are fully rebooted and free.

Empathy is a powerful emotion that sadly few lack nowadays.

Do it for yourself and for the others, do not support this shit industry anymore.

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day 27/90

this morning I got up and felt no urge.
I just got up and executed my routine, that slight itch was so low-voiced that the Discipline of all these days ran over it like nothing. I did not have to force myself or become furious.

Just ran over it like a monster truck over a soda can.
indeed, it’s a can full of shit sewage water.

Discipline is the killer of vices. and its fuel is resolve.

Meditation:

I have read of many mighty men and woman warriors who withstood much pain, troubles anxiety and treats to their lives from external sources!

They are the strong I have respect for them.

If we can’t withstand these urges (which come from our own selves) to watch some fake shit on a screen, what can we withstand then?

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day 28/90

It’s time to be dynamic.

Discipline is calling me, but also a weak cry to sell my drive for the useless shit called ■■■■ is also begging in the background to yield to that fake pleasure.

I fan the flame of discipline with discipline.
I will not dose it by pouring the shit called ■■■■ through my eyes with 4 seconds of pleasure as payment.

I solidify my choice each day, felt that weak urge now but I am crushing it as I type.
It can try but when I make my choice I’m resolved and never go down without a fight on anything I do!

Talk time is over.
Meditation a torrent of fresh water to flush and wash all residue of that shit from my brain.

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5 minutes to go.
Buttoned up, Clean, Sharp (appearance and mind) and ready to go to work.

I am feeling good, also pretty aggressive and eager.

Have been getting many compliments in the workspace for my output and appearance.
people have noticed the changes in my drive and especially actions.

But even if not, I am not doing it for them or for pats on back. I am doing it for myself. disciplined and drive that’s who I want to be a gentleman a warrior.

How can ever I sell this for wasting time browsing for, watching and jerking off to ■■■■ in the darkness? how can I exchange it for few seconds of fake pleasure?

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