Omg me today 
but everytime I try to write something, someone has to interrupt me.
And my heart sank a few times since my stupid phone keeps on failing on me, so the screen was up for a bit. 
You’ll get through this
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Ah ha ha ha I hate that too when that happens. I really hate when people interrupt me.when I’m doing something, it took a lot energy to go back and concentrate on it.
Thanks a lot. :)
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It’s kinda ironic since it’s a constant battle just trying to hold onto that concentration and continue but then someone has to come in and disrubt you.
Like a second ago I switched of my lights so I could go to sleep but then my brother walks in just to show me something.
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Haha… I totally know the feeling @Sparklymango
I’d seriously question it though. Imagine you didn’t have a brother? Or that he didn’t want to show you anything?
I only say this, because I’m the same.
Maybe interruptions can be blessings in disguise 
I’m struggling this evening, so I’m glad something has resonated with me to engage with. Thanks 
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Man do you have any idea what just happened, I was writing a response on here when th 3rd brother walked in
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That’s great I’m kind of envious!
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Envy ? 
It’s true what you said about it being a blessing in disguise but it’s not so great when I’m trying to use this app.
I’m supposed to be a saint in their eyes, if they ever found out what I’m struggling with, I don’t know what to respond to them with.
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That’s hilarious you saying saint.
I was literally just thinking, whenever my friend walks in, like Mike, I’m like “oh, here’s Saint Michael to distract me from myself”
Maybe your brothers are unrecognised saints in the making!
I pray that you let go of your worry of what others might think. Your ideas are just ideas, and they may not always be true!
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They’re so open about everything that it’s a bit disgusting even if it’s all bants to them. And the funniest part of it all is my mum’s always talking about them to me.
You saying that I’m not a saint ?
Haha, no!
We’re all saints in the making, maybe even Saints one day!
I think good ideals are good too aim for always,
Like the stars that guide the mariners haha
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I’m starting to miss the old me more
I think everyone around me would be shocked if they knew any of this stuff. They all assumed that I was sinless but man the world works in mysterious ways.
But it’s late here so goodnight anyone that’s also reading this.
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Awwe… Don’t go sparkles !
I kinda wanna shout at you Hahaha!
I don’t like your harsh attitude towards yourself one bit. These ideas you would be better without haha!
Because you do know right, I’m far from perfect, but I wouldn’t do that to myself, because that wouldn’t be fair on others in worse places
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Dude I need to sleep hopefully I’ll be back tommorow.
Goodnight 
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Sleep well my friend!
Sorry if I get a bit annoyed, you’re just better than you probably realise, and I’m placing that trust in God always!
And sorry @dori for all the graffiti over your diary
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Ahahaha, it alright.
day 6
It’s almost a week. I still feel exhausted after meeting up with a friend and helping my sibling with their booth from yesterday . I just want to lay in bed and sleep but chores are waiting and I don’t want to add another mountains of laundry and dishes. I should learn to discipline myself and don’t procrastinate those little things.
I’ll just relax some minutes and do an entry. I plan to check this app when I go online especially this 1st week. a good reminder to myself. the urges and ideas are always showing up when I try to relax or resting, it just doesn’t show up when I’m so sleepy.
It is lesser today but it still shows up.
I’ve seen an inspirational video. at the end it say “reclaim your destiny”
those words really stuck in my head and gives me inspiration '& motivation but also reminds to do something to take action. I always feel that I’m not capable of things that I wanted and that time have pass me by already and there’s nothing I can do about it. add to that the years of failing at battling this addiction. I still doubt if i can. The person that imagine what would I be when I was younger was so opposite perhaps I would say I become the person I hate the most. but those words give these thoughts to my head - let’s reclaim it, we still have time.
It will.be hard I know. I imagine it like a game of getting back my kingdom from the invaders.
doubts, negative feelings and situations will always be around but we should always keep fighting.
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Day 0
Well, I hate to admit but I watched a 2 mins clip. So reset again. So sad that It’s just hours away before I reach my 7th day streak. But I promise to myself to be honest. So yeah…
I will not make an excuse why. I don’t have the discipline of my emotions. Annoying it can be I didn’t really enjoy the whole vid but still check it.
Well… I guess rewiring really takes time. I will not be too critical to myself today but having relapse after 2 days is alarming pattern. I did entertain a thought of porn now I’m sure that is a culprit. I let the linger thoughts. It’s the same with the last few days of relapse. I thought came then I entertain it for a seconds then turn to minutes. My body will feel the urges, then my brain will go crazy then I’ll end up watching a vid.
I better trim those bad weeds in my brain garden. I will still fight. I feel bad because I chose to watch. I guess I’m still not commited enough. It’s a failure day.
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God bless you dori!
That’s a very inspiring post,
Lots of food for thought
@dori some days require a more focused effort to address the urges and temptation. I am glad you are honest with yourself. I think it’s a quality you have to have win at nofap.
Have you tried spreading out the chores so you spend less time on them? Do a little here or a little there. It might not be possible but I was just wondering if you’ve tried that or anything else. I kind of enjoy chores, I must be a weirdo 
lol
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Ah ah ah ha, I used to liked chores but when I always half done it I started to hate it. There is always sense of accomplishment when you’ve finished maybe that’s why you like it so much. But for me right now i can’t even finished one. I’m starting decluttering so many things. Can’t believe I have all those trash taking over my place. I should do that with my life too.