Did not use any digital stuffs till breakfast as targeted.
Greatly improved the study duration relative to yesterday. Am super happy for that.
Spend time with parents after dinner casually discussing about their younger life and how they used to go to school.
Ate a little more food due to happiness
Urges was there through out the day. It felts like somebody is telling me from inside that I am missing a lot why not going back to PMO. But I am not ready to relapse.
Bed time urges are getting stronger. Yesterday night also there were heavy flashbacks and thoughts pursuing me to relapse. But I calmly resumed reading the book.
Am planning to read at least one book per month. I hope it will work.
Shifted the meditation to afternoon. It helps me to take a short 20 minutes nap in afternoon. And then feel relaxed after the nap.
Wake up early Prayers offered Journaling Meditation Read few pages
Acknowledged the urge Accepted that urges are not bad; Its our ACTIONS what matters. Acknowledged my freedom to choose Chose my vision of future life.
It’s very inspiring to see you getting up day by day. Keep going brother.
Definitely a great idea. Read atleast 5 pages a day whether it’s a book on self help or on your niche, anything that will make you wiser and informed. Go for it. I personally recommend “Rich dad Poor dad”.
I recently heard about that book. Saw a youtube video in which the Author is talking.
Am currently reading Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind
As you said, I have to first make it a habit of reading every single day. So, am trying to make it a must do think before I go to bed every night, to read atleast few pages.
Am absolutely happy for reaching 5 days streak. Personally this is huge for me.
Yesterday, afternoon, I was having huge urges which were literally making me restless and anxious. I was not in a position to use my phone and computer (thank God). And I was felling the pressure building up in me and I was super scared too.
I came back home in afternoon and talked with my companions. And that helped. Thank God.
I stayed on my routine and succeeded in completing all the habits am trying to build.
I am praying to God that He gives enough power to me to go through this tough phase and come out with colors on the other side.
After a long long time, and multiple attempts, I have finally managed to reah this milestone of 7 days or 1 week. Thank God.
One of my friend told me that i should celebrate this win with gifting something to myself. Like buying an ice-cream. But I don’t know why, I feel like my win are very small and nothing tremendous.
What do you think my beloved companions?
Is this milestone of 7 days a great win for a person like me?
Do I deserve any appreciation and gift for this achievement?
And please give me suggestions on how to go about the next 7 days?
Hey dear brother, great job on the comeback! I feel It’s good to appreciate the small wins in a way that motivates us to progress further ahead. Peace.
I can understand, my brother. If you can manage urge for one day then you can do it everyday. I mean logic dictates that. Each day at the end is just 1 day.
I will sent you a PM if that’s ok with you. I will respect what you wish. Hopefully it can help you.
@Aragorn you will reboot for sure … celebrate this victory of seven days… getting a seven day streak for someone who is so intensely addicted is no small feat.
I too completed 15 days after several months. and I am sure that I am gonna reboot this time.
I agree with your friend, you should do something to celebrate.
Don’t compare yourself to others. Everyone is different and goes through different challenges. I didn’t have a single urge until day 36. Anyone can pass a month without urges, that’s not an accomplishment. Getting to a week was no small achievement for you at all, and making it through waves of strong urges to get here is impressive. You definitely have what it takes.
Don’t think about the 90 day reboot. It will come as long as you continue, with GOD’s Help. Like @Ernol said, if you can make it through a day, you can do it again. Set your goal as the next 7 days, and continue doing that.
For every 7 days,
Look ahead to the challenges you will experience that week and prepare how you will overcome them.
Learn about what people generally experience at each stage and how they conquered that issue, like flatlines and days of strong urges.
Remind yourself of the better life you’re going towards and just how much the addiction has taken from you.
Set a reward to look forward to for day 14, day 21 etc.
Another day gone with out PMO. Today I have to spent more time on my studies. I have only limited time for my studies. I have to make use of each second.
Thanks to the Almighty. I have completed 10 days. This is my highest streak ever. I still lack confidence and self esteem. That may come further down the line when I achieve higher streak. I am now happy that I could reach this milestone which I first thought an impossible target for a person like me.
All has give me strength through their words when I was low. And this is only a beginning. There is a lot of room for improvement.
Urges are less these days relative to the initial days. But they do come sometimes. I will be vigilant and smart to deal with them.
I pray to God that he may give me strength to continue in the righteous path and learn from my mistakes and correct them. He may bless me with love and affection. He may make my dreams comes true.
Have completed one more day. Now it’s 11 days. 1 day short of 12 days. I am trying to be as productive as possible. I am praying a lot these days. I believe that the God will help me in this Journey.
Taking one day at a time really eases the stresses. Talking to people helps. Being with family helps. Always in the vicinity of parents helps.
Thanks to the Almighty. With the help of God, I have completed 13 days on my NoPMO journey.
I was not writing diary everyday in these days. But still I was in contact with some of my companions.
I don’t feel good these days. The urges are rare though. But when they comes they are stronger. But 13 days in to the journey, am not seeing my life going exactly what I felt it would go once I stay clean. Yes, ofcourse there are benefits. Staying clean a feel good thing. Good habits are growing. Am happy that I don’t have to hide anything from any one else.
But inside am still not satisfied. I don’t know why. My mood is average to low. Not happy I would say. The life sometimes feel unfair towards me.
There is no one to congratulate me for reaching 13 days. I know it’s very small. But it took a lot of effort and self discipline to reach even this much. I don’t know how long can I go? But I feel like there is no one really cares about my journey. Its just me.
I am now waking up early every day. Am on a 10 days streak for that. These days, when I wake up, in the silence around me, I feel lonely and isolated. I feel really alone. I feel scared that am helpless.
The focus and concentration has not increased yet. I still gets distracted very easily. I am still unable to accept failures. I act like its okey infront of everyone. But inside me, failures really crushes me in to pieces.
I need all of your support to continue in this journey. I want to reach my full potential. I want to stay happy and satisfied.
Wake up early
