Darshan2017's diary of 2022[21 Male]

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Yes :100:, keep improving bro, itā€™ll get better.

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15/6/22
Day 2āœ… on the way to completion of day 3
So hello every 1
Just a sneak peak of how i was struggling last few days
I was convinced that ill never be able to overcome
And i gave up on trying
I somehow wanted to do it
And even though there werent urges i just would do
But i still feel the need to give up this
Again
The things i always take for granted are exercising and meditation and so excess use of phone
So its better to set some ground rules

  1. Exercise daily
  2. Meditation everyorning after exercising
  3. No youtube or games after 8
    Presently ill go with a small list of tasks and once ill be regular in those ill try to expand or add on new one
    Tysm for being there and praying good for me
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Arey bhai mujhe laga aap to gaye accha laga waapas dekh kar

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Ha bhai acha laga sunke
Ik that im not regular in posting but ill try to do it as much frequently as possible

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Day 3 :white_check_mark:
16/6/22
All about yesterday s schedule

  1. Exercise :white_check_mark:
  2. Meditation :x:
  3. No yt or games after 8 :x:(i started watching a drama series)
    Ill try not to watch again
    The day was tiring and frustrating towards the end coz due to some else mistake i have to redo the whole 2 hours work again this day
    Here is my schedule of work travel 5 to 6 hours
    Intership (unpaid ) of 7 and half hour
    And then 1 to two hours of online paid internship
    So yeah thats it
    Had urges but succesful in beating those
    Thats it
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17/06/22
Day 4āœ…

  1. Exercise :white_check_mark:
  2. Meditation :x:
  3. No yt and game after 8āŒ
    I just wanted to finish the c drama that i was watching so couldnt control
    It was a very tiring day today
    I was sleepy at work because of long hour of travelling in standing
    I just get urges to do mas as i feel im missing the pleasure that comes with it but ik this thinking is there just till i dont relapss
    Once i do guit and anger will come in
    Then i m in a bad condition as for me love thoughts are more of se* and fu** like they show in por*
    And i feel bad that this is my thinking
    But watching c drama
    It felt good to see love in that way and during the days when i was watching this series my thoughts about love were pure and didnt necessarily involve po** stuff
    So though i spent lots of time to watch this short series but i feel it was worth to make me laugh and go gaga over the love and romance and it was just wholesome
    Thats it now onwards will try to mlt binge watch but will surely watch more of c and k drama especially those which are short
    For those who wanna watch it the name is ā€œunforgettable loveā€
    Which u can watch on yt
    Thats it
    Stay strong
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I relapsed day before yesterday
Im sorry for that and ik im at fault
As there was no urges or peeking
I did it willingly
Somewhere after relapsing so many times i started feeling i wont overcome this and i also felt i was missing the pleasure from this
But when i did mas there was nothing
No pleasure like it used to be
Just that i would feel good in the brain
Its like i used to feel my bra ik n a bit stress reduced but it again woukf start as soon as it went and to overcome that i would relapse back to back
Sorry for such a disappointment
But ill keep trying and will succeed for sure this time

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20/06/22
Day 1 :white_check_mark:
Exercise :x:
Meditation :x:
No yt or games after 8 :white_check_mark:
It was an okay day
I was feeling very low throughout the day not just due to relapse the previous day but also due to many other factors
Thats it

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I just felt like writing my feeling down here
Feeling extremely low lately and im at fault
Thats it i dont know what else to type coz i feel its of no use just to tell here and get some encouragement and then i keep checling to see who has replied or liked my post
Bye

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For similar reason I have kept likes off here. I donā€™t get a notification when someone likes my posts :sweat_smile:.
But regarding replies. Bro we all know how difficult it is to deal with any kind if habit breaking or building without accountability, thatā€™s why we post here.

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Relapse once more you canā€™t even go on a single day without wanking and writing post like this.
NaBrO thatā€™s not happen.
You can prove me wrong if you can at least do one week of noFap

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Sorry brother
I relapsed yesterday night again
I have actually been free for more than 15 to 16 days back to back but im just mot able to do it presently
But yep ill prove u wrong and ill go more than a week this time wont disappoint u or myself

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Be careful in the first 2 days. Thatā€™s exactly when the mind will keep telling you, one more last time before we begin the journey.

All the best.

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So fucking true dude :sweat_smile:

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We all had been there. Haha.

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Heyaa
Day 2 :white_check_mark:
Day 1 was just normal working day with lots of work
Day 2 a trip with family to spiritual places invloving climbing mountains so that was fun
Thats it for now

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Awesome!! which one mountain?

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Spiritual place in karnataka
Name - shravanabellagola
Ignore the spelling mistakesšŸ˜…

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It took me 2 minutes to pronounce it so nvm the spelling

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I relapsed yesterday again
Ill try again
No excuses for relapses
Sorry to disappoint u all and even myself

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