It’s very unusual but nothing to say about it. Good luck.
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A person can be happy in whatever situation they’re in.
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1/3/22
Day 1 
120 days more towards my target
Havent been any productive from last one week
Didnt exercise
Didnt go out much
And just binge playjng codm 
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02/03/2022
Day 2
Had a dream yesterday night in which i relapsed and i started crying as i relapsed
All this was a dream and i was in shock and scared when i woke up.
I just wasted today gaming first half and then deciding what needs to be done
Evening had several phone calls of my friends
Not exercising from 1 week due to stomach issues
Was scared of rushing to washroom while jogging
Plus i was lazy so didnt put efforts
Will study from tom
Thats all
Gnsdtc
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well maybe he had long streak and life was going good so he didn’t felt any problem 
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Day 5 conquered
All pumped up for day 6
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Almost day 5 in 15 mins
So my day was unproductive today
Had high urges
Tried peeking but the blocler stopped me
At one time i was successful in deactivating the blocker
But i quit to try peeking
And took shelter under anime
Then went out for shopping just random things and ate out a bit with siblings
Got screwed from mom for eatjng out but i was ready for it
Thats all
Will get back in schedule from tom
Day 6✅
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@Finding_Myself
Believe it or it is worth quitting
Dont give up
It took me more than 50 relapses to get here
If the following could help for u i would be happy
- Youtube videos and shorts used to be my main reason for relapses
So presently i have blocked it can only unblock using the code that my gf would receive so im not watching youtube through app
However i do use the website to listen to easy peasy audio book thoigh couldnt finish the 2nd video only as i fell asleep twice listening to it -
Identify ur triggers and try eliminating them
The reason why its important for me is that earlier i used to start mt journey without any weappn to safeguard myself
Keep ur weapons ready to tackle the urges
Now i know what are my triggers
B4 two days while i was watching a movie there was an intimate scene though i was alone at home i could have seen it
But i didnt want to relapse
Atleast not that day so i ran and changed the channel -
Substitute - it is not good to substitutr one addictikn to another
But we cannot leave entertainment completely
Play some outdoor games or mobile games in the initial day or watch some movie etc
I played codm till day 5
I was addicted to it too but then i wanted to quit that too so i deleted it and havebt played any game till then -
Rewarding ourself
We forget to reward ourself when we achieve something
So till now i have rewarded myself with outside food
I usually dont eat junk food much
I prefer dosa idli paratas and bhel etc
And i feel happy to eat them
Now planning to reward myself with some shows as i dont want to spend unnecessary on food so frequently
So let me see how it works -
Reward frequently
Making the reward a forvidden fruit would hust make me disappointed so i m keep short goals
Like if i clear 7 days i ll watch 2 episodes of anime or some series
Next goal is day 10
Etc -
exercise and meditation
Previously i rarely used to meditate or exercise
But reading @The_integrous_one 's diary motivated me to keep exercisjng
Urges do arise but they are vwry minimal as i dont peek or edge and at night it takes me less than 5 mins to sleep as im exhausted
So guys donot give up
I dont want to give
I wont give up
Thanks
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Feels good to hear I could help .
Keep going bro 
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DAY7
So here im
Succesfully completed 7 days
Earlier it was difficult for me to cross 3 days
I have touched 7 days in last 1 year only when i was on a trip or was outside throughout the day or had to conpulsorily attend classes
But this time i was home
U didnt have classes but i prefereed to study though initially it was just 1 hr a day and sometimes ntg but i did it
Im very much happy
And i enjoyed these 7 days though had bit urges on 6th and 7 th day
But it was fun
It wasnt that difficult like it used to be
The reasons why itbecame an easy journey for me
1. Reduced my triggers
Mostly it was youtube so i blocked it
I use it for wasy peasy or some game videos that too not more than 20 mins
Erotic stories - i have bloclers for it and an accountable partner
2. Exercising dailyexhausts me physically and hence dont have time for these shut
My main stress reason for relapsjng was studies
I never studied or put efforts and i expected to pass exam which is not possible amd hence stressed and so relapse to run away from problem and whenever stress arose relapse repeatedly
Now have started studying so feels gr8
Thats all
Going to better day 8
I will conquer this time for sure
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I have experienced the same bro, we feel that studies stress us out but it’s actually not studying that stresses us out, unless we realise this we keep running away from studies to avoid stress in turn getting more stressed 
. I am experiencing that, I gotta start studying well soon.
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Hello
Relapsed today again
Will get back soon
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Best of luck bro for your journey , may Allah help you.
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Hello every 1
Thanks for all the support
But for a while ill be quitting the forum to make myself better
The reason is that my trigger is phone
No matter what
Even if i dont have anything inportant i feel there might be somethjng jnportant and i tend to use it and then from one thing to another
Trying to reduce the phone usage
Do give ur best wishes
And wont be able to read any replies after this message
Stay strong every 1
Stay happy
Succeed and have fun in life
life is too short to waste in these addictions
Sayonara:sweat_smile:
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Hello
Back again to the forum
The reason being i started relapsing everyday and many times since then
…
Back to day 0
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Relapsed again today more than 4 times today
Ashamed of it
Morning was good but woke up late as had to stay awake till 12.30 last night
And hence lacked motivation to exercise
Didnt go to temple
And then i gave up easily and watched the shit and beat the dude
And then accidentally slept in the evening 1 hr
But i m not giving up
Ill do it again
Better than last time
The thing is i need to control myself and stay busy
The blockers detox apps etc wont be useful as i easily find a loophole
Target 1 - 1 day (16/03/22)
Target 2 - 3rd day (18/03/22)
Target 3 - 5th day (20/03/22)
Target 4 - 7th day (22/03/22)
Target 5 - 8th day (23/03/22)
Target 6 - 10 th day (25/03/22)
This is my first check list as i tend to relapse on 1st, 3rd, 5 th , 7th and 8th day
Also i gave up using blockers and detox app
Ill do it this time
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My daily targets to be achieved
- Exercise ( i m skipping lots of days at a stretch wont repeat the same mistake)
- Meditation ( havent been doing it at all)
- Studies ( min 6 hrs a day )
- Spiritual (pooja in temple or reading spiritual book)
- Detox phone after 8.30
- Easypeasy 10 mins ( havent listened to the second video only , slept off many times while listening to it )
- 10 mins of stoxk exchange reading (apart from studies)
Thats all presently ill go with these 7 tasks
I didnt include cold showers coz thats my habit frkm last october where just had hot water bath 3 or 4 times
Ill give my best
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Update as on 16/03/22 end
Day 1
Tasks
1. Exercise ( exhausted and was not in condition to do cool down )
2. Meditation ( 5 mins)
3. Studies min 6 hrs (0 hr)( watched arcane 3 episodes and was just procastinating things )
4. Spiritual work ( had been to temple for pooja)
5. Detox phone after 8 30(10pm)
6. easy peasy 10 mins (started but had other works to finish)
7. 10 mins of stock exchange reading
Ill do better today
So the day was okay
High urges in the afternoon but i fell asleep automatically for 10 mins
High urges at night
I was about to relapse but didnt as i asked myself do i want to lose again
Thats it
Ate few cream biscuits and watched arcane few episodes to get dopamine
Thats it
Thank you
lets do it
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Relapsed …
Day 0 again
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No problem bro in starting you will have problem to catch up but remember to Catch that state soon
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