Darshan2017's diary of 2022[21 Male]

#thought 2
Now coming to my thoughts which i want to share but dont know where to so starting here
Today i prefer the topic of social media
When people ask me my instagram, facebook or snap chat name and i say i dont have any they give a look of seeing an alien
I do have facebook an snap but deactuvated and not interested to start using instagram
I just dont understand why the need for these
If some 1 disagrees with me then plz do give me reasons for why this is necessary and if i find that valid reasons ut would be helpful for me
I just dont have patience or i can say im lazy to send daily snaps and maintain streaks
I just dont want to go through endless feed or reels
And just do mindless browsing
I just realised one thing
The new generation amd coming ones will be hooked to screens rather than going out
I regret not indulging in sports much in early years
But not giving up
Just answer me those who are using the social media
Is it worth my time?
I love to enjoy the moment rather than click pictures
Pictures are required for memories
But enjoying the moment fully matters a lot
I feel i was happier two years back when i had basic phone
I regret taking smart phone in the name of studies where i used it only less than 5 % for studies
I used to be a topper
But now settled for passing
Thats all i wanted to share for today
Thanls for reading this
Stay happy
Stay strong
And have less screen time😁

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DAY 1 CHECK IN✅
20/FEB/2022

Tasks

  1. Workout❌
  2. Meditation during the day❌
  3. Phone detox after 9❌
  4. Wake up b4 6 :x:(6.30)
  5. Screen time (phone,tv and laptop ) less than 5 hrs a day❌
  6. Spiritual studies minimum 30 mins :white_check_mark:
  7. Meditation b4 sleeping (no gadget):x:
  8. Writing my personal diary❌
  9. Next day planning❌
    10.eye exercies and pranayam❌

These are the 10 tasks that i presently want to work on

It was an okay day as i was not well
Couldnt interact much with others
Plus got hooked to playing bgmi and played for like 2 hrs
It was satisfactory to delete bgmi, codm and critical ops coz no matter how much i try i get drawn to them
Had issue with sleeping
But itsk ill have better sleeep if i detox phone a bit early b4 sleeping

Thats it
It was an easy day
Stay strong guys😁

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Talking about today it was a bad day as i wasted the entire day
So to begin with
I couldnt sleep properly yesterday night
I was asleep but i felt as i was awake the entire night as i had dreams of playing pubg in sleep though yesterday was the only day when i played
So deleted it
But today i downloaded codm again but then i just dont want to keep the old things happening
Keep binge playing - dont study - write exams unprepared - regret why i didnt study when i had time - think that next attempt ill prepare better - fail this sucks

Any way to get out of gaming??

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DAY 2 CHECK IN :white_check_mark:
21/feb/2022

Tasks

  1. Workout✅ (jog and then ran a bit and didnt have strength to jog more so walked the rest of the distance + yoga)
    2.meditation :x:
  2. Phone detox after 9❌ (9.10)
  3. Wake up before 6 :x:(6.30)
  4. Total screen time (tv+ mobile +pc) <5hrs❌
  5. Spiritual studies minimum 30 mins❌
  6. Meditation before sleeping✅(mantra chantjng and then counting the tick tick tick sound of clocl for mext two mins)
  7. Writing my personal diary :white_check_mark:(finally i did it again​:fire:)
  8. Next day planning :x:
  9. Eye exercise and pranayam❌

Happy that i improved from previous day
Let the fire burn​:fire::fire::fire:

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Just a funny incident thats happening with me
While speaking to my gf she started speaking ultra cute manner
I kept reminding her to calm down
And said her I’m on day 3 and i dont want to relapse and dont want to leave the 249 days challenge and we both enter into a roller coaster of laughter from then on
Man! im enjoying nofap
I do enjoy this lifestyles as im more active more happy and more energy
Hope i grow better

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DAY3 CHACK IN✅
22 FEB 2022

TASKS

  1. workout✅(jogging -had fun as i pushed myself in speed and distance too though felt like giving up in between but something in personal life motivated me though while returnjng from the track ran a bit and then walked the rest as it was exhausting + yoga)
  2. Phome detox after 9✅
  3. Wake up before 6❌(6.30 somewhere)
  4. Total useless screen time <3 hrs❌
  5. Spiritual studies minimum 30 mins❌
    6.meditation b4 sleeping without gadget✅(mantra, counting the breath and then counting the tick tick tick sound of clock)
  6. Writing personal Diary✅
  7. Next day planning :white_check_mark:(tasks set for today :sweat_smile:)
  8. Eye exercise✅
  9. Pranayam / meditation :x:
    I have altered few tasks like meditation and pranayam as i dont have time for both
    Also slept very peacefully and woke up without alarm
    Energetic day but got distracted in the evenjng so used phone
    Thats it
    Stay strong guys
    :fire::blush:
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Yes stay strong brother :grin::fire::fire:

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Awesome bro. Keep progressing, your routine seems lit to me :handshake:

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Sorry guys relpased many times😭
Didnt study anything
Nor felt like taking a bath or doing anything
:expressionless:
Will start to work by listening to easypeasy book

I want to confess one more thing
When i relapsed
I couldnt handle the relapse
So i again deleted the app
And didnt confess to my gf
But i couldnt sleep yesterday night as i felt i was betraying my gf
So i gathered all the courage and got up and texted her everything
She was damn upset
But im happy that i didnt lie to her again
And also re downloaddd the app and trying to be back on track
:blush:

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Day 1✅
I was about to start this post by telling sorry i couldnt ppst past two days and blah blah blah
But while speaking to my gf i realised this sorry from my mouth doesnt mean at all
Like why do i need to tell sorry rather i must feel sorry that i as a man am not standing true to my words
So no more sorries
To begin with
Finally back on track
Though couldnt do any of the tasts from teo days
Because of relapse and then no motivation plus bad health
Feeling much better today

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Im breaking up the posts the reason being i dont want people like me to not read these as i tend to skip long posts

Presently tensed a ton
As i have my results mostly tom and max by day after tom
Ca inter results
I feel like ill fail
But like everytime hoping for a miracle to help
And plus this time every single of them who know about the results is so sure that ill clear is adding on to my pressure
Lets see what happens tom😅
And the funny thing is i dont need to keep checking whether my results got released or not
Ill get the indication of the results when ill put my phone on do not disturb mode to be able to check the results as only airplane mode can make me see the results as a prevention from atleast 10 people phone calls back to back​:rofl::rofl:

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Now coming to my gaming stuff
After deep discussion and me getting slashed by her for relapsing and quitting everything at once
And came out with a conclusion
Why have i limited gaming to just shooting
So yeah just reucing the intensity of gaming
To musical games
Now why i always emphasised on shooting games
The reason i understood was because the satisfaction or adrenaline rush or dopamine i get from them i couldnt get from any other so i tried quitting all at once
But now just gonna play beatstars and chess

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This has happened with my friends every year😆
Bds results are out n me and my friends are chilling and eating with family :sweat_smile:

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Ended the day with some time out with friends
While coming back home we were searching for tea stall to drink hot tea in the cold night
But to vain as everything was closed😅
Good night

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Finally
I cleared ca inter grp 1 today
Failed in grp 2 but anyways it was just trial attempt
So now full focus on grp 2 :blush:

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Congrats bro :100:

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Thanks man😁…

…_________

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27th feb 2022
Relapsed many times today
I gave up easily
But will get up back from now😁
This time planning to stay sober for entire march month😁
Plus studies from tom😊
Now detox from phone by 9
See ya tom🙂

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And you are saying it in a happy mood wow

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Nah bro
I didnt mean about relapse
Im happy coz i just feel happy…

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