You have some serious problems 
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April 26
Study (5 hours min) : 
Praying -
Sunlight -
Workout -:
Hanuman chalisa :
No social media on phone - :
No daytime Nap
Meditation -:
Adding to wake in b/w 5 to 6 AM
No phone after 10:30 PM
I woke up at 7:00 A.M. So i was feeling tired and couldn’t even open my eyes to see what’s happening. Then got ready did meditation prayer and i really really didn’t want to study and i watched a movie twice first me alone then with my family and it was not a triggering movie. Then after wasting a lot time I also didn’t watch any of my classes except bio so backlog.
I felt kind of fine taday. But really need to discipline myself otherwise i will lose grip and i will again relapse
I kind of thought of relapsing . I had good amount of urges today and my mind was saying to relapse because I kind of now in a better position than my last few days.
Today i slept too. So staying awake till night to get some work done.
Goodnight
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Had nightfall realised at 6:00 A. M.
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April 27
Study (5 hours min) :
Praying -
Sunlight -
Workout -:
Hanuman chalisa :
No social media on phone - :
No daytime Nap :
Meditation -:
Adding to wake in b/w 5 to 6 AM
No phone after 10:30 PM
Got some mild urges. Day was pretty normal
Goodnight
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April 30
Study (5 hours min) : :
Praying -
Sunlight -
Workout -:
Hanuman chalisa :
No social media on phone - :
No daytime Nap :
Meditation -:
Adding to wake in b/w 5 to 6 AM
No phone after 10:30 PM
Awake till late night because having a mock test tomorrow.
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MAY 2
Study (5 hours min) : :
Praying -
Sunlight -
Workout -:
Hanuman chalisa :
No social media on phone -
No daytime Nap ::
Meditation -:
Adding to wake in b/w 5 to 6 AM
No phone after 10:30 PM
The day was simple and fine.
I am scared of people judging me all the the time. I hate when someone becomes too much judgemental. My mood definitely get ruined when my friends judge or tease someone uncessarly just because of their ‘fun and humor’.
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MAY 3
Study (5 hours min) :
Praying -
Sunlight -
Workout -:
Hanuman chalisa : :
No social media on phone -
No daytime Nap ::
Meditation -:
Adding to wake in b/w 5 to 6 AM
I woke up so late at 9:30 A.M. because last night we were watching a movie then slept late at 1:00 A.M. Then after waking up then I got ready till 10:00 AM then i watched two other movies consecutivly on tv then at 1:00 PM. Got to my senses that my whole day is now wasted and then I slept again for 2 Hours. I know so much unproductive day then woke at 3:00 P.M and thankfully i studiest for almost 3 hours. Went outside at 6:30. Talked to my friends came back home. Felt tired without doing any work and today i had no classes So that’s a reason too for laziness.
Good night
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oh man.
After reading ‘Got to my senses’ I was expecting that next line would be I started studying, good sense of humor 
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What work ?
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You got back to senses that you wasted so much time then you thought why not complete the process…
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I woke up at 3 then i studied for at least 3 hours and which process you talking about?
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The process of wasting time.
Pr chhdo, 3 ghnte pdh lia, that’s great, even 3 study hours are sufficient for covering good amount of studies if you are focussed.
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He is talking about photosynthesis
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MAY 4
Study (5 hours min)
Praying -
Sunlight -
Workout -:
Hanuman chalisa : :
No social media on phone -
No daytime Nap ::
Meditation -:
Adding to wake in b/w 5 to 6 AM
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May 5 , 1:07 P.M.
Urges are on extreme level today. I can’t even control them. My will to watch porn is increasing time to time. The main reason I felt a urge today then i searched for some arousing stories then i got urges to do something more. I am so dumb should’ve known this trick. I just desperately want to relapse i don’t why but another part of mind remembers the emotional turmoil ensued during my past relapse. I don’t want to get into pmo loophole again. There’s my mistake too. I shouldn’t have searched something stimulating my urges but for record I still didn’t relapse. I know a little mistake can get you down to zero and i am exhausted to get back at zero everytime.
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I will challenge you, why did you relpase? Stress issue or something.
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Bro. An advice if you like.
Don’t try to fight too much. Do meditation and if
When you feel inevitable to relapse then don’t watch porn…
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Bhai kya hi bolu nahane ke bakt khujli ho rhi thi usme kand hogaya
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