So this is my 30 th day in this journey. So To celebrate it I am staring a diary. I will try to like post daily.
Edit 1 :-
Date - 24 Jan, 2022 ( Translation is given below)
Writing something about myself.
मेरी कहानी कुछ ज्यादा खास नहीं है लेकिन फ़िर भी मैं ज़रूर इसे साझा करना चाहूंगा। मैं हिंदी भाषा का इसलिए प्रयोग कर रहा हूँ क्योंकि मुझे लगता है की मैं इस भाषा द्वारा अपने आप को ज्यादा वर्णन कर पाऊँगा। मैं PMO अपनी जिंदगी से हटाना चाहता हूँ क्योंकि मुझे लगता है PMO की वजह से मैं अपने अंदर कुछ लापता पाता हूँ। मेरी कहानी ये नहीं है की PMO की वजह से मेरे मार्क्स कम या पढाई मैं की दिक्कत। मेरी समस्या ये है की मुझे लगता है की इसकी वजह से मैं अपने आप अंदरूनी रुप से कमज़ोर हो रहा हूँ।मैं PMO की वजह से अपना समय, शक्ति, विश्वास , सब खो जाता हूँ। मेरा मन इसके वजह से अभ्यंतर लड़ने की आवाज़ को खो रहा है। मैं अपनी पहचान और अपना अस्तित्व नही खोना चाहता। मैं इस यात्रा पर जितनी बार भी गिरूँ पर ये निश्चित हैं की मैं कभी हार नहीं मानूँगा ।
जय श्री कृष्णा।
My story is not very special but still I would like to share it. I used Hindi language in the upper para because I felt that I will be able to describe myself more through this language. I want to remove PMO from my life because I feel that because of PMO I find something missing in me. My story is not that because of PMO my marks are low or I have problems in my studies. My problem is that I feel that I am weakening myself internally because of this. I lose my time, energy, confidence, everything because of PMO. My mind is losing the inner fighting voice because of this. I do not want to lose my identity and my existence. No matter how many times I fall on this journey, I am sure that I will never give up.
Who think time is literally moving fast. Like 2021 is now going end in just 2 and half month. For me literally like everything going so fast. For me it’s like 1 oct and in 2 days it is like 10 oct .
Time doesn’t really wait for anyone
Time is like a river. You cannot touch the same water twice, because the flow that has passed will never pass again. Enjoy every moment of your life! - Someone
For me I think like everything is like moving so fast. I cannot even feel the days. I want to get the feeling back like I want to like feel every moment. Hope that happens. That’s the thing I am waiting for
I think I need to integrate some habits in my daily routine. For past few days I am literally sleeping late and then waking up late. I can’t concentrate very much in study and in the mean time I waste my the by playing game. The main problem is I can’t focus because things are much more feasible to me like listening song, playing game whenever I want I think I need to change this and a set a goal that if I surpass the goal then i am eligible to play game (and for a specific time not extra)
Time management is the main problem but overtime I know I will solve it.
And another is that I think about other opinion very much (for this thing can anyone help? ) like I want to stop what other people think about me or what other will think. It just ruin my happiness. Can anyone give me a practical way to just focus on myself rather than other?
Still waking up late I don’t know why but I have become lazy. I think because of winter but I want to wake up early. I think the main problem is that I sleep late I think I should sleep early. That is a great idea.
I think today I should make a daily to do list and I forgot to give my introduction so I am gonna edit that post (Not sure Hope I soon edit)
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Discipline is necessary but to pursue it one needs a lot dedication and efforts.
After the relapse happened previously I literally do not regret it but I will not take it lightly. It helped me too realise my mistake. You know sometimes I think relapse really help me too realise my mistake or the things which are affecting.
I know, I Know that doesn’t mean that I should relapse more often .