Black Magic's Diary

Diary
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I know we all will get out of it but when I relapsed it was so shameful for me. I felt like betraying myself, and my loved ones. It wasn’t just a relapse.

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bro it’s okay, don’t be so harsh to yourself.

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A Successful man is 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration

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I relapsed again after making a streak of 1 day 16 hours and Actually, I don’t find any reasons for myself to stop PMO. I really like @NukePizza’s way of writing 5 Ideas to improve yourself so I will also do that. One way or the other I have to leave, I have been a disappointment for the last few days but still, I have the potential to leave it is just I have been demotivated for the past few days, and couldn’t find a reason again.

Here we go now Ideas to improve me.

Idea - 1: Identifying my triggers

Most of the I think procrastination is the reason and I have noticed I have specific timing too which is 12:00 to 2:00 and 3 to 4 because I am studying alone at this time, So next if I am gonna get an urge at this time I will make sure I should be busy and ignoring the urge.

Idea 2: Finding my reason again.

Whenever I relapse I feel like I have lost my gains or my positives but that isn’t what happens consecutive relapses are what make me weak and make me more lenient toward porn which makes me forget why I am doing nofap.

Idea 3: Studying more efficiently

For me studying efficiently means Constant Revision, Practicing questions at a timely interval + Plus don’t get panicked at the time of a test + Reducing the amount of time in breaks

That’s it for now, I will write my thoughts, ideas and whatever else

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Nice! :-D*

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The 5 ideas habit quickly adds up, you get to new levels in your life very quickly

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Journal

Made small streaks like 1 day -2 days just failed in them This time I will not give excuses, I give in so easily, that’s the truth. Weak mindset. Diwali is near I am gonna try completing work and study. 2 weeks left in October and I want to make 14 days streak and control my sweet intakes.

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Journal

I am going to cross Day 1 in an hour. I will be describing what I have to improve in my life through my ideas.

Idea 1- Not Wasting a lot of time

One of the things I want to have more in my life is self-discipline which is been lacking for the past few days because of me procrastinating on my work. I write what things I have to do tomorrow in my notebook diary and it works for me to some extent but still I cannot get all the ticks in my schedule that I have to work on a lot. I think the things which will work for me and maybe help me are changing the subject when I feel its boring or do a 5 min walk or drinking water

Idea 2 - Sticking to my Plan

I make a plan every day to make sure I am not sceptical about my day but the truth is most of the time I don’t stick to it and which kind of ruins the whole purpose of my day with the outcome being very less. The actuality is that I have to remove the doubt of my plan not being enough

Idea 3 - Waking up early + not sleeping in the afternoon

I mean I tried to make it early in the morning but still just at 6:48 at 12 min away from 7 am from the time I usually wake up.

Ideas 4 - Restricting my telegram usage

I really have to like stop it, it’s like the main source of time waste for me but from now on, I am gonna set a limit or specific timing. Most of the time because of two namone :joy::joy::rofl:

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I have stopped using telegram.

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:joy::joy::joy::joy: thanks, where’s my prize?

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Prize for taking my position in vellapanthi​:rofl::rofl::joy::joy:
Of course.

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:skull::skull::skull::skull::moyai::moyai:

Ghdhkfsdhfd

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Journal

I am not fine these days in nofap. Diwali went good. Now I can start studying again and focus on myself again. I was silent here on these days because I didn’t feel like writing here. For now and in the upcoming month all that matters is my study. After my exams, I think that maybe I will deserve some rest. I want to prove myself.

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Journal

Enough of me ignoring nofap for a month. This month (October) I have failed many times but I always get another chance at Nofap every day of my life not just a specific time, specific day or month. It’s time to work hard every day not run away from my work.

Things that I must have to work on are

1. Be in Discipline

If I make up my mind to study for 3 hours, That means I have to study for that amount of time whether something is going wrong or right. From Few weeks I have been not studying up to par, losing my discipline and not studying on time when I usually study.

2. Waking up early

I have said many times that I have to wake up early because I can utilise the time properly, I have started to wake up at 8:00 AM which is way too late for me, Now either I will go straight to sleep at 11 PM and wake up at 6 AM or Sleep at 12 wake up 7 AM. 7 is the deadline for me.

3.Putting extra efforts

Let’s face the truth for me, I am not a very good student, I am just an average who thinks doing little will work but it actually never works. I always take up shortcuts, scared of working too hard for my goals, dwelling on PMO, I have lied to myself that I am doing great but that’s not true, I have to work more or I must have to work hard to the level which I want to achieve in my life.

This is my Schedule from tomorrow :-

  1. Self Study Phy (2 hours)
  2. Self Study Chem ( 2 hours)
  3. 50 Question Phy -
  4. Workout Morning -
  5. Workout Evening -
  6. Waking up Early
  7. Bio ( Do one Chapter or Do lectures)
  8. Classes Up to mark

Journey Begins Again :heart:

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31 OCTOBER
DAY 1

  1. Self Study Phy (2 hours):x:
  2. Self Study Chem ( 2 hours):white_check_mark:
  3. 50 Question Phy -:x:
  4. Workout Morning - :white_check_mark:
  5. Workout Evening - :x:
  6. Waking up Early (8:00 Am) I will definitely will wake up early. Last night I slept late.
  7. Bio ( Do one Chapter or Do lectures):white_check_mark:
  8. Classes Up to mark❌

Problems I have got and what can be the solution for it.

The main problem is that nowadays I just want to procrastinate things more and more until the deadline comes. I think the solution would to detox 7 to 9 with some specific apps , I will do it tomorrow if it works out for me, then I will continue otherwise I will get to another solution.

Second problem could that I should make a practical schedule acc to my work or how much can I work. I will make one today.

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1 NOVEMBER
DAY 2

  1. Self Study Phy (2 hours):x:
  2. Self Study Chem ( 2 hours):white_check_mark:
  3. 50 Question Phy -:x:
  4. Workout Morning - :white_check_mark:
  5. Workout Evening - :x:
  6. Waking up Early (7:20 AM) :white_check_mark: Stil an Improvement
  7. Bio ( Do one Chapter or Do lectures):white_check_mark:

Today I did detox from 7 to 9 it went well, I am gonna continue with it, I will definitely try to study more now. Today was better than yesterday still I can achieve better than this. Getting my life back on track again. Just to increase more focus and decrease distraction.

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4 NOVEMBER
DAY 5

  1. Self Study Phy (2 hours)::white_check_mark:
  2. Self Study Chem ( 2 hours):white_check_mark:
  3. 50 Question Phy -:x:
  4. Workout Morning - :white_check_mark:
  5. Workout Evening - :x:
  6. Waking up Early (6:20 AM ) : Finally achieved it.
  7. ( Do one Chapter or Do lectures):white_check_mark:

All things are going fine. I am suffering lot mentally from my studies and I need to find a way to overcome it so it won’t a become a really big problem after some time.

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5 NOVEMBER
DAY 6

  1. Self Study Phy (2 hours)::white_check_mark:
  2. Self Study Chem ( 2 hours):white_check_mark:
  3. 50 Question Phy -:x:
  4. Workout Morning - :white_check_mark:
  5. Workout Evening - :x:
  6. Waking up Early (6:10 AM ) : Decreasing the time
  7. ( Do one Chapter or Do lectures):white_check_mark

Had a lot fun and studying today because relatives came and I found that I am an morning person because I really feel motivated when I wake up early but it just the trouble right now or in the future will be winter, just hoping that I am able to cop it.

Good Night Guys

Always remember - "It’s not the load that breaks you down, it’s the way you carry it."

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8 NOVEMBER
DAY 9

  1. Self Study Phy (2 hours)::white_check_mark:
  2. Self Study Chem ( 2 hours):white_check_mark:
  3. 50 Question Phy -:x:
  4. Workout Morning - :white_check_mark:
  5. Workout Evening - :
  6. Waking up Early (6:15 AM ) : Still improved to the time when I used to wake at 7
  7. ( Do one Chapter or Do lectures):white_check_mark

Finally! My time to wake up has changed, and now I am getting into the habit of waking up at 6:00- 6:30. But today, for example, I took a daytime nap to refresh myself but it went about 2 hours so to compensate I am gonna stay awake till 12. Need to improve the fact that I never complete my schedule daily which I make for myself. Nofap is going well, I have mental calmness now. I need to improve the frequency of my exercise because I am only just jumping rope till 1300 and I am still improving to get more high numbers, I also did 350 skipping in one go, and after that my calves started to pain, don’t wanna overburden it but the goal is to reach 500 in one go now then I will see what happens next.

Words of wisdom

"Your net productivity is the balance of the productive and unproductive forces in your life.

A great deal of time and energy is spent thinking about how to increase effort, but there is a lot to be gained by reducing friction.

A car will travel faster not only if you press the accelerator, but also if you remove the speed bumps."

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My highest is 2215 in one go :smirk:.
Depends on skipping rope too though. The current one I have amazon basics skipping rope is much heavier. I did that with a lighter one.

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I never actually tried it in my life

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