Day 31, 19hrs 27 mins
Beat my personal best of 30 days yesterday. Thought of updating it in my diary.
Sorry i couldn’t keep up with the daily tasks because I’m going through a very bad and rough patch in my personal life.
I hope you all are doing great. Keep up the spirit.
Congratulations bro… 
Take care…
I am doing good…
Stay strong…
Thanks brother.
Good to hear that… you too stay strong.
Day 35
This is the best video that i have seen soo far.
Audio language = Hindi 
Speaker = Anubhav Singh Bassi
Show = TEDx
Im so happy today.
For the past 6 months i was just wondering and wishing that when i will cross the 20s and 30s.
Well after 6 months, today is the day…!!
Today i reached 40 Days!!!
I had 3 unintentional nightfalls in these 40 days.
I thought of relapsing many times… but i held on…
My stage method (on the companion status list) is helping me a lot in this journey.
Means?
What is that method?
BTW congrats…
I broke down my streak into small random stages…
Like
Stage 1 :- +10 days.
Stage 2 :- +7 days.
Stage 3 :- +9 days.
Currently I’m on Stage 8 :- +7 days.
Which started on 39th day. And will end on 46th day.
Main thing of this stage method is :- don’t decide days that will end with a milestone number. Like 15 days. 30 days. 40 days. 45 days. etc.
This will give motivation to continue our streak till next milestone.
Bhai I am doing same for me every day is “Day 1”
Okk… Got it…
Good…
Thanks bhai … now I am also gonna use this method … Looks interesting to break down the target into stages to achieve main goal … …
Loved your method of calculating streak brother @strongwillpower. I’ll be with you till the end of this journey eventhough I touched rock bottom. Iam with you. I’ll join you soon, I promise.
Another milestone reached. Many more milestones to cross.
Make sure there’s nothing stopping us from reaching our best limits and exploring our best potentials
~strongwillpower
I think the main reason to relapse after getting urges is :- knowing that we are getting urges.
I know this might sound different… because everyone here(even me) writes about how to identify urges, how to control urges, how to get over urges.
But now. I feel like… we know that there is an urge coming which will choke us to relapse… “Oh my God, there is an urge coming… what to do… what to do noww… oh shit… no i have to control it… Oh shit i relapsed”
I know this thing is not getting clear…
Wait I’ll give some examples to understand it better…
There is this movie that you want to see… But you are on NoMovie commitment… “but this movie’s story is interesting…” but you are on NoMovie… “but this hero is your favourite… and the graphics are so awesome… Damn its trailer is soo good…” “Ok this is the last movie im going to watch”
There is this food that you want to eat… but you are on strict diet… “but this food looks soo yummy… damn look at the garnishing… look at the extra cheese added to it… oh God, this smells so yummy…” "Ok this us the last time I’m eating this…
There is this new girl in your class… but you had a breakup and you have to study now… “she talked nice to me…” shit concentrate on studies… “She has a cute smile” come on focus on your studies… “did she blushed when our eyes crossed each other” shit man… focus on studies… i have to complete this topic today itself… “but she only talked with me amongst other boys” ",leave this study… Let me get her number… and tomorrow I’ll take her on a date.
Is it clear by now?? If you think of it more… We will get attracted to it more… and we will keep on committing the same crimes…
In example form :-
There is this urge coming but you are on NoFap… "shit…there is an urge… oh shit what to do now… ok…people told me to workout… lets workout…my urge will go… " "i did workout but shit this urge is not going… now what?? Oh no… Urge urge urge… everywhere urgee… " “Shit i relapsed”
If you know there is a urge coming… so what??? Let it come and goo… Why do i have to give so much attention to this… which i know will pull me into the crime… ignore it… i have hell lot of things to do than giving attention, and managing this incoming urge… I’ll work on those things instead…
Right brother… If we panic…or get frustrated due to urges then urges tend to overpower us… but to accept that…urges will be there…urges are there because we are abstaining PMO and we are on right path…is really better way. (Embracing urges)
I want to add something in this…Sometimes we unconsciously follow some pattern…which also lead to relapse or extreme urges… for me…it is relapse position…and watching junk youtube content(Not productive/learning) …for so long…these both things lead to urges for me…
Even when I identify urges…it is easier for me to control them…
Right thing brother… that’s why discipline is needed the most…
“I will not get into this effin relapse position”
“I will not watch junk YouTube”
Discipline.
This reminds me that in past 47 days… i haven’t watched even a single junk video on YouTube.
I cannot believe my self that my colder self could make it this far.
One day i wished i would be here someday… today I’m here on this little achievement step.
There’s no looking back
Will also complete 9 targets stages on my self challenge streak tomorrow.
I want to break a secret about my this time’s streak…
Initially for first 20 days… i was sailing through it smoothly with little ups and downs…
Later, i hit a hard point in my life… me and my parents tested positive for covid… for first 5 days of it… we were just facing symptoms… then we did the test… then next 10 days i was in quarantine centre… then next 10 days we were all in tension because Dad was serious and he was in ICU… ( we all are well now🤞)
In such time …fapping would mean destroying immunity by self…
In all this… i learnt one thing… for our health… what has to be avoided… Must be avoided…
If then, i can say No to urges for my health… i can surely stand with my No for urges now too…
So therefore… NO MEANS NO…
with this… i crossed my personal best of 30 days… then crossed 40 days… and now 50 days…
And now… i just don’t want to stop… I just want to take my streak as much long as i can… and therefore… effin urges… No Means No…
Yozzzzz brother, I am glad of your victory 
May with each passing day you get more and more strength and get farther and farther from this bad habits…
All the best brother, a great life lies ahead stay strong 
I can see some personality changes…
My patience has increased…
My way of public communication has been better than before…
I don’t feel shy or scared while talking with any female.
My anger has decreased a bit.
@selfconqurer thanks brother… we will break through this addiction together.
