Brother @Tagore I admire you, I can feel your determination, but I need to tell you one thing.
Honestly, I don’t believe that making a promise in this diary every single day will work. I’ve tried to make promises myself in the past, but they never worked. What really works is habits. Consistency of habits outsmarts the initial determination, which instead will go away after a short time. I don’t want to tell you this because I believe that you won’t succeed, rather to warn you.
Actually, it is quite the opposite: I believe this is the time you will succeed. The reason? You are committed to take massive action in case of failure. You are ready to take extreme ownership over your life. You are ready to get the help of your family and friends, if it is necessary. You’ve got my respect for this. I am SURE that this time you will succeed.
Build strong habits, don’t rely on your motivation. And hold on to that willingness to do whatever it takes. I want you to succeed this time.
I am with you 
Very strong and powerful words my man @StevenSuccessJourney. Yes this is my last fight. I remember, last time when I reached 100+ streak I was 100% committed. When I used to call @josephvt I used to tell him I’ll choose death instead of ■■■■. Now Iam getting back into that mindset.
This is my last fight in this forum. If I put myself down this time it means that Iam not capable even to take care of myself and I need help. If this time I fall that will seriously affect my goals and everything related to me. Its worse that death.
IF I FAIL THIS TIME I’LL TELL MY PARENTS ABOUT THIS FUCKED UP ADDICTION. I’LL SEND AN AUDIO + TEXT MESSAGE ABOUT THE VIDEOS I WATCHED- INCEST, HARDCORE, FORCED, BRUTAL EVERYTHING IN MY FAMILY GROUP, COLLEGE GROUP, ALL THE GROUPS AND I’LL UPLOAD THE SCREEN SHOT OF IT IN THIS FORUM.
THEN I’LL LEAVE THIS FORUM AND WILL SEE A THERAPIST AND WILL DO WHATEVER IS NECESSARY. THIS TIME I HAVE NO OTHER OPTION BUT SUCCEED.
I FOLLOW THE WORDS OF SOCRATES:" WHEN YOU WANT TO SUCCEED AS BAD AS YOU WANT TO BREATH THEN YOU’LL SUCCEED!!!"
NOW FAILING IS EQUAL TO DEATH FOR ME!!!
I WILL DO ANYTHING ELSE BUT NOT ■■■■!!!
I HATE THAT FILTHY DISGUSTING SHIT!!!
EVERYONE PLEASE STOP, NOW!!!
TODAY ITSELF. IF YOU CONTINUE YOU’LL LOOSE EVERYTHING. WE ARE PLAYING WITH OUR LIFE FOR THIS 5 SECONDS PLEASURE. ITS VERY DANGEROUS. I WON’T EVER GO BACK!!!
NEVER NEVER NEVER AGAIN!!!
Man ! Love yourself. You are a rare gem. Inculcate a practise of self love in your life as well. Think of 10 things you love about yourself every single day. I am saying this because you are too hard on yourself. Maybe it is necessary to create a sense of urgency. But also be more present and love yourself. Just another thing you can add in your life without touching any other resolutions. Tagore the king.
@Tagore GET UP, DUST OFF AND GO INTO BATTLE WITH FISTS CLENCHED
Yes my brother @TheFinalFrontier I’ll do that. Today onwards I’ll complete my daily routine without fail. Gratitude Exercise I’ll surely do. I have to be this hard to get there. This is not easy, if I doubt for 1 second then I’ll go back. My mind is fucking wired hard bro.
You also know since you promised yourself that you’ll post your picture here you haven’t relapsed. That is the power of true commitment. And true commitment is required to become great in any field.
Now I want to tell something else too. I’ll start with some words I found today in the book YBOP
"With multiple tabs open and clicking for hours you can experience more novel partners every ten minutes than your hunter ancestor experienced in a life time."
This is how porn eats our brain. In 10 minutes we have orgasm or edge with mates that our ancestors had in a lifetime. What drug is more powerful than that??
Sex is one of most promitive needs of human beings. It is required to give our genes to the next generation. But, what is happening in porn. They are using the basic instincts of humans to earn billions
4 things are there mainly in porn that hooks us quickly:
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Surprise, shocking- even if you were searching for normal videos and try hard to not watch those disgusting ones accidentally. They give you suggestions. At first we’ll jump suddenly after we got a glimpse, then we’ll go back to it. I kept my hands on my chest when I was seeing one of those shocking videos and it was pounding like anything. See, it is the fear or shock that keeps us hooked once we get escalated to those videos. Desensitization is happening.
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Anxiety- Are those videos consistent with the values we have?? They know if only normal videos are there we won’t be spending all our time in it. They purposely upload more of these videos and more lives of girls will get destroyed.
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Seeking and searching (we spent hours searching for the perfect video without knowing our brain is getting baked.
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Constant dopamine release
I have to tell one thing to you @Tagore, if you relapse once more you’ll get ED. Its on your way. This is the final chance to save your life and goals. Also, everyone who has escalated into those disgusting videos like me beware soon your penis won’t wake up. WE HAVE TO STOP THIS NOW, TODAY ITSELF. NO MORE LOOKING BACK!
Can you imagine, we are standing at the window of a brothel mastubating by seeing what is inside. How disgusting is that??
That is what we are doing when we fap to porn. No wonder why all porn addicts have very less self esteem. How can anyone who is watching porn look in the face a girl or a stranger even??
All I want to say is PORN IS OVER IN MY LIFE!!!
ITS GONE!!!
Yeah these words are now your motivation my brother…On crossing day by day you will see those words at the time when you where in day 1 and until the current streak of yours
I think, this dude shernbern is the one with highest streak in this app. 1101.
That is where we should aim. I added some of the nofap masters in this forum, to understand anything is possible.
You were at the point where a normal person would have failed and just given up, and just gone, eh what the hell. Might as well.
But you my friend, are not wired normally.
Bro do you have his sharing code.
Reduce your investment on this group guys. I know I know. You are connected to like minded people who are all on a same mission- To be free from PMO addiction. I know I know. But that’s the thing. The goal is to be FREE from this addiction. But here is the twist. This is not our mission. Yes the goal is to be addiction free. But that is not the mission. Mission is have a mission. Mission is get into the real world and not even think about fapping. Of course urges will come, depression will come and all these stages will come. They are inevitable. But they are NOT STAGES OF NOFAP, they are STAGES OF LIFE. So stop being obsessed about your NOFAP streak. Make a commitment to never fap. Maybe remind yourself of this commitment once a week or once a day (I need to do it once every day. Notice that I have reduced it from twice a day to once a day. I am not perfect. But improving. Goal will be to quit writing on this forum altogether sooner or later…). Yes that’s right ! You cannot be dependent on anonymous people all your life guys. It’s like being dependent on your parents. That’s disgusting. Man up/ Woman up whatever the case maybe. But fuck it. Why waste a single thought on PMO even if it is against it. @Tagore I like your attitude of being driven by purpose. I want that Tagore back. I do not want you to adopt my approach. My ultimate is to go with your approach and focus 24-7 on my purpose or atleast being in the real world. That is the thing guys. NEVER TRADE ANOTHER FAKE THING for a FAKE THING you are trying to escape. THE PEOPLE IN THIS GROUP are not your family. Not your friends. Not your lovers. They will help you, yes. But don’t you want to be independent of their support. EVERY SINGLE THOUGHT SHOULD BE TOWARDS YOUR REAL LIFE and ON YOUR MISSION.
“The goal of every single person on this forum should be to reach a level where you no longer need this forum.” - TheFinalFrontier.
Drops mic
Very powerful words Brother @TheFinalFrontier. Yes, I totally agree with it, I reached that stage when I was on 90+ days. I had very less urges and I didn’t want anyone’s help to go forward at that time. But j binged when I fell down and my focus, creativity, work hours etc have reduced a lot. Brain fog has all come back. Now I have to pick myself up altogether. I know depending on this forum entirely for that would be the worst thing I can do. Yes, thanks for reminding me that Brother. Now this commitments that I make here helps a lot when an urge hits.
Very important words. I’ll keep this in mind. Tomorrow onwards I’ll come to this forum once a day. In the evening to report in my diary. But still I’ll use your technique of promising to myself I’ll take strong action if I give up. I have to. If I don’t change now, I’ll be causing very dangerous problems to my goals.
DAY 2
(JUST ONE MORE DAY TO WIN OUR FIRST BATTLE BRO @anon72572146)
Wake up (6am)
Meditation (10 minutes)
Pranayam (10 minutes)
Affirmation
Visualization
Soorya Namskar (5)
HIIT (High Intensity Interval Training) (alternative for jogging)
Yogic posters + full body stretching
Shavasan (5 minutes)
Vajrasan after each food
Reading (YBOP)
Journal
Grattitude exercise
Pray + Bhagavad-Gita
Mindful eating + chew 22 times
Work (3 hours)
NO TV
No YouTube
Sleep before 11
What @TheFinalFrontier had said was an eye opener. By becoming overly dependent on this forum Iam telling myself that I don’t have enough power to take complete responsibility of my life. Tomorrow onwards i’ll the forum only once a day. But I have to promise myself this:
If I give up this time, I’ll report everything to my parents: the genres of porn videos I watched, I’ll ask them for help and will put up a physical counter in my home like the forerunner did. If I don’t change at this point, everything will become upside down. If I fap again I’ll surely get ED. I can never go back. And also if I PMO again I’LL SEND AN AUDIO + VIDEO MESSAGE ABOUT THIS ADDICTION I HAVE TO MY FAMILY GROUP, COLLEGE GROUP, FRIENDS GROUP EVERYWHERE AND I’LL UPLOAD THE SCREEN SHOT OF IT HERE AND WILL LEAVE THIS FORUM FOREVER.
GO TaGOre !! When GO is in your name who can stop you ?
Why don’t you engage in some meaningful conversation with real and like minded people-friend, family, neighbour or anybody (if not face to face then audio or video call maybe)
Loneliness is a dangerous phenomenon in our current society.We Should avoid it any cost.
Being Alone is a great opportunity to know oneself, but Feeling Loneliness makes you an emotional fool.
Lets not fall in trap!!
Peace of mind and cheers to life!
Yes brother @JumpingBuddha i’ll call some of my friends daily. It gives a lot of posivity. Thanks for valuable suggestion man.
DAY 3
(@anon72572146 bro lets go for 7 now. You go for 17. Go go go!!!)
Wake up (7 am)
Start the day with om chanting.
Meditation (5 Minutes)
Pranayam (5 minutes + Kapalbanti)
Affirmation
Visualization
Soorya Namskar (5)
Jogging
Yogic postures + full body stretching
Shavasan (5 Minutes)
Vajrasan after lunch
Reading (YBOP + Grit)
Journal
Grattitude exercise
Pray + Bhagavad-Gita
Mindful Eating + chew 22+ times
No TV
No YouTube
Sleep before 11
WORK: 3 Hours
I’ve had enough with PMO. Never in my life will I go back to that filthy sin. It is the forbidden apple written about in Bible. This is my last fight in this forum. If I give up this time I’ll report everything about my addiction to my parents and will also send an audio + text message in the FAMILY GROUP, COLLEGE GROUP, and every other groups I know. And I’ll upload the screenshot of it here and will never come back to this forum. What is the use of forum or anything if I can’t control my actions?? What is the use of living in itself??
This is the turning point in my life. I can already feel that Iam falling back. But the next 10 years (20-30 years) I’ll go monk mode and will achieve all my dreams. For that I cannot relapse even once. If I do, I’ll take solid action. I won’t come back here. I’ll go to physciatrist or will keep a physical counter in my home!!! Fuck this shit!!! I’ve had enough!!! Iam done with this!!!
You see, our 1st battle against the enemy - won. Day 3 for you and day 13 for me,
conquered.
Let’s move to 7/17 days battle. We’ve got this. (if you experince any urges, hit me up, and same goes for me aswell, I’ll dm you).
Stay sharp.
Today was a great day but my actions made it bad. Spent most of my time in phone. Opened YouTube and watched some videos. I don’t know why did I do it, I have to take extreme ownership. This is not the standard in which I see myself. Iam much, much better and greater than this. My earlier diary entry in itself is the evidence for that. I’ve had enough with procrastination, ■■■■ and wasting time. Oh God, you gave me such a beautiful life. What Iam I doing with it now? Watching all those fucked up videos in YouTube, spending time on phone and making companies earn billions? Is this what God gifted me this life for? I’ll locking this phone for tomorrow. Achieving my goals in the no 1 priority.
(SPENT A TOTAL OF 7 HOURS ON MY PHONE. MY PERSONAL RECORD. IF I HAD SPENT 2 MORE HOURS I WOULD HAVE COMPLETED MY WORK HOURS. OUR PHONE IS NOT AN INNOCENT THING AS IT LOOKS)
Ok, let me remind myself about the promises i’ve made to myself. This is my last battle against ■■■■. This time I’ll give everything I’ve got, every ounce of my power to not go back to that filthy sin. Great things take time and in everyones life there will be hard times. Most of the times these hards times are created by ourselves.
But I’ll be strictly following what my brother @babi had said, two steps:
- Take one day at a time.
- Repeat.
If I relapse this time, I’ll not come back to this forum. I’ll report everything about my addiction to my parents because I don’t have even a second to waste. My dreams, my goals, my promises I won’t allow those things to be taken away from me. Iam much greater than how Iam leading my life now. I’ll become the best!!! The greatest!!! Everyone in this forum will see or read or hear about me soon. I’ll convert my entire focus into my goals. Everything else will come second in the next 10 years, 2020 - 2030. Be patient, great things take time. I can!!! I can!!! I will!!!
I’ll sent an AUDIO + TEXT MESSAGE TO MY FAMILY GROUP, COLLEGE GROUP AND ALL THE OTHER GROUPS I KNOW about my addiction and will sent the screenshot of it here and will never come back. ■■■■ is never an option from now on!!!
What Iam I getting in return??
NOTHING!!
If I do that sin once more, surely I’ll get ED. Already I had escalated to all those filthy, disgusting videos online. I have had enough!!! Never again in my life I’ll go back to it!
Hi , Tagore 
I’m really have for your courage ,for your insist to keep yourself in the line of champions because you are one of them