I was talking about this trick… My brain did it… I tried to practice some technique… the thing resulted in more urges… and one day during practice that technique…( Basically edging… with a new definition…I fooled myself) I ejaculated accidently .
yeah… Sex is only to reproduce offspring… no other species do it for pleasure…we do it for cheap thrills but it still it does not make sense to do it for 2…3 hours… (time is so fucking precious… ) … even as sahas told about problems he faced after it…it shows that… our body is not made for it.
EVEN I THINK IT WOULD BE DANGEROUS… IDK IF I AM RIGHT OR WRONG… BUT PLEASURE HORMONE IS DOPAMINE AND BY DOING IT 2…3…HOURS… WE WOULD BE RUSHING THAT DOPAMINE FOR THAT LONG PERIOD OF TIME… IT COULD END UP IN MORE SEVERE ADDICTION… what do you think about this point.?
The words that I said 2 months ago. Now look at the pathetic condition I’ve put myself in! I’ve been reading my diary from the beginning and the amount of energy, enthusiasm, power and drive I had till the beginning of August was immense. I can see that me. Oh God!
Today I relapsed too. I don’t have nothing else to say but I’ll come back. This September is the turning point in my life. If I don’t escape this addiction now I would be leading myself into some serious situation. Every thing will turn upside down if I don’t change now. My dreams, my hardwork from the age of 9, my parent’s faith in me, my family’s faith, my goals everything will get seriously damned. I know no one in this world can save me. I don’t know or I don’t care about the amount of pain I’ll have to go through. I don’t care about using willpower method or Easypeacy strategy! WHATEVER THE FUCK, I’LL GIVE EVERYTHING, EVERY BLOOD IN MY VEINS AND WILL COME BACK!!!
I DON’T WANT SYMPATHY!!!
I DON’T WANT TO BE AN AVERAGE GUY AND DIE ONE DAY WITHOUT BEING REMEMBERED BY NONE.
But still Iam looking at myself, when compared to where I was some months ago Iam at the rock bottom now!!!
Yes, I touched rock bottom!!!
Please don’t respond to this message brothers. I know you all care a lot and you guys tried your best to help me get back but still I did that filthy sin. Now only I myself can save me. Don’t respond to this message. I’ll come back. I’LL GIVE EVERY BLOOD IN MY VEINS, EVERY OUNCE IN MY POWER TO COME BACK. This is not my promise to anyone in this forum. This is my promise only to myself.
Now, there is nothing in my brain. Where is my creativity? Where is my imagination and focus?
There is only ■■■■ inside it! I did created a smoking addiction when I was in university. I used to smoke everyday. But I easily conquered it after coming back home. But this addiction has been there with me like a deamon! I actually created this addiction (or made it very strong) during my +2 board exam in which my stress was very high. I used to study till 3 am in the morning and then will take my mother’s phone and will watch this filth till the morning!
I didn’t even had a phone at that time. The occasions in which I used to watch ■■■■ was rare, once in a week etc.
Now Iam thinking about the childhood of mine which are very beautiful. There was no smart phone, no tube sites (static ■■■■ was there) no objectifying women. I was happy everyday. I’ll wake up at 10 in the morning and will directly run to the backyard to play cricket with my friends. I was the best player in my neighborhood. In everything I was the best- cricket, football, badminton, chess, singing even gaming. I hated to be among second class. There was this natural fire inside my veins to reach the top. In class I was the most famous kid, everyone loved me. I was the favourite kid of the principal of my school. Everything in my life was positive but this PMO poison was slowly growing within me. I never thought this would become such a serious addiction like this. If I had known atleast one scientific fact about this dangerous thing I would never have done it.
But Iam 100% sure anything is possible in life. There will be bad times in anyone’s life. I want to reconnect with myself and should grow strong again like when I was young. Doing this filthy sin showered the poison of cowardice into my heart.
I know how it feels to be free!
I know how beautiful life is without this shit!
I’ve experienced heaven in my 100+ days streak but still WHY, WHY IAM I GOING BACK AGAIN!!!
Because now I don’t want it BAD ENOUGH. Now Iam making all those excuses telling myself that let September come and we’ll start fresh or one more time is ok etc!
How will I make my desire to be sober as bad as I WOULD CHOOSE DEATH INSTEAD OF IT?
What should I do now?
Discipline + Meditation + exercise etc are a must.
Focusing on my goals and I should shift my working place from the 1st floor to the ground floor where everyone is present.
I must practice mindfulness when urges hit like I used to do before. I shouldn’t fight back when the monster inside my brain starts crying for dopamine. I’ll stay calm and will take deep breaths. I should be ready for it. There is no other way. I think Brother @anon14496424 the Easypeacy way are all fake! There is no easy way out of this. Real struggle and hard work and walking through the pain can only take us to the other side.
Daily reminding myself about the painful consequences PMO brings. For that I should read my bookmarked posts in this app and also should check out the messages in the message section.
DO OR DIE ATTITUDE. I MUST GET INTO MY OLD DO OR DIE ATTITUDE TO GET OUT OF THIS ADDICTION ONCE AND FOR ALL. Yes, this is a do or die situation for me. If I don’t change now there is no use in my survival. I look at all those great writers, novelists and filmmakers. Sityajit Ray used to work 12+ hours everyday, going to sleep at 2 am. Tagore had no other thought but to do his Karma. Khalil Gibran took 8-10 years to complete his smallest l book and also the greatest peace of poetry the world has ever seen ‘Prophet’ and William Faulkner used to wake up every single day 4 and work hard to complete most of his novels which is considered by humanity as the greatest. And here Iam, what Iam I doing? Sitting at terrace and fapping to ■■■■ like a filthy pig? Watching some girl being used (without her consent and raped and fapping to it? And loose my entire life force leading to 0 energy, self respect, and reaching a stage in which not even being able to face parents? Is this how you become one of the greatest writer in this world?
Along with DO OR DIE ATTITUDE I should also read PMO addiction recovery books to educate myself about it and the ways to avoid falling back.
Consistently completing my daily routine without failing a single day. This in itself can take me into great lengths but still why, why?!!!
This is it!!
THIS TIME NO GOING BACK. IAM READY TO TAKE ANY AMOUNT OF PAIN THIS TIME! IF I FAIL THIS TIME MY LIFE IS OVER!
IF I FAIL THIS TIME I WON’T EVER COME BACK TO THIS FORUM!
IF I FAIL.THIS TIME I’LL THROW AND BREAK MY PHONE AND WILL CONFESS ABOUT THIS FILTHY ADDICTION TO MY PARENTS.
REMEMBER MY BRAIN I’LL SURELY CONFESS ABOUT IT. You don’t have any other choice this time. If you give up I’ll surely tell your parents and they’ll decide what to do now. If you can’t help or save yourself you should seek it. Like @TheFinalFrontier did I’ll make myself Remember it everyday by writing about it here. Everyday I’ll write and tell myself about it. If I give up this time I’ll throw and break this phone, then confess about this filthy addiction and the disgusting videos I’ve watched to my parents. I tell them about the incest videos I’ve watched and enjoyed and how I masturbated to it. I’ll tell them I’ve been cheating them for years by telling that I was studying whereas I was fapping to ■■■■. I’ll tell them how I watched all those brutal, hardcore ■■■■ videos in my parent’s phone and fapped to it.
I’LL TELL EVERYTHING IF I GIVE UP AGAIN! THEY CAN KILL ME. THAT IS BETTER THAN LIVING LIKE THIS BY NOT ACHIEVING MY GOALS!!!
I DON’T CARE ABOUT THE CONSEQUENCE. I’LL MAKE MYSELF REMEMBER ABOUT IT EVERYDAY BY COMING HERE. I’LL DO WHAT THEFINALFRONTIER DID. I’LL SURELY DO IT!!!
EITHER THIS FILTHY SIN WILL END NOW, OR I’LL END!!!
There is no option of ending yourself, this addiction will end and you know how it will end. You have crossed 100+ mark. You know what it takes to kill this addiction.
Let me ask you… I think you really want to fap. I genuinely feel, otherwise why else would you repeat it. ?
It is not like you do not know how to overcome this addiction… But, still you are repeating it. Why???..
Guys I need help and friends as I have every less friends and I feel lonely some times. but I want to stay strong and leave my dirty past behind wish me luck guys.
This time I’ll be using the legendary finalfrontier method to conquer PMO addiction.
This is the final battle for my life!
If I fail this time I’ll throw and break this phone then I’ll confess about this filthy addiction that I have to my parents. I’ll tell them about all the disgusting videos that I watched. I’ll also sent an audio recording to my family whatssapp group!
If I don’t conquer this addiction now everything will end. I won’t ever come back to this forum again.
If I give up again everything is over!!!
I hate porn! It is disgusting. It is worst thing humanity has found ever!!!
It can destroy human life. Girls and women are being raped and choked to death for a 5 second pleasure. I’ll give everything I’ve got- every ounce of my power and blood in my vein to go forward this time!!!
I don’t care which technique or method I follow, I CANNOT FAP AGAIN!!!
IF I FAP, MY LIFE IS OVER!!!
I’ll come to this forum multiple times a day and will remind me this everyday.
Thanks to @TheFinalFrontier for finding this method for conquering PMO addiction once and for all.
@Tagore plzz keep suicidal thoughts away bro. First of all you will surpass these thoughts these are just phases of life. But if you act on the thoughts it’s still your loss and your family’s. Porn destroyed all of our lives but suicide is never an option bro… You may remember you said this to me the day i congratulated for 100th day
**We are together in this. No matter what we’ll succeed.
Porn is poison bro. Finally nowadays I feel totally in control of my life.
Keep going. Together anything is possible. **
U know @Tagore I used to say the same things abt confessing, promises… similar stuff but at the end of the day I relapsed and broke all my promises,I didn’t confess and I went on like this for a while making promises, saying I will do things if I relpase and smillar stuff but after going like this for a while I started losing faith in my own words because If I say smth like ‘this is going to be the last time I am going to relpase I promise to God, death or nofap’ and then after days has passed my brain would come up and say ’ didn’t u say smth like this before and relapsed ,why do u think this time it is going to be different’ then eventually after that thought was in my head I start doubting myself and eventually relapse. What I am trying to say is without knowing it I was in cycle where after every relapse I would give a great speech and motivate my self by saying this time I am going to stop for good and smillar things and then the doubting comes in after a while because of my past failed promise then eventual relapse. And the more I failled the bigger the cycle got and harder it was to break it because there was always doubt in my words via failures. I failed enough number of times to realise the thing that I was doing was very wrong to a point where I realized the truth, the truth was I realized i was in a cycle I wanted PMO out of my life so so badly that I was so desperate to get it out of my life as quickly as possibly so I would say the motivating things and then its done, in my mind PMO is gone that would give a me peace until the next phase of the cycle kicks in so I realized saying all of those things didn’t do me any good, it just put on too much pressure on me and give PMO a bigger power on my life that it acctually has and I was naive , those kinds of things wasted my time that wounld be using to really know why I was relapsing. The thing I am trying to say is Tagoure brother we both know that even if u relapse now or tomorrow the next thing ur going to do is try to get back and fighting again, that is a fact. That is why I completely agree with brother @babi because u have passed without PMO so many days, u know how to conquer this addiction but at the end of the day we say that porn is the enemie but we chose to go back to it, so think abt it why can’t u move on and let go of this thing , there must be smth deep to why ur coming back
what are you doing man. Brother I think change some strategy. How you achieved 112 days.use this formula .are you doing meditation properly??? Cold shower??
whatever the situation don’t worry. Iam with you .
Change some strategy brother.it will help you .
Otherwise make a topic 9hrs battle with tagore vs tiger.your mind will try to achieve the goal.it may help you.
Brothers, I know you guys care about me a lot. Thanks for these valuable advice. I too care about you people a lot. We’ll all conquer this addiction now itself. But currently Iam in a situation in which I HAVE NO OTHER OPTION BUT CONQUER THIS ADDICTION!
I DON’T CARE ABOUT WITHDRAWALS, LONELINESS, PAIN OR ANYTHING. My area is in lockdown so lonliness is affecting me a lot.
But if I don’t change now it will lead me into some serious situations. And about suicidal thoughts brother @babi and @Prox I’ll never do those kind of blunders. I strongly believe suicide is one of the greatest sin in life. I will never do that. By 'do or die I mean, for me not being able to achieve my goal is death. I cannot live by doing a normal government job. I CAN NEVER IMAGE MYSELF AS SOMEONE ELSE BUT A WRITER. For creativity sexual energy is very important. I believe Sexual force is creative force. Now after relapsing multiple time I almost went back to my old self which is very scary.
But now there is no going back. I have only one choice now, GO FORWARD!! LEAVE PORN FOREVER. I CAN NEVER LOOK BACK AGAIN.
Brother @Angelo34 yes, this swearing and promises have never worked but now Iam not promising brother. I’ll take serious action if I relapse this time. This is the turning point in my life, if I don’t change now I’ll enter a life that is forever average. @_TIGER I know man Iam fucked up and weak now. But this time everything is different. I don’t want to promise anything to you and dissapoint myself and you at the same time. Thanks for keeping faith in me. I promise I’ll not let that down this time brother.
Yaa brother…
That’s called a fighting spirit…
Love you, for this dedication and clearity in mind… There is a feeling in your words that I WILL FUCKING WILL ACHIEVE THIS.
Now I came here to remind myself one things. This is the turning point in my life. If I do PMO again and waste my life along with distroying my brain I will tell everything to my parents.
I’LL TELL THEM ABOUT THE DISGUSTING VIDEOS I WATCHED. I’LL TELL THEM HOW MUCH TIME WASTED ON IT. I’LL TELL THEM THIS WAS THE REASON WHY I COULDN’T ACHIEVE MOST OF THE GOALS I’VE SET TILL NOW.
I’LL GO TO A THERAPIST IF NEEDED. I CANNOT TOLERATE THIS ANYMORE.
I’LL ALSO SEND AN AUDIO AND TEXT MESSAGE TO MY FAMILY GROUP, FRIENDS GROUP AND COLLEGE GROUP CONFESSING ABOUT THIS SINFUL ADDICTION I HAVE.
This is my last fight. This time no child’s play!! No more excuses!!! Whatever the pain I have to suffer i’ll go through it. I’ll go through any amount of pain. Iam ready for it now. If God has given me the ability to get addicted to this SUPRANORMAL stimulation of porn he also has given me the ability to completely break free from it. I understand porn is a drug. I understand this is exactly like poison and very dangerous. Girl and women who are the mother’s and sister’s of someone like us are being raped and killed everyday for this. By this I mean what, 5 SECONDS PLEASURE FOR US TO MASTURBATE?
Is that what life is all about??
Does everyone who watch porn know the meaning of the word PORNOGRAPHY?
PORNO means PROSTITUTION.
GRAPHIA means RECORDED VIDEO
So pornography is videos of some girls who are used as prostitutes inspite or their will and distributed to us. Think about this @Tagore in a brothel while someone is doing prostitution you are looking at them and masturbating. How disgusting is that?? That is the same thing you are doing when you PMO. YOU ARE WATCHING SOME GIRLS BEING EXPLOITED AND RAPED AND MASTURBATING TO IT. YOU KNOW THAT IS THE WORST AND DISGUSTING THING ANY MAN CAN DO. HOW CAN YOU ENJOY IT???
HOW DISGUSTING IS THAT???
I’LL NEVER GO BACK TO THAT FILTHY SIN!!!
ITS OVER IN MY LIFE.
IF I DO THAT AGAIN I’LL REPORT EVERYTHING TO MY PARENTS. I’LL CONFESS ABOUT THIS FUCKED UP ADDICTION TO EVERYONE I KNOW, SO THAT ATLEAST SOMEONE THEY KNOW WOULD NOT GET ADDICTED TO THIS FILTHY SIN!!
I’LL SEND AN AUDIO + TEXT MESSAGE TO MY FAMILY GROUP, COLLEGE GROUP, FRIENDS, EVERYWHERE AND WILL SHAME MYSELF IF I DO IT AGAIN!!!
I’LL UPLOAD ITS SCREENSHOT HERE TOO
I KNOW MAYBE IAM INSANE BUT SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO TAKE SOME INSANE STEPS TO GET RESULTS!!!
Yes brother @ssuman this time Iam very serious. Iam ready to give up everything I’ve got to get my life back. You also have that attitude within you. Everyone of us have it. But most of us take it out only when we touch rock bottom. Currently, I touched rock bottom in my life. I cannot look back now. If I do it again i’ll take serious actions. I have no other way.
Brother @Tagore I really really want to win, u know most of us in here are trying the best we can,pouring our hearts out ,suffering to quit this shit while others don’t even bother to fight instead being a slave for life. We deserve respect, everyone of us because we are here we are making an effort, we didn’t get addicted by choice but we fight to quit by choice, I will tell u one thing, that requires character and we have it. Maybe we lost a lot things, maybe we seem like losers to the outside world but we are not losers ,we are fighters who are willing to do whatever it takes to win. I just wanted to share my experience with u but if u think this is the right way then I am with u, maybe everyone of us take different paths but our destination is the same. I wish good luck
You are really a gem Brother. You were always there with me from the beginning of this journey. Your faith means a lot to me and i promise I’ll always be there with you. This time I have no other option, I cannot ever look by going back to that shit.
This time Iam 100% sure everyone of us, all our companions including you and me will get out of this once and for all. We’ll never go back to it. We don’t deserve to be in that loop suffering everyday. We are much much better and greater.
Thanks brother @strongwillpower for the valuable insights. Yes this time Iam dead serious.
Didn’t complete any tasks today, tomorrow onwards real fight begins
FINAL BATTLE TO SAVE MY LIFE (DAY 1)
Wake up (9 am) Meditation Affirmation Visualization Exercise Shavasan Vajrasana after each food Reading (YBOP) Journal Gratitude exercise Pray + Bhagavad-Gita + Gitanjali Mindful eating No TV No YouTube Sleep before 11 Work
I want to remind myself about pain, poison and dangers porn beings to our life. Firstly let me tell something to you @Tagore, if you continue this habit for atleast 6 more months you’ll get ED. Iam telling you, already Iam feeling its coming your way. You have no way to continue that habit, above all it gives you nothing but takes away everything from you. This September is the turning point in life. If I relpase again
I’LL REPORT EVERYTHING TO MY PARENTS: ABOUT THIS FILTHY ADDICTION I HAVE, ABOUT THE DISGUSTING, INCEST, HARDCORE, WORST VIDEOS I WATCHED IN THOSE TUBE SITES.
I’LL ALSO SEND AN AUDIO + VIDEO MESSAGE TO FAMILY GROUP, COLLEGE GROUP, TOUR GROUP, EVERYWHERE AND WILL UPLOAD THE SCREEN SHOT OF IT HERE. I CAN NEVER GO BACK AGAIN.
I have had enough with PMO. If I relapse once again, that will lead me to become addicted to this addiction life long and also into a condition in which I’ll have 0 motivation, energy, focus or power. I’ll waste my entire life if I relapse once more. I have no way going back!!! THIS IS THE FIGHT FOR MY LIFE. YES YOU CAN!!!
** WE ALL CAN!!!** BUT 100% COMMITMENT IS NEEDED. NOTHING LESS CAN LEAD TO SUCCESS IN NOFAP BECAUSE THIS IS ONE OF THE HARDEST BATTLE WE’LL EVER FACE IN LIFE!!! 100% COMMITMENT WAS THE MAIN REASON I ACHIEVED 100+ STREAKS LAST TIME. AS BROTHER @babi SAID, I KNOW HOW TO DO IT. THIS TIME I’LL GIVE 1000% COMMITMENT AND WILL REACH 1000+ STREAK. I HAVE NO OTHER OPTION. BROTHER @anon72572146 I HAVE NO OTHER OPTION. I PROMISE THIS FIGHT IS FOR LIFE. I’LL NEVER LOOK BACK. I CANNOT!!! IF I DO THAT SIN AGAIN I’LL SURELY TAKE SERIOUS ACTION I CANNOT TOLERATE THIS ANYMORE IN MY LIFE.
) … even as sahas told about problems he faced after it…it shows that… our body is not made for it.
Wake up (9 am)
Reading (YBOP)