[ 16m] 𝘽𝙤𝙙𝙮, 𝙎𝙤𝙪𝙡 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙋𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧 𝙐𝙣𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙝𝙚𝙙 - 𝙏𝙚𝙣𝙠𝙚𝙧𝙧𝙤𝙩'𝙨 𝙒𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙝🔥⚡

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 5, 2022, 7:19pm

5 February 2022

Happy saraswati puja guys. Last day i relapsed twice. Haven’t relapsed today. Woke up at 8:30 am,my parents were scolding me,and as i applied hair mask they became super angry and after 30 minutes i washed it off at 11 am (late×100). I was doing pooja, with my family, almost whole day and ate food at 4pm . Feeling good and sleepy. And my school will reopen on 7 February .

Tomorrow goals:-
wake up before 7:45 am
have breakfast before 9:40 am
workout
No yt and other social media (only yt downloads and study related stuff and rc)
No Junk foods (including sugar)
Evening stretching (5x Surya namaskar)
Study 4 hours
Finish 3 chapters
Sleep before 11:25 pm.

Thanks god

Hail hydra

That’s all, thank you and have a sweet dream.

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 5, 2022, 7:20pm

Song of the day

Strong_one · February 6, 2022, 3:40am

Lit…
(20 char)

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 6, 2022, 10:57am

Happy birthday @TheBigSP bhai . May god bless you with prosperity and happiness.

TheBigSP · February 6, 2022, 5:13pm

@Sholt_Tenkerrot Thank you so much brother

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 6, 2022, 6:48pm

6 February 2022

Relapsed thrice ,once at midnight then at 4 pm then at 8 pm. Woke up at 9:30 am.Not a good day. And yeah my school is not going to reopen tomorrow, they all are scheduling new timing, ig. I want to hang out with others in other threads badly, but i can’t . Thanks to my habits.

wake up before 7:45 am
have breakfast before 9:40 am
workout (i banged my pelvic area ,500+ strokes)
No yt and other social media (only yt downloads and study related stuff and rc)
No Junk foods (including sugar)
Evening stretching (5x Surya namaskar)
Study 4 hours
Finish 3 chapters
Sleep before 11:25 pm.

Tomorrow goals:-
wake up before 7:45 am
have breakfast before 9:40 am
workout
No yt and other social media (only yt downloads and study related stuff and rc)
No Junk foods (including sugar)
Evening stretching (5x Surya namaskar)
Study 4 hours
Finish 3 chapters
Sleep before 11:25 pm.

Thanks god

Hail hydra

That’s all, thank you and have a sweet dream.

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 6, 2022, 6:51pm

Song of the day :-

ERNOL · February 8, 2022, 2:05pm

You’re gonna say hail hydra and expect me to have a sweet dream like that?

anon64122840 · February 8, 2022, 2:08pm

Is that a terminator in your profile pic?

ERNOL · February 8, 2022, 5:16pm

Ah yes it is. I like how it looks unyielding

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 8, 2022, 6:44pm

8 February 2022

Relapsed yesterday twice(midnight and after bathing) and today thrice(at evening) ,i kept on rubbing my little thunder guy even after ejaculation and 15 minutes later i relapsed again (hidden ability) . Did workout and studied for 45 minutes. That’s it.

Tomorrow goals:-
wake up before 7:45 am
have breakfast before 9:40 am
workout
No yt and other social media (only yt downloads and study related stuff and rc)
No Junk foods (including sugar)
Evening stretching (5x Surya namaskar)
Study 4 hours
Finish 3 chapters
Sleep before 11:25 pm.

Thanks god

Hail hydra

That’s all, thank you and have a sweet dream.

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 8, 2022, 6:51pm

Song of the day:-

anon87955785 · February 9, 2022, 10:32am

Literally every song from Shang chi is lit. Personally my favourite is " Run it " by DJ Snake. Its BGM is used as the bus fight scene.

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 12, 2022, 6:09pm

12 February 2022

I relapsed thrice on 9 feb , thrice on 10 feb, 4 times on 11 feb and 5 times today . So, 15 relapses since last 4 days. I kept on rubbing even after ejaculation, so that i can ejaculated again. After relapsing fifth time, i was feeling like vomiting. I fapped for 41 days with almost no gaps,i fapped regularly 3 times on an average, since 3 january 2022 and i made a record today (record of fapping 5 times in a day)Studied nothing. No workouts only wrist and pipe exercises. I am having dark circles. And i deleted discord 3 or 4 days ago, i will download it in march after completing my syllabus.

Enough now, i will get out of this now,fuck you mofo PMO bitch , ab PMO ki maa ko chudi pehnane ka waqt aa gya hai. Time to come back on track.

Drawn this on my wall, actually i drawn many things on the wall using eraser but i can’t upload here because of that 1 mb rule. I feel nostalgic after seeing this, and i will look at it whenever i will get an urge and will focus on a point on the wall without blinking my eyes for 5 minutes, and i will wash my face and eyes after that ,my mind got better idea(at least better than tying thread and rubbers around my denis) .

Last fapped on 13 February 2022 at 2 am.

Enough of this fucking shit.

Tomorrow goals:-
wake up before 7:45 am
have breakfast before 9:40 am
workout
No yt and other social media (only yt downloads and study related stuff and rc)
No Junk foods (including sugar)
Evening stretching (5x Surya namaskar)
Study 4 hours
Finish 3 chapters
Sleep before 11:25 pm.

It’s Hero time

Thanks god

Hail hydra

That’s all, thank you and have an amazing life.

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 12, 2022, 6:18pm

Song of the day:-

Listen to the whole song and feel it .

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 14, 2022, 5:33pm

14 February 2022

Relapsed thrice (midnight and 2 times in a row at evening) and relapsed yesterday once at midnight. No worries , i made mistakes, iwon’t repeat them again . After the relapses, i was feeling damn sleepy, it was like ,my energy was draining and after taking a 30 minutes nap i was feeling energetic again. Well today a girl was staring me and smiling while i was in the salon (yup, i had a haircut today) , tbh i was feeling good that time . From tomorrow i will strat working out again. I have studied 0 hours today , i will try to study for 30 minutes and will sleep at 11:40 pm.

Tomorrow goals:-
wake up before 7:45 am
have breakfast before 9:40 am
workout
No yt and other social media (only yt downloads and study related stuff and rc)
No Junk foods (including sugar)
Evening stretching (5x Surya namaskar)
Study 4 hours
Finish 3 chapters
Sleep before 11:25 pm.
Update diary

It’s Hero time

Thanks god

Hail hydra

That’s all, thank you and have an amazing life.

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 14, 2022, 5:38pm

Song of the day:-

Thanks @anon87955785 bhai . I thought that i would post that one day, but i forgot about that.

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 15, 2022, 5:10pm

15 February 2022

Woke up at 7:30 and i was on my bed for an hour after waking up . My father was scolding me cause i don’t go to school (i hate schools , tbh). So i will start going to school from 21st february, and i will try to cover my syllabus ,as much as possible. And relapsed today twice . Well studied for an hour and going to study till 11:35. Well i was looking for smartwarches on yt.

wake up before 7:45 am
have breakfast before 9:40 am
workout
No yt and other social media (only yt downloads and study related stuff and rc)
No Junk foods (including sugar)
Evening stretching (5x Surya namaskar)
Study 4 hours
Finish 3 chapters
Sleep before 11:25 pm.
Update diary

Tomorrow goals:-
wake up before 7:45 am
have breakfast before 10 am
workout
No yt and other social media (only yt downloads and study related stuff and rc)
No Junk foods (including sugar)
Evening stretching (4x Surya namaskar)
Study 3.5 hours
Finish 3 chapters
Sleep before 11:25 pm.
Update diary

It’s Hero time

Thanks god

Hail hydra

That’s all, thank you and have an amazing life.

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 15, 2022, 5:14pm

Song of the day :-

Mathaphod

Sholt_Tenkerrot · February 19, 2022, 5:11pm

19 February 2022

Yesterday i.e., 18 feb was one of the saddest for me and my family. He was ill for 2-3 days and yesterday he was vomiting , his stomach was paining and he fainted,we were looking for driver ,which wasted our 15 minutes. As soon as one of my brother came ,I took him in my arms , my uncle & my brother also helped me, we were rushing towards the car . And after my grandfather, grandmother and uncle reached the hospital, we came to know that we lost him. I lost my grandfater , dadaji. And after hearing the doctor’s statement, we came to know that he might took his last breath in my arms . He had an accident 7-8 years ago, and almost 4 years ago , a moron dog bit him, he was a fighter , but yesterday , he left us. He was a magician ,whenever i used to lose my stuffs in childhood, within 30 minutes used to find that stuff. Well i still remember, when he wasn’t able to find my toy, i became very angry and he tried to uplift my mood, he talked to me in short mujhe manaane aate the . He used to teach me counting numbers, alphabets (hindi and english), because i spent most of my time with him and no one was able to handle me except him, because of him i learnt the basics, and came on the top of my class till class 1 , then after i skipped class 2 and jumped to class 3 . He used to drop me to the school with my dadi mummy(grandma) and even in class 8 (after that lockdown) he used to come with her to drop me to the bus, and whenever i used to get late, they both managed to stop the bus until i got on the bus. He used to take me in his lap and i always slept beside him (jab bhi main maa ke room me so jata tha toh jaise hi meri aankh khulti aur main dada ji ke pass jake so jata tha) , but after he had an accident i used to sleep alone , because i used to throw my hands and legs, so that i can’t hurt him more i tried to sleep alone, but after sometime i started to sleep with him again, but then i again started to sleep alone, id remember why. But whenever i felt thirsty during midnight he used to get out of the bed and give me a glass of water , once i asked, why you don’t let me get water myself and he replied “jab bade hojaiyega tab aap humko de dijiyegaa”. But after i got into pmo stuff i spent most of my time in bathroom and all, instead of spending time with him. I cry after remembering his cute gesture while asking for water, i feel like he is saying that " Beta tv on kr dijiye" Or " Channel change kr dijye, kuch aur acha lagaiye" . I wish I had given him time instead of PMO . But unlike others he always offered me to watch tv first , like he used to said " Aapko jo dekhna hai dekhiye ", and few days ago i was lying beside him and we both were watching pokemon together .

I lost my first mentor, first friend, first love, my dada ji. I can’t stop crying, it feels like he will come to my room like before , it’s hard to accept that he is no more. I saw his body lying on the bed of woods and then his body turned into ash , in front of my eyes . While doing the rituals i promised him, that i will never ever do PMO, i will improve and will get good marks , i will be successful. While he was wrapped in the flames, i was looking at the sky and smiling, i thought that i have overcame the grief, but no , his memories start to come in my mind ,again and again and i can’t stop my tears, i tried my best to hold my tears in front of my family members, but the tears came out of my eyes after i saw his clothes lying on his bed . It was like he was sleeping and everyone was waiting for him to wake up.

My whole family is in sorrow , my grandmother stopped crying after 24 hours, her eyes are swollen. My both sisters eyes are red and my father is still hiding his sadness inside him.

My grandfather wanted me to be a topper, i will try my best. So to keep my promise i studied for almost 3 hours today, i also cried while studying. Many people are coming, but my pre boards are from 28th feb, my family told me to study and said “jab kaam pdega toh bula lenge”. Well there’s a hindi quote Waqt rehte sudhar jaao, nhi toh waqt tumhe sudharne laga toh tumhe taqleef hogi". . I can’t express my grief anymore. And i did MO yesterday at 2 am , mujhe waisa nhi krna chahiye tha. So i might be unable to update my diary, but if i will get time i will update it. I love you so much and i will miss you a lot dada ji.

I love you so much dada ji and i miss you a lot. May your soul rest in peace.

I will improve for you and will never do pmo. I will keep the promises.