Woke up at 9:30 am ,and last night, i relapsed again and also relapsed today at 4:30 pm(roz ka dhandha ho gya hai apna toh) so k can say 3 days 6 relapses. Wasted my day. I was feeling lethargic whole day. And watched hot pics on ig and relapsed . I am want to improve, buy i am the one who is stopping myself from improving . I am at my worst. Last time this happened with me in November, i almost quitted nofap cause i relapsed 14 times within 7 days, but alan bro, prothekter aden, armaan, purity 11 ,ash matt and samaranjay bhai, helped me a lot, they all motivated me and i started nofap again. But now, I am relapsing again and again since 3rd january and i hardly abstained from PMO for 3 days in these 16 days, i am not going to quit no fap . And itโs heartbreaking for me to see all this. Itโs becoming my habit to fap regularly and i canโt stop myself.
My mistakes:-
Played games(pokemon) on discord whole day.
Havenโt tried to study.
Woke up at 8 am and i was cuddling with my pillow and scrolling yt for 1 hour . I edged and watched super erotic content, i was about to release but i was locked inside the room for more than 25 minutes and my mom was scolding me, so i stopped . And i did workout after a long time, i jumped for 30 minutes and was trying to touch the fan (which is 9 feets above the floor) . Studied for 30 minutes . Will try do better tomorrow and i will finish my syllabus before 5 February. Going to sleep now.
Wake up before 7:30am
Workout
Study 4 hours
Finish 3 chapters
No social media before breakfast
Sleep before 11 pm
Tomorrow goals:-
Wake up before 7:30am
Workout
Study 6 hours
Finish 4 chapters
No social media before breakfast
Sleep before 11:15 pm .
Woke up at 8 am, but i wasted my three hours hours because i was using phone. I deleted discord, as i played pokemon there. And i will schedule 3 detox for tomorrow, so that i canโt waste my time . And yeah i will hit 2 days streak after 19 days . I have to get a haircut tomorrow , after 1 month (i usually get a haircut every 21 days), so i am going to sleep now. Not that good day at all, watched yt and my average screen time is 9 hours . Tomorrow i will use phone just for studies and watch 1 episode of โTransformers primeโ after every 2 hours study session. One more thing it happened 2 -3 days ago , my parents were scolding me cause i took cold shower and the temperature was about 8-10ยฐ C, they knew this because the geyser was off, and i really donโt care about that, i would have said i have a streak of 2 years, of taking cold showers regularly , but in December i started to take hot sshowers for 3 days, after that i only used hot water to open pores while applying soap, just like before.
Tomorrow goals:-
Wake up before 7:30am
Workout
Study 6 hours
Finish 4 chapters
No social media before breakfast
Sleep before 11:20 pm .