Day 13
Sun, 31 Mar
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Suffering is inevitable. I almost relapsed because something really depressive happened in my family these days and it’s making me have urges anyway I can’t take a cheap escape like pmo i have to face what i hate. This is the only way to grow and change. I’ll continue these 10 days no matter what…
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I’m sorry about your bad news brother. Stay strong man.
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Tue, 2 Apr
Relapsed … this time i pushed over 12 days which was really an impossible number before, but still some are reaching hundreds of days. Anyway, more than one here is talking about Easy Peasy book. I’ll start reading it maybe it’ll give me some new insight.
Day 0 again
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Day 2
Sat, 6 Apr
I struggled a bit after the relapse and i reset two times, but now i seem to get it together. Hope I’ll do better from now on. For the book, i reached chapter 4 and i feel it’ll be a good one.
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Day 3 ~
7 Apr
Umm, trying to maintain my motivation.
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How are you doing now brother?
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@Forerunner I’m trying April’s challenge because I’m not feeling motivated alone these days, and so far it’s helping. It’s my second day without even feeling like thinking about pmo. I want to go past 10 days and keep making a progress otherwise I’ll be stuck. Thanks for asking bro. Wishing you the best. 
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Good to hear that you’re making a comeback bro, keep going 
You definitely can 
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@Forerunner thanks man, i appreciate your encouragement and will do my best💪
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I need to vent out… Okay so things have been going badly since yesterday. I got caught in a binge, But I’ve had it. I think my outmost trigger is actually the very thing i use to search P, my phone! I’m really addicted to it. I waste most of my free time on YouTube surfing random crap like vlogs, skits, shows etc. And whenever i try to manage my time on my phone i end up tempted to just lay down and get sucked into social media observing strangers’ daily activities, families and lives instead of focusing on my own life and building a promising future for myself. Even sometimes when im reading a book i cut my reading half way to check espcially YouTube. I decided from today on I’ll threw my phone away. I’ll keep it for important calls and that’s it. Cause If i only use it to waste my time then i may not use it at all. I don’t have many who ask about me so i won’t be ignoring anyone. Now this way, hopefully, I’ll not waste my free time since i have already lots of stuff to do during, also my phone is the only source for P because my laptop isn’t for personal use. I bought it for work. I hope this method work for me because we gotta keep looking for whatever clicks with us in tackling this disaster called pmo. I swear since yesterday it’s like i became a maniac i just kept fapping and thinking sexually. This shit is crazy it takes over your mind and body so HELL NO FUCK IT. I’ll do whatever to stop myself from destroying myself. It’s sad but we have to keep trying there’s no other option.
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Wish I was still in position to throw my phone away. But at this point I need to be online for both my work and education all the time. Including socnet to share information. So, I say you do a right thing by ceasing the opportunity to quit using your phone for entertainment. I’m genuinely interested in your journey. Keep going, stay clean.