Day 10 21.10.2020
Morning :
Wohoooo. It’s Day 10. Had a Sexual dream Yesterday Night. Wont go into Details. But my brain apparently wants me to cum now. Luckily there was no wet dream. But I hate PMO. I absolutely hate hate hate the idea of PMO. It disgusts me. Masturbation ruins Life. I need to stop focussing on sex And Work on making myself better. Need to be more charismatic. I am already Not Bad. But now whatever I do I will aim to be the best at it. So I want to improve every single day. Yes, Always trying to be better than I was yesterday. I hate PMO. And would never masturbate. Rather would love to have Sex with a woman. But to be honest. I don’t Care that much. My goal is not to have Sex. In my Last streak I Had too much Energy. But I was needy for women. Which is Why I didnt Get laid. I Had to lose my virginity through a whore. But this time I want to reach a Level where women find me attractive and pursue me instead.
But anyway the important Point is Just that I will Not fap today either (SURPRISE !! ) If I even think of r lapsing I will kill myself by Posting my real Picture Here And reveal my addiction on LinkedIn. It IS super importwnt to me. It will Ruin my Life If I do so. I will die If I relapse. I will literally die.
But No, I wont because there are people Looking Up to me. And I must be the best Version of myself. Some might argue Why the fuck do I want to be the greatest. Just being good enough and getting rid of the addiction is enough right. WRONG. Every time I lose that sense of urgency I let myself relax a bit But the mind keeps kicking Back. It forces me to relapse rationalizing that its okay to have some fun. This is NOT FUN !! THIS IS POISON. FAPPING IS POISON. I HATE FAPPING. IT RUINED MY LIFE. I Wish that instead of fapping I worked on my social skills, Body And career at a Young age man. I feel sorry for Wasting my Life Till now.
But hey, It’s ok. I am now gonna make the most of whatever I am left with. And i don’t want to Get stuck with PMOing my while Life. Dude think about it. There are a Lot of directions my Life could Go of course. But lnly Bad Things could happen If I do not quit it entirely now. The idea of relapse should Not even enter my mind. I feel like Rating Shit When I think of Eat. Or throwing Up. If I relapse, I need to understand that I will stay with a limp dick forever, I will Face mood Swings. To be honest I have lost a Lot of hair already. Not Sure If IT IS PMO or my poor Care Routine. If I don’t Get my Shit together my Patents might find a suitable Partner for me sooner or Later And then I will have to stay with a limp dick. And then there will be w divourse. I will be depressed because it would be too late to cure IT then. And maybe die. Or I Just Post my Pic Here then my while Life is Destroyer And I will commit suicide.
Listen Guys I will commit suicide If I ever relapse. If you dont See a Post of me, some Day I am dead.
I am serious. I have to learn to be the master of my Sex Drive And use it do great in this world And realize my fullest Potential.
I HATE PMO. I HATE PMO. I HATE PMO. I HATE PMO. PMO? HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA ITS NOT EVEN AN OPTION FOR ME
Hey guys today was relaxed and chill. It’s okay to relax a bit. But not at the expense of my personal Goals. I did not work out today. I did not learn important things. I did not feel the Sense of urgency to do anything. I wasted time talking to people. I need to be productive. I need to get shit done. My aim in life is to realize my fullest potential. And I need to work Harder for that.
I basically need to be doing things that bring me discomfort. It is important to me. It is one of my core values.
The reason I feel guilty is not because of having a bit of fun. It’s good but I am not focussing kn my purpose. I am avting fucking soft. And thats not cool.
I am a beast and I do difficult things. I have to have to have to Grind like a monster.
The best Part about today was that I did not fap. And thats a Celebration Moment here because I also reached 10 days. And I have reached this Level after a Long Time now. I have been struggling for a while. I am grateful to this Community and also proud of myself for reaching this.
Thanks guys.
To Finish the Ritual. I hate PMO. The Idea of watching porn makes me throw Up. I Love discomfort anf pain that helps me grow. Porn, Masturbation and self induced orgasm only causes pain and disaster. And I hate that.
I hate PMO.
I did not feel that Drive. That Sense of urgency again today. But from Tomorrow I am taking the Biorhythmus challenge. So I will wake Up at 5 am and sleep at 11 pm every single day for 21 days. Napping During the day allowed but only for Maximum of 20 Minutes. The Goal is Just to adapt to a hustling Lifestyle and not waste my life sleeping.
Hi guys. Thanks you for being there. I am grateful to this community. This group has the best people who are trying quit the hardest Thing ever. Some of US have been fapping even 7-10 Times a day. How devastating that must be I can only Imagine. And I cry for ruining my Life because of it (which is true ) but there certainly are people who have it worse than me and are still struggling. To anyone Reading this, we can do this guys. We will be free one day and forever. More Power to everyone.
These days the Idea of having a feminine Partner in my Life has been bothering me a lot. At the Same time I am considering to learn Pick Up to attract women. But it somehow can be demeaning as I might again treat women like Sex objects. And since I have taken this vow of never ever fapping again, Sex would certainly have to have some place in my Life at one Point. I want to approach it in a healthy way and not get hooked on it. Like I did with porn.
The idea of going to a prostitute has also been coming to me which is shittier than PMO. I feel disgusted that I even thought that but it’s my brain wanting that Release and making Shit Up. I wont Go to a whore certainly.
But I am seriously considering the Idea of learning Pickup. But I dont want to get negatively influenced by the ideas because Most of Pickup is about getting laud quicker which I dont buy. But I will certainly learn to become more charismatic and social with women.
.what do you think ? Any Suggestions are Welcome.
By the way, since I did not say it yet it does not mean I dont believe it anymore. I still hate PMO to my core. Still disgusts me. So here we Go. I hate PMO. I hate PMO. I hate PMO. I hate PMO. The thought of it disgusts me and makes me feel like vomiting. Imagine Something eating Shit inside a Futter thats what I think when I think of naked Models online. It disgusts me. I hate it so much…
Good night
Brother @TheFinalFrontier don’t think too much about feminine partners. They’ll come. All we have to do is become the king of our life and the best in our field. Girls will run after you. Go on with your Journey like this.
Remember we are with you. We keep our trust in you. Don’t break it.
BEASTMODE
Damn. My post didn’t get publish in the morning.
So here I am with double hate towards porn and masturbation
You know what is the most disgusting thing in the world ? No it’s not porn. No wrong. It’s not masturbation.
These things are not the worst. What is bad is that you asshole engages in these activities. This is what disgusts me to the core. Even worse is the fact that you get hooked to this shit. And I call it shit not as a slang. I mean it. Would you ever go on the streets and find cow poop and smell it ? That’s what porn it. The worst part is that you guys (me too) took it too far. We were not just smelling cow shit (refers to porn), but tasting it. Not just tasting it making it your breakfast, lunch and dinner. And in fact we fucking hot used to this diet. We started liking this poop. We did. I know you feel like vomiting now. But ask yourself one thing. Why don’t you feel like vomiting when you think of pornography or women being forced to do nasty nasty shit just to feed you because you are hungry. And since you are hungry you eat cow poop three times a day . You are hooked on cow poop. Stop it. The key is to realize that it is cow poop and not chocolate ice cream. I know I sound insane. But think deeply about the bullshit that I am sharing right now. Isn’t the analogy totally clear ? Cow poop can look like chocolate sometimes (sorry guys for ruining chocolate for you ). But it is essentially poop. Shit. Dump. Something coming out of cow’s ass. So is porn. Motherfuckers. So is porn. These sweet sexy looking girls are not what they are shown to be. They are human. And the porn girls are fucked up women. They are tortured. You think they enjoy their lives ? No. Most don’t. Some might. But they ruin your life.
Is this post too creative ? That’s another advantage of Semen Retention. It gives you creativity.
Hate porn. Love yourself. Night.
I hate PMO !! It’s the worst thing ever. And it’s not even an option. Same goes for fapping.
I had a wet dream yesterday night. It’s ok. That’s not in my control. I was angry yesterday. I realised that I have not been exercising and meditating for the last few days. And that’s why I am making it hard for me. Time to get back on track. The truth is meditation and exercise are not just nice to have. They are a necessity. Or my excess energy might effect me negatively. So need to be more disciplined now. My life dependa on it. Bye
I loved this post man. This place is a motivation for everyone. Keep going.
Your creativity has increased. Soon you’ll become a beast with energy and power to achieve anything in this world.
BEASTMODE
I haven’t slept till now. I have Yes I wasted time watching motivational videos. Yes it is a wastage of time. I could have spent that time on my goals. I need to be great. I am starving to be great. I have to make the most of my day. I didn’t today. I need to compromise on my sleep somehow it seems. I am gonna do great. I need some time to manage my time well to be honest. I fucked up my sleep today. But I have Semen. I will use this power to be energetic tomorrow and also get some productive work done. I have to be great in my primary field. I have to be financially free. I have to be physically ripped and I have to be charismatic. Super charismatic.
I think these goals are reasonable. I want to be improving in all areas of my life.
I will never fuck up now. I have wasted enough time in my life. Because of PMO. There are you get people more successful than me. Not that I am envying anyone. I am doing good in life. Not bad at all. But a small question haunts me. "What if ? " What if I didn’t waste time fapping and invested in my personal growth. I have lost that time. I need to make up for that time. I have to follow my dreams. Guys. Love you all for your support.
P.S. : I hate porn and masturbation to the core. These are the worst things ever. I have to have to have to. Be great. My goal is now to be the best version of myself and live each day to the fullest .
That’s it.
That’s my goal : To realize my fullest potential while being fully present each moment. And I will achieve this impossible goal each moment. Every single moment.
Just want to add that my seed is important to me. And my goal is to realize my fullest potential in life. And that means I won’t waste my seed on women. I will reserve it for a woman who deserves me. I value my seed. I value my seed. I value my seed. I respect my seed. I respect myself. I hate porn and masturbation. I hate porn and masturbation.
My seed is valuable to me and is the fuel for me to achieve my fullest potential in life. That is all that matters now. Being my best. Rest all is bullshit to me now.
I am now not going to be shitting around.
Tomorrow may be hard because I haven’t slept yet. Or it may not be. But regardless. I will fucking wake up af 5 am. Enough is enough.
I am declaring to wake up at 5 am every day now for 21 days. I have to.
Very sorry. I didn’t wake up early today. It’s my mistake. The alarm wasn’t set yesterday. So it didn’t ring. I will start tomorrow. And to be honest, I don’t think I should push myself too hard because sleep is important. Ideal is to sleep at 11 pm and wake up at 5 am and take a nap of 20 minutes. Starts from tomorrow. But if I feel like my work is being effected. I would allow myself longer naps during the day. But still for sleeping 11 pm will be the time and for waking up early 5 am !
Wake up early in the morning bro, and do Meditation exercise etc. I woke up at 5 today and feel like a beast now. When people said nofap can make us comfortable with less sleep, I didn’t believe it. But its true. I can sleep for 5 and half hours and jump out the bed, work like a beast!
Sure bro @Saim . When I was deeply into porn I needed 8-9 hours sleep. Now Iam sleeping 5 and a half to 6 hours only.
We have a lot of energy while we are on nofap. We must be awake and do shit to utilise it. We cannot sleep with such a large amount of energy within. Our body won’t allow us
Man. I feel so frustrated and angry all the time now. I am not sure if it is due to work. Work does not have to be interesting every single day. That’s life. But I am getting frustrated a lot. Any ideas ?
@TheFinalFrontier You’re most likely angry all the time because that is all you are thinking about. Reading your diary, I can tell you are unessesarily angry about this addiction. I mean, it’s okay to be angry in moderation. But when it clouds up your every thought, that’s when it becomes a problem. Use meditation as a way to clear your mind from those emotions.
