Hey man thanks. I personally think that the anger is excess energy and I am not pushing myself too much while exercising. That’s the problem.
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Day 14 Evening
I hate PMO. This thing ruins lives. It’s the most most most disgusting thing ever. I really hate it.
I could see how I am not really as calm of a person as I might seem. I was feeling angry and frustrated with minor challenges. The reason for this was pent up energy. Not engaging in creative endeavours thereby blocking my energy. Isn’t the best feeling. I even began thinking negatively about my life. When for instance I just needed to relax a bit and also push myself more while working out so that I don’t feel underutilized.
It’s ok. It was a bad day. And I honestly could have been more mature about handling it. Instead the anger and frustration over powered me. Not good.
My mantra twice daily will now be “I respect and value my semen. And I hate PMO.”
I WILL REPEAT IT IN THE MORNING AND EVENING EVERY DAY. and also share my experiences.
I am adding another feature to my journal :
My four major goals - 1% improvement
Career - Yes. I learnt that I need to be more attentive in my work and need to look for simpler solutions before working like an idiot.
Business - I shared one post on social media. So it’s just another minor contribution today. Just to keep consistency
Fitness - No. I didn’t exercise today. But I ate food. Which means I progressed just a little bit. Need to improve here tomorrow.
Relationships - I did talk to my manager and tried to initiate more conversations at work.
P.S. : These may not be improvements at all. But I like to keep the illusion of improving a little every day. And contributing just a little every day. Today wasn’t a good day. So not enough contribution.
An ideal day would be when my entire energy would be utilized to the fullest and I sleep satisfied. And have made good progress in each areas of my life.
I am now starting to journal more about my goals and purpose here. And less about my hate towards porn.
And yes before I go.
I HATE PORN AND MASTURBATION. I RESPECT AND VALUE MY SEMEN. GOOD NIGHT !!
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Day 15 Morning
How amazing guys 
I am on day 15. Probably I reached here after a long time now. It’s not that big deal I know. And I have been here before. But this one is special because I have been able to do it after a long time. And the reason I was successful is because I took the commitment to never fap and if I did I would post my personal picture here and also share on LinkedIn which will ruin my life. Since I did publically I cannot fap ever in my life. Too much is at risk. A lot of people are dependent on me and looking up to me now. I cannot fap. I will not fap.
I HATE PMO. I HATE PMO. I RESPECT MY SEED. I VALUE MY SEMEN.
My aim is to realize my fullest potential while living fully each moment.
And that can only be achieved if I realize my fullest potential every single day !!!
That means I have to be aware every single moment and be fully immersed in it and enjoy.
Long term goals :
To be the best in the world in my field
To be financially independent
To be the most ripped person ever
To be the most charismatic leader ever
Now these are unachievable dreams I know. But I will give my best to realize my potential.
Small steps I will take today to get closer :
- Solve the problems at work I am stuck in
- Create one post and upload on social media
- Workout atleast 15 minutes
- Smile atleast once when talking to anyone
I feel disconnected from people as well these days. I want to socialize with people.
It does not necessarily have to be women. It is important for me to be social and connect with people.
With this, I will just start the day.
P.S. I HATE PORN. IT IS THE NASTIEST SHIT EVER. I HATE MASTURBATION. IT IS THE WEAKEST THING EVER.
I RESPECT MY SEMEN. I WILL ONLY GIVE IT TO A WOMAN WHO IS DESERVING OF CARRYING MY SEED AND NOT NUST BE SWAYED AWAY BY ANY GIRL’S BEAUTY WHICH IS HOW MY BRAIN HAS BEEN WIRED. I WILL TALK TO BEAUTIFUL WOMEN, MAYBE EVEN FLIRT IF I GET THE CHANCE TO. BUT I WONT GIVE THEM A RELATIONSHIP VWRY EASILY.
BECAUSE MY SEED IS VALUABLE TO ME.
AND NEVER IN MY DREAMS, WILL I THINK OF WASTING MY SEED ON FAPPING ! BYE
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Day 15 Evening !!
15 Days successful. Proud.
Wasn’t easy. Had some unexpected frustration levels. Ups and downs ! Went through it. Proud.
Was only possible because I HATE PORN, MASTUEBATION AND ORGASM ! I HATE PMO. If I ever think of fapping , I would post my real face and reveal myself here on ReWire and so lost ln LinkedIn thereby ruining my professional, and personal life. I would essentially kill myself.
I hate PMO. I really do.
What I also realize within this 15 days is the need to again go out and be adventurous. This urge went away as I let myself be lazy with the fapping
I want to live on the edge.
Any adventurous activities or challenges for suggestions ?
Would be nice to know your recommendations
Comfort zone challenges are welcome
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Day 16 Morning
I basically could not sleep at all last night. But I lay in bed trying to do so. And removed my clothes. I was naked in bed in bed all night and I am still. I do not know why I did that. Perhaps I am not in my right mind and it’s my head making me do things to make me relapse. I am feeling weird basically. I think I need to be doing more things because I feel stagnant in energy.
But hey, I did not FAP. I WILL NOT FAP. BECAUSE I HATE IT. I HARE MASTURBATION. IT IS NOT EVEN AN OPTION. I cannot even entertain this idea of fapping. I hate it so much. I will workout today and meditate and also program a bit. It’s Saturday but I feel like I have too much energy and then maybe I will go out for cycling.
I don’t know. I won’t fap. If I did. I will post my real picture here on Reddit and share it on LinkedIn as well. Basically I will reveal my addiction and my darkest sides publically and that would ruin all my opportunities in personal and professional life and basically I won’t get a partner ever and even if I do I would disappoint her with my limp.dick (flatlining) and since I would be left with nothing I would choose to die.
So basiy PORN/ MASTURBATION OR LIFE ?
I CHOOSE LIFE. I HATE PMO. I VALUE MY SEED. LET’S GET THIS DAY RIGHT WITH MEDITATION FIRST THING. LETS SEE HOW I FIX THE DAY TODAY.
Man, I have been reading your diary everyday. I’m sorry to admit but, yeah, I had been looking up here ,in the hope that you will relapse soon. Cause I thought, you are taking this too seriously that it will backfire.
But man, you proved me wrong. You started the diary 15 days back. Now you have 15 day streak whereas I’m still at 0.
I really don’t like your arrogance. But I admire how seriously you took up the initiative to change your life.
Keep going on. Brother
Always remember you are just one decision away from failure…
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He is on real beast mode bro. I respect him for this attitude. Iam 100% sure this time he’ll have the highest streak in his life. Iam with you man @TheFinalFrontier. We will not stop even after reaching fucking 1000 days streak because we are real beasts. Nothing in this world can stop us !!!
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@masterofemotions asked me about my journey but I thought it might also make sense to post it here.
Hey man. I have been trying to do NoFap for years. it’s hard. You know that. I started when I was at a very low point and I was using it as an escape like everyone else. I couldn’t reach a week. I could quickly search naked models. I desired those fake women too much. This went on for atleast 2-3 years. When I went to my first real job. I decided to quit it forever. I was dumb. I had too much energy but didn’t use it to do anything. I was trying to meditate my way to channely energy. But I became depressed. I needed physical outlet. And didn’t get the chance to do so. My work wasn’t creative. And since I didn’t use any energy it stagnated and I became depressed. And fell back to a series of relapses for the next year again. Which was the worst year of my life as my colleagues were mean tk me. Then I made another transition to pursue higher education and I was so disappointed with myself that I just out of anger pushed myself out of my comfort zone and did crazy things like approaching women randomly, sleeping with a slut, laying on the streets basically anything that would put me outside me comfort zone. And I managed to reach 145 days. But soon I fou d good people. I got rid of my anxieties to some extent and became super comfortable. I realized that porn wasn’t the main problem. I was. And I focussed on growing. But then I started fapping a bit here and there and not pushing myself. But then rhe phase of corona came and I was left to myself in my room and I started fapping kore than ever. As I had so much time and felt powerless. I lost my drive . I realized my drive came from not fapping. It is the essence of the man. The semen. Don’t waste it. I have made since then multiple commitments to quit it and reach 365 days but get too comfortable because why not. This time I realized that I have to do it. My life depends on it. I defined my life’s vision as realizing my fullest potential before dying while also be fully present every moment. And that means I need that drive. I also realized that in life progress=happiness and everything else is bullshit. Just pleasure that will kill you. I WONT FAP EVER. I say it outrightly. Because the difference between big and small strwaks is just a decision made in the beginning. It’s not even an option to fap. Too much energy. Go fucking run. Too depressed, go out. Talk to people. I cannot fucking ruin my life now. I will regret it if I don’t realize my fullest potential.
I HATE PMO. IT IS THE MOST LOW LEVEL BEHAVIOUR EVER. FUCK IT. and so I also decided to use accountability to my advantage. Extreme accountability. You have to commit to the world that you will be great. The world will hold you accountable.
So that’s why I will post my real picture and share on LinkedIn my truth if I fail. I WONT. I JUST KNOW IT.
THANKS FOR READING
Thanks @masterofemotions
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@anon98741803 Thanks for not trusting in me. I want to prove everyone wrong here. I WILL NEVER FAP IN MY LIFE. The reason for this is very simple. I respect my seed. It’s my life force. And I hate mediocrity. I am born to be great.
Maybe I might sound arrogant. But this is not me in person. I am a really nice dude. But I have to take am angry approach to NoFap. I HAVE TO HATE PMO to the point of disgust and I have to not be swayed away by women for their beauty. This has been my weakness. Women are my weakness. Their beauty always sways me. And makes me needy towards them. Whether they be virtual or real. I need to understand that beautiful women are thousands. But a women who deserves my seed and carry over my greatness will only be one. And now I have stopped my pursuit towards sex totally. I respect my sexuality. And I want to have sex. That’s a biological need. But more than that I want to be great. And be in the moment and present and not think about wanting something all the time. Except being great. I demand this of myself. This pushes me.
SO NO I AM JUST A PERSON WHO DOES NOT FAP. THIS IS WHO I AM. I AM STRAIGHT ABOUT TJIS. AND HAVE NO DOUBT IN MY HEAD. OF COURSE THERE WILL BE OBSTACLES. I AM STILL STRUGGLING WITH MSYSELF. BUT I WONT FAP. EVER. PERIOD.
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@Tagore man Tagore. You are a motjerfuckinf beast. Literally and I want you to reach 1000 days. You are capable of greatness !! Let’s do it together.
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Hi guys. I need a suggestion here. I am feeling like my energy is being blocked. My head is feeling heavy. I know this is related to excess energy. Did you guys face this blocked energy thing ?
@Tagore and other friends answer it pls
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Day 16 Evening
I have been stuck in my head today and watched YouTube videos the whole day. I did workout today and a little bit of work. But should have focussed on working more and watching less videos. Although the content that I watch is mostly motivational and the aim is to leanr something, I should in fact focus on letting out my creativity more and not consuming so much.
The problem why I was frustrated and had a headache was because I wasn’t DOING enough. I was THINKING too much about things I wanted. Hence I have decided to be more present in my day to day life and not have a goal with a deadline.
Being present is more important. I want to live every moment fully and enjoy the process not put myself in pain for some event in the future that might not occur.
That being said, that’s not an excuse to Fap.
I STILL HATE FAP, AND PMO. IN FACT MORE TJA. YESTERDAY. EVWRY SINGLE TIME I WRITE IT, I HAVE MORE HATE TOWARDS PMO. I WANT TO REACH A POINT WHERE JUST THINKING ABOUT PMO MAKES ME LITERALLY VOMIT AND GIVES ME NAUSEA. AND I WILL AMPLIFY MY HATE TOWARDS IT EVERY SINGLE DAY TWO TIMES. I HATE PMO TO THE CORE. AND I RESPECT MY SEMEN WHICH WILL NOW BE USED TO REPLENISH MY BODY.
Reminder to self : I have already signed an unwritten contract with the members of the community to post my personal picture and share it on LinkedIn if I choose to fap consciously. This thing is going to devastate my life and I would lose all hope to live. And I would have no other option to kill myself. I don’t want to kill myself. I want to realize my fullest potential, transfer my seed to the next generation and contribute to a better sociaett. Basically I want to leave the world a better place than when I came here. I want to have an impact. And NoFap is the fuel.
Thank you. Good night.
P.s. I love you
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@TheFinalFrontier if you are head is feeling blocked just do some medidation.
It may sound cliche but it seriously helps and in the start you may use guided meditation w/o music.
Also don’t worry too much about headaches it happens during the journey.
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Day 17 Morning
I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE PMO. THIS IS THE MOST DISGUSTING THING EVER. I CLOSE MT EARS WHEN SONEONE EVEN TALKS ABOUT FAPPING. I HATE IT. IF CAUSED ME SO MUCH PAIN IN MY LIFE. I WANT TO LIVE NOW. TO THE FULLEST. SO I RESPECT MY SEMEN. I VALUE MY SEED. I WONT WASTE IT.
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Bro I had severe head ache too. It increases when you don’t channel your energy. On the days when I did nothing, browsed through this app etc headache increased like anything. All you have to do is Exercise, Meditation, listen to music etc.
Exercise is very important bro. Everyday in the morning you have to exercise. Even if you don’t feel like it, just run around your home because you are restricting your brain from the dopamine that porn gives. It is very high. You have to provide atleast some amount of dopamine, oxytocin, sertonin etc someway for the poor fellow (brain) to work 
.
Listening to music worked really well for me. When i even got strong urges, calm beautiful music reduced my headache. Don’t worry mate. It is withdrawal. I promise it will pass. For me, I had withdrawals and flatline till day 47. Now urges are very rare.
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Since you asked, I was planing to sleep on the floor for 1 full month ie. July. I haven’t tried it before, but I’ve heard that it’ll help in increasing our will power and strength in moving through hard times (will start by 1 week first). Above all, it is a comfort zone challenge as well.
Iam also planing to do dopamine detox + fasting 1 day/week in July.
Want to join me? Lets be accountable.
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What are the rules man ? What do you quit for that ?
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Bro all Iam planning to do is, sleep on the floor. No pillow. No bed. We’ll try for 1 week and then decide whether we should do it for 1 month. Many people have done this and reported an increase in will power and mental strength.
We are leaving the comfort of bed.
Fasting as everyone knows is the best thing to increase willpower and mental strength along with burning fat.
Dopamine detox + fasting would be the best thing we can do. Check this out, to know more about dopamine detox if you don’t.
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I have to see if I can manage to do it at this point. Since I also have other priorities at this point. So I don’t want to take risks. But I will check the video and decide it. I will let you know Beast !
@Tagore no man. I won’t take the Dopamine Fast for now. I will fucking die. My head is aching so much. I need some dope. Otherwise my mind will keep looking for pussy. That’s a hungry state to be.
I am not complaining. I will fight this shit. I will go for some cycling around to relax. Sitting inside a box is not healthy
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