Brother, Iโm ashamed to admit that before I ever started posting on the forums at all, I did the same thing. But Iโm glad that I did reinstall it, and that I did start posting on here. And Iโm glad that you did, too! God bless you, Brother! 
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Hey bro @FaithfulWalker , I think ur problem was psychological , not harmonal. U have said that u are a straight male , just ur fantasies were quite feminine. I am glad to know that u havenโt been involved in those activities for a long time. Stay like thisโฆ
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Hey man , you taught me itโs possible , you helped me during my tough times. i hope everything will be fine rise again dude. that inspires other guys in this forum especially me.
yes man , thanx for this iโm on a 7 day streak rn , i know itโs a pretty small streak but i will keep going. hopefully a fine comeback towards the end of this year.
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Yes @Lord_Inosuke it was psychological, because I am also diagnosed with bipolar disorder and Early Onset Alzheimerโs. Half of the time I have to read over several times what people post to me here. Yes those were my fantasies but I havenโt thought about it in while now. I know that I have written it here because I wanted to keep something from my past so that I will not stoop that low again.
Yes @Covertxomic I have risen again and I am on day 24 today. I hope that you will get there some day. Just be strong Brother and keep fighting for those days. Yes I am an inspiration to others but when I lose a good streak I feel like I let everyone down. So this is what is keeping me going, keeping a good streak and holding on to it. You may be on day 7 but I pray that you will not fail. God bless you and donโt give up hope.
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Hey bro ur story reminds me of David Goggins 
. He was also in Navy , gave ASVAB test and he also used to read things multiple times . And most important similarity is u both chose to change ur lives .
GOGGINS THAT !!!
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
No matter how many times I fall, I will still rise
December 11, 2024 Wednesday
08:00 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information
Day 24 of 90
NoFap Streak: 24 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 24/25 days
Badge: Defender
Jeremiah 32:17 (KJV) Ah Lord GOD! behold, thou hast made the heaven and the earth by thy great power and stretched out arm, and there is nothing too hard for thee:
To: My Friends
From: Prayer_Warrior
Address: RC Forum
Hello my friends, I am doing well all things considered. Whew now I got my life story out of the way lets begin now to talk about something else. Yes I believe that everyone can overcome there past but they can never undo it. If I could erase my past and start over I would not have met you guys or girls. @Lord_Inosuke @Covertxomic @debellator @user1234567890 I want to thank you guys for bearing with me as I told my past. In the past I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and early onset Alzheimerโs. Now enough about the past lets look into the future shall we?
Well I am 24 days clean and still hanging in there. Now I ainโt saying that I donโt have urges I do. I donโt know if many of you have seen the movie Predator or not, but I feel like this journey is a metaphor similarity to the movie. The predator tries to kill you in any way that he can but you must fight with different tactics of skill. If you fall the first time the predator has figured out your weakness. So to defeat this predator of a bad habit you must use every means possible to defeat him.
Now there is another story that falls along in the journey of bad habits. Pilgrims Progress is a good book to read and Christian is leaving the city of destruction in search of the celestial city. He has many downfalls along the way but he goes back to the straight and narrow path. We must also leave the city of destruction and find the path to that celestial city. As we leave this city of destruction donโt look back because the fall will be harder than the first. If you ever want to find hope just walk with Jesus and He will carry you the rest of the way.
My future is bright for 2025 because I have a new year resolution to stick with and that is to not give up next year. I pray that each one that reads my journal will keep me accountable to keep my resolution. Now I might have a few weakness but this I know that my hope lies in Jesus. Next year will be different and I hope to accomplish by June 09, 2025 200 days free. As you see my friends that will outrun my oldest record 174 days. God bless yโall and donโt give up hope. Keep fighting and know that our Redeemer lives.
Motivational Quote
*โLearn as if you will live forever, live like you will die tomorrow.โ
โMahatma Gandhi
IronWill: Still I Rise!
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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I want u to cause destruction in 2025 Last Man Standing Challenge 
.
Letโs gooo !
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
No matter how many times I fall, I will still rise
December 12, 2024 Thursday
08:00 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information (tap to see)
Day 25 of 90
NoFap Streak: 25 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 25/25 days
Badge: Knight
Urge Meter: Level 3
Proverbs 19:21 (KJV) There are many devices in a manโs heart; nevertheless the counsel of the LORD, that shall stand.
To: My Friends
From: Prayer_Warrior
Address: RC Forum
Hello my friends, I am doing well tonight all things considered. I want to tell you something about my journal, then we will talk about triggers. Now you see at the top were it says โMy Informationโ well inside that I have created an Urge Meter. This is to let you know what level my urges are for this day. The Urge Level Meter ranges from 1 to 10, 1 is being a normal day and 10 being the worst day. I am trying this because I need to keep my levels consistent and normal. Now the normal days are 1-4, 5 is an average day, and 6-10 are the worst days.
Now before I get started on the topic for tonight, I want to tell you that my body has responded better to this comeback than my last streak. My hair is thicker, my voice is deeper and I feel more confident in what I do everyday. Now I know that I donโt want to brag but my figure has improved as well. Day 25 is done, and now I am moving on to the next day. When I was in my 110 day streak I was not this confident as I am now. I know that I canโt be overconfident because that will be my downfall.
Now lets get to the subject for tonight. Triggers, we all hate them and we donโt like them. Well I have identified one of my triggers and I will from now on stay away from sugary candy. Desserts are okay if they are not to sweet, but if the sugar is loaded in the dessert then I must stay away. Now to identify these triggers stay away from them for at least three weeks and then go back and try the trigger point. If it triggers your dopamine level then you must stay away. I have learned this from experience because I recently done this test.
Triggers are sometimes hard to identify because they hide themselves in the smallest places that you havenโt looked. These are some examples of my triggers: Candy (loaded with sugar) Imagination (I know you canโt hide from your imagination but remove these distractions by meditating) PMO (this one is the most distracting one of them all, the P for me is my philia). These are some of my triggers, but you might have something different from me.
As you may know all triggers are simple to identify if you know where to look. Triggers are the number one cause of all failures or chaser affect. Now to begin the most prominent search for these triggers one must identify what he/she loves most and then put it to a test. If the test is successful for raising the dopamine level then then he/she must do away with that trigger.Now I ainโt saying to put everything to the test, just take one step at a time and then identify.
God bless yโall and donโt give up hope. Keep fighting and know that our Redeemer lives.
โStay away from those people who try to disparage your ambitions. Small minds will always do that, but great minds will give you a feeling that you can become great too.โ
โMark Twain
IronWill: Still I Rise!
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
No matter how many times I fall, I will still rise
December 13, 2024 Friday
07:28 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information (tap to see)
Day 26 of 90
NoFap Streak: 26 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 26/30 days
Badge: Knight
Urge Meter: Level 5
Psalms 1:6 (KJV) For the LORD knoweth the way of the righteous: but the way of the ungodly shall perish.
To: My Friends
From: Prayer_Warrior
Address: RC Forum
Hello my friends, I am doing well tonight all things considered. Now I am going to turn the tables on you tonight. This letter is going to be a thank you note to everyone I know, if you donโt respond I understand completely that you might be busy at the moment. Now this might be a two part post so bear with me and wait until I am finished Thank you for patiently waiting.
Thank You
- @debellator thank you for everything that you do for this community and especially for me. You are friend that these people look up to and when someone need help you are there. I appreciate your courage to stick with community to overcome this bad habit. I pray for you daily and pray that you donโt give up hope. You are a special friend. God bless you and donโt give up hope.
- @user1234567890 my friend and brother in Christ, what can I say about you. Well I know what I can say you are a blessing in disguise, because I wouldnโt know where I would be without you. I would be totally lost my friend if I didnโt know you. Even though we are years apart we still love each other in Christ. You I can appreciate because you are the friend that I have been looking for for so long. You also pray for me when I need it. Thank you Brother. Just like that verse in Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 (KJV) Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up.
God bless you Brother and donโt give up hope. Keep fighting and know that our redeemer lives. - @WalkWithoutFear I appreciate you for being here when you can I donโt rightly know you all that well but I thank you for being my friend. Friends stick together and thatโs what counts. Be strong Brother and donโt give up hope. Keep fighting and know that our Redeemer lives.
- @ejuile you are a sister in Christ that I can depend on when I need help. You pray for me when I need it most and I feel like when you pray that you can move mountains. You are a strong sister in Christ and I would be lost without you. I appreciate you sister for everything that you do for me. God bless you sister for being strong in the Lord and looking to the author and finisher of our faith.
- @TonyTheChristian, Tony what can I say, I really appreciate you for being my friend from Canada. I thank you for being a brother in Christ and helping me when I need it. You just help other Christians in this community when they need it and I really appreciate it. God bless you brother and donโt give up hope.
- @lets_begin a proper name for a new beginning. You I donโt know to well but I really appreciate that you can be hear when you can. Be the beginner that everyone can look to and be an inspiration to others. God bless you brother and donโt quite doing what you do best.
- @Walnes you and I are two brothers separated in different worlds apart. I really appreciate you for creating your devotions. I have been looking forward to another devotion from you but I havenโt seen any. Brother I thank you personally from the bottom of my heart for making it past 100 days. God has really blessed you tremendously.
- @MrSam105 my friend indeed I really appreciate what you have done for me the most when others are not around. I pray that you be stronger in the Lord and donโt give up. You are a friend to lean on the most for comfort and support. God bless you Brother and donโt give up hope. Keep fighting and know that our Redeemer lives.
- @Faith_Warrior my most trusted friend that is fighting with me to combat this evil that plagues us all. You are a friend indeed that everyone can look up to and be an inspiration to everyone here. Being this close in a battle together is what we need to accomplish this bad habit. You I say is the best friend a guy can have in this community. God bless you Brother and donโt give up hope. Keep fighting and know that our Redeemer lives.
To be continued on second post. 
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Thank You
- @Covertxomic you look up to me and I really appreciate that. I thank you for everything you do for me as well. Me and you we are brother in this journey and I know that we can work together to accomplish this bad habit. You are a friend that I look to as well when I need some advice. You may have a different battle from me but we still have the same blood running through our veins. God bless you brother and donโt give up hope. Keep fighting the fight of the century.
- @Sholtro_Tenjerrot I appreciate you brother because you have stood by my side when I lost my 110 day streak. Brother I thank you being the comfort that I needed. I may not know you very well but you are my brother indeed in this fight that plagues us all. God bless you brother.
- @The_Rising_One the most prominent one to come up with answers when people need it most. Thank you brother for helping me overcome my philia. I donโt rightly know where I would be without your support. You are like an anchor in spite of the storm.
- @Awaken_one where to begin with you. I really appreciate you for being by my side when I needed some advice and I didnโt know what I was doing in this community. I think you where the first person that I talked to when I came to this community. I thank you for everything you did for me brother.
- @Loading thank you for helping me create the Navy Challenge and really didnโt know what I was doing at first and really appreciate it that you stepped in. You are a friend that most of us ignore but I really do appreciate you brother.
- @nofapstar123 I just got to know that you are around so I appreciate you for everything you did for me when I lost my 110 day streak. I will never forget what you said that day, โTime to grind moreโ. which is exactly what I am doing at this time. Thank you brother for those words.
- @Lord_Inosuke a student who needs to study more. Thank you brother for everything you do to accomplish your goals. You are an inspiration to me and I hope that you pass your exams. Be strong in your journey of nofap and donโt lose hope in this fight.
- @Binocular Bino the prince of saiyans, want can I say. Well I do appreciate you for letting me be your mission. Helping me to accomplish each goal in a matter of days. Bino I really appreciate you for everything you do for me and more. I know that sometimes I ask for to much of you but I really appreciate you for taking the time to help me in whatever I need. Thank you Bino.
In conclusion of these thank you, you may respond if you wish to thank me as well.
God bless yโall and donโt give up hope. Keep fighting and know that our Redeemer lives.
โWhen you give joy to other people, you get more joy in return. You should give a good thought to the happiness that you can give out.โ*
โEleanor Roosevelt
IronWill: Still I Rise!
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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Thanks brother. These lines made my day 
. U know what , Thor got motivation to push even more harder !!
U wanna know some of ur best qualities 
:
- u helped me a lot with app tech
- ur consistency on forum motivates all of us
- u are just like big brother to us , the caring one
- and the most important is that u are still in the battle against THOR
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@FaithfulWalker, God bless you brother and thank you for praying for me too, I really appreciate it 
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you are doing fine ! wishing for your success brother 
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Thank you brother for such kind words. The message you told me also applies to you. You are always there for us and you also pray for us when we are struggling. You are truly blessed, and God sees your efforts.
As mentioned before, youโre blessed with wisdom, and you are using it so well. I am sure God is pleased with your work. Keep being that lamp on a high place (Matthew 5:15). You will be rewarded my friend
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Thank you for your efforts helping me connect with Almighty by inviting me to the Bible reading challenge and through your indirect affect through the devotional threads. You donโt know how good reading those feels.
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
No matter how many times I fall, I will still rise
December 14, 2024 Saturday
08:10 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information (tap to see)
Day 27 of 90
NoFap Streak: 27 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 27/30 days
Badge: Knight
Urge Meter: Level 6 (1:15 pm)
Urge Meter: Level 4 (8:10 pm)
Psalms 93:1 (KJV) The LORD reigneth, he is clothed with majesty; the LORD is clothed with strength, wherewith he hath girded himself: the world also is stablished, that it cannot be moved.
To: My Friends
From: Prayer_Warrior
Address: RC Forum
01:15 pm
Hello my friends, I am doing okay today I guess. Yeah you heard right I am okay. The reason for this is because I am scared (scared of what you say). This is where things really start to come together for me and then I fall. Days 25-40 are the scariest for me because these days are my chaser affect days. Now you may be wondering I thought chaser affect days are in the days of 1-10, but my chaser affect days are 25-40. As you see on my urge meter it level 6. Yes my urges are now fighting fighting me and this is the reason I am scared.
Now there is nothing to fear but I will always be afraid until I past day 40. I just have to be patient and do prayer meditation to fight against these urges. I have fallen before during this short period of a stage. When I made it to 174 days and then fallen, then after 28 day of trying to regain control I fell again. Now after 110 days this is happening to me again. I havenโt relapsed yet but I pray that I donโt. Now you might be wondering where I am going with this but I just want to tell you all that I am afraid of what is about to happen. This stage in life can be hard but you must focus on what is ahead. Now I might not know what will happen in the next few hours but I pray that I get past this day and overcome these urges.
08:10 pm
Yes my friends, I hope that whoever is reading this will understand that my life has changed for the better. I may be typing this out of hast but I must believe in my redeemer and he will answer my call of redemption from this ridiculous habit. The Lord is my rock and my salvation. Now as you may notice I have two time frames on my journal entry for tonight, the reason being is because earlier today I had a level 6 urge. @Covertxomic calmed me down and helped me at that time to come back to the present. During my strong urge moment I almost fell again. But I still havenโt fallen yet, PRAISE THE LORD!
Be it as it may my chaser affect didnโt get the best of me. I may be afraid of these number days but there is always someone here to help me in this community. Thank you @Covertxomic for setting me straight and helping me overcome this chaser affect. You are like a brother to me. Now I canโt forget about my Brother in Christ @user1234567890 because he helps me out at night when no one is hardly on this forum. Well thatโs all for now, God bless yโall and donโt give up hope. Keep fighting and know that our Redeemer lives.
donโt postpone the good but postpone the bad.
โ@WarriorBhism
IronWill: Still I Rise!
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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Be strong and courageous brother. Because the Lord is with you.
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IronWill: Still I Rise!
No matter how many times I fall, I will still rise
December 15, 2024 Sunday
08:27 pm Eastern Standard Time
My Information (tap to see)
Day 28 of 90
NoFap Streak: 28 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 28/30 days
Badge: Knight
Urge Meter: Level 3
1 Corinthians 16:23-24 (KJV) The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you.
My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
To: My Friends
From: Prayer_Warrior
Address: RC Forum
Hello my friends, I am doing well all things considered. This letter is a sad one so if you wish not to read it that is fine with me. I am going to take a break from all of my journal entryโs for awhile and pull myself together during this break. I wonโt be leaving permanently I will be on here long enough to do check ins and fill out my devotionals and Bible verse of the day and The Bible for one year challenge. I know everyone that reads my journal will be sad to see it go away for awhile but I just need some space to figure out where to go from here. This letter to you is different for me as well, but maybe when I reach 100+ days this journal will come back.
This is where I stand and I need to find time to do other things besides being here all the time. I love this community of friend and whenever you need to talk to me just DM me anytime and I will eventually get the message. Even my productivity journal will be on pause as well. I will not be filling out any information there as well. @Covertxomic if you wish to discotinue our challenge please let me know and I will get debellator to archive it for me. If this is the IronWill that I need then I will rise stronger when this journal is continued. Recently the point of starting this new journal was because I want to give information to those still struggling with the issue of breaking a bad habit.
My friend I am sorry to see this journal at rest even though it will be revived again when I reach a certain amount of days. Donโt worry about me I wonโt be spending as much time here as I used to, but I will only be here long enough to do what needs to be done here. Forgive me for leaving this journal and not keeping up with it permanently. I hope that what I have here will be an inspiration to others and help those in need. So my friend, I will now tell you goodbye from this journal entry until further notice. God bless yโall and donโt give up hope. Keep fighting and know that our Redeemer lives.
โIt is only when we take chances that our lives improve. The initial and the most difficult risk we need to take is to become honest.โ
โWalter Anderson
IronWill: Still I Rise!
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.
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Hey Samuel, itโs understandable. Sometimes we need a break from this app. And it helps. It definitely did in my case.
Take all the time you need. I will keep you in my prayers. May you succeed with the Lordโs strength and know that God is always with you. He is faithful.
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Brother, you do whatโs best for you. If you need to take a break from your journal for a little bit, we all understand. Weโll still be here when you start again! 
God bless you, Brother!
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