Hi,

I’m Anthony. I’m 27 years old. I’ve had this addiction for 15 years. I never tried to stop it in my teenage years. And I should have… I started way too late (19 years old). I was still in college at that time…

UPDATE (April 8, 2025): I relapsed twice today voluntarily, even with a voice in me telling me to stop. Even after praying to God, I decided to choose sin. I fell after a streak of 1 year. I would lie if I said I am not feeling devastated and hopeless right now. But I will not give up. I want to go back to the Lord. I’ll have to do better and pray for a stronger will to choose God instead of sin. From now on I would like to turn to a new page.

The solution to this is to rely on God completely. I tried every methods for a decade and nothing works. Only trust in God. That’s how I managed a year without PMO. The reason why I fell is because I slowly brought back bad habits over several days, I focused less on God and wasted more time in worldly pleasures. Then when the tempation came, I was qeaker and failed. I learned the lesson. I must go back to my Faith. And when tempted I will take drastic measures. I will pray, read the Bible, listen to Christian songs.