The Hero's 90 Day Challenge! 👑

[Wannabeliberated]

Day 52 (204)

Affirmation: the two most powerful words in the english language are:

I AM

Those words will shape your future.

-Team Fearless, Youtube

Urges: Most of the urges yesterday was to binge Spawn the Animated series from 1997-1999. Good series, but damn, a lot of nude scenes. Didn’t feel so bad. Just sat back and watched the series. After so many days of NoFap, it…dosen’t seem to bother me much. I just ignore it, Turn away and wait for it to pass, or just…don’t care.
Didn’t get hit with any triggers or that classic dopamine rush. Didn’t wanna immediately close the video and boot up Porn. My friends, I might just be healing real good. Not that it means I am gonna start binge watching any series JUST for some nudity. I just liked the character after seeing the MK11 reveal trailer intros. Spawn is dope!

Just watching the edgy character and not wanting to PMO the moment I see Nudity come along or something… feels good not to feel shame and if it is too much, look away, not in shame, but as a measure of self control.

Progress: sick again. Not to give too much info, but I always start to feel sick after a wet dream.
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Notes: there will be a time when you will say: I am free from this addiction. Heck, if you aint saying it now, then your mentality will fail you. Now that don’t mean go deliberately looking up risque stuff like some of the redditors on NoNutNovember; I done seen so many emergency cries from ppl edging and saying they cant stop because they looked up porn.

As I said in the urges part: it feels good to just kick back and enjoy shows without wanting to PMO the moment you see NSFW Stuff. Keep at it yall; there is hope and freedom if you just keep going.

Now stay away from Instagram or Porn sites or Onlyfans and stuff. You’ll be aight. 204 days here and it only gets better with each day added to the counter.

[Backincontrol]

Day 34 - relapsed.

This happened after some bad circumstances in life and some even worse reactions on my part. It has been a tough time for me this week and I used PMO as a way to escape reality.

I feel pretty bad as this was full blown PMO.
Have to confess to you guys, that isolation is my trigger, after much success I let myself slip.

I have much thinking to do, I am going to meditate for sometime and reflect on this. Hope to come back stronger my comrades. This too, shall pass.

Back to day 0. (3 relapses over 100+ days with highest streak of nearly 50 days).

My realisations are that this time I fell due to a general lack of direction in life. I used bad events as an excuse to escape and indulge. I failed to stay focused and determined towards a better life! I lacked the motivation. I lacked the drive to say no. I let circumstances make me waste time and stay idle and isolated. I lost my way and gave in.

Sorry guys for the bad news. I will be back stronger. I hope those of you progressing well in this challenge never forget to keep the larger picture and goals in mind, don’t let day to day events make you lose your way!

[szamanicpath]

Thank you for your share. I feel sąd about you, but your message is clear. Even Really bad circunstances cant hol d us back, we should Meditate in every minute of our life, be concious about our emotions. I was ery close to relapse like you but after Reading your message I know that Im fighting for you too, every day without PMO gives power to somebody else to be Clean.
Lets stop this madnes brothers

[EmeraldArcher]

Hero’s Day Streak: 84

Affirmation: I commit to success.
Another productive and clean day!
Number of thoughts: 0
Number of urges: 0
Number of practices: 2

[Wannabeliberated]

Day 53 (205)

Affirmation: There is no such thing as social equality. There is civil equality, liberties and constitutional equalities, but there NEVER will be true social equality.

Urges: I just woke up from a dream of me relapsing. Again. Fetishes activated, lol. Now I got them cravings again, lol. So…yeah.

Progress: still sick. Still gonna do some good work.

Gratitude: I am grateful for not relapsing. Those dreams of relapse, sex dreams or wet dreams are KILLING me, lol. But like I said, still gonna keep going.

Notes: stay safe out there, yall. Coronavirus gone rampant. Keep your energy, dont spill it out. Work out, eat healthy, and take supplements.

And to the main theme: as I said in affirmations: there IS no equality socially. Some grpups of people will just naturally have advantages and disadvantages. Some people will have different needs. Some people get all the benefits for nothing, some work like slaves to get table scraps.

Why do I have to suffer this on NoFap? Why the urges? Why can I not just have a good sleep without sexual themes in the dreams? Why can’t I just edge? I had a hard day, im sick, life has not been fair to me. The list goes on.

Well…as I said: there is no equality with everything. Sorry, but even the radical conformist groups cannot make everyone the same. Even a litter of cats have some variation, like it or not. We all are here on NoFap, but it will NOT be the same journey for all of us. Some of us will just breeze through it, some of us will feel like some days are like running a marathon through a fetish doninated city with ■■■■ blasting through the speakers and tvs. And All your audience are ■■■■ stars and supermodels scantily clad and shaking it like crazy. Thats life yall. Life isnt gonna be fair and equal to all. Yall got siblings? I am sure there was a time where they got a reward and you didnt, for whatever reason.

In a nutshell: life isnt meant to be fair. Its gonna be underhanded and screw you over at every turn.

Again, the batman post:

[Mazerunner]

I have a word from Seneca for you brother

[HappySoul]

Streak = 10 (+10)

Affirmation: Har kisi ka din aata hai. Mera bhi ayega.
I am thankful for: God’s Mercy
Progress: Free And Clean Day
Urges Defeated, Practices Completed: 3, 10

[Backincontrol]

Reporting day 1

One affirmation - Wounds heal and we get wiser. Failing a thousands times and still persisting is better than never trying.

I am thankful for - Having faith in myself.

Progress - clean day

Urges 0 / Practice 3

[nanjo]

I don’t how to join this group?. I am new to rewire forum. Please help

[EmeraldArcher]

Hero’s Day Streak: 85

Affirmation: I commit to success.
Another productive and clean day!
Number of thoughts: 3
Number of urges: 0
Number of practices: 2

[Wannabeliberated]

Day 54 (206)

Affirmation: I am not perfect, bit if I die today, I can at least die with honor and dignity and not with my hands in my pants…

Gratitude: Another day alive and recovering.

Urges: Welp…Coronavirus is now rampant throughout the world and in 2 months has killed tens of thousands, that we know of. A matter of time before more quarantines are added. Toilet paper is gone at the commissary with Baby wipes ( why TP is priority over…oh I dunno…FOOD AND WATER, as you can clean off in the shower…freaking panic buying)…I have been hit with urges like crazy. Dang…gonna be an interesting few months yall, especially if we end up locked away in our homes. But as always, Urges are always there.

Progress: eh, still recovering from being sick with the cold. Wanna workout and lose the gut. Got some studying to do and etc.

Notes: With a potential world altering virus rampant throughout the world that originated in China, and the most susceptible being elderly, young and immunocompromised…Do yall really think this is a good time for us to be deliberately booting up the porn sites and Going Full PMO?

Think about it…you lose more than just function and sensitivity when you ejaculate, males. You lose magnesium, Iron, Zinc and various minerals, many of which help with immune health. Yeah, I know; Pornhub Premium for affected countries. Onlyfans and porn abundance. Come on man, dont be such a stick in the mud; we quarantined! Gotta relieve some stress! Best believe that you are digging your grave doing that.

Stock up on at least a month’s supply of food and water. Have a few cleaning supplies. Stay home if possible and wash your hands. Save that energy. It may nust save your very life. All serious here.

[HappySoul]

Streak = 11 (+11)

Affirmation: Har kisi ka din aata hai. Mera bhi ayega.
I am thankful for: God’s Mercy
Progress: Free And Clean Day
Urges Defeated, Practices Completed: 2, 10

[HappySoul]

@Alegend promoted to Adventurers arena

[EmeraldArcher]

Hero’s Day Streak: 86

Affirmation: I commit to practicing insight more often and taking action with the information I learned about myself and the changes I know I need to make.
Another productive and clean day!
Number of thoughts: 2
Number of urges: 0
Number of practices: 2

[Wannabeliberated]

Day 55 (207)

Affirmation: nothing like a scary horror story to intimidate you. You know, when climbing the ladder of success, sometimes a spoke pit at the bottom is more convincing than gold at the top.

I guess an affirmation suited for this was a phrase from a character in the Spawn animated series:

“Don’t let the Demons take you”.

And man, that that major went through for 5 years…Jesus. no better phrase there to describe the horror and desperation of the nightmare he was in.

Urges: I was watching some askreddit horror stories. 3 in particular scared me, although one was really raunchy, as they all related to something sexual. Long story short, its whatever, just move on. But daaaaaang, man; one in particular terrified me. Psychological horror at its finest about a lonely, recently single man who in his list “orders” a “Girlfriend”…well, she was the jealous type. Lust can kill, yo. I know it is fiction, but I just wanted to share it as a reminder of how terrifying a result lust can bring you to…still got the chills thinking about the ending…

Gratitude: grateful I didn’t end up in some horrible situation like these horror stories I read. God almighty!

Notes: Lonely, recently Broke up man gets a new “Flame”. Very jealous type. 2nd story was of a mother who finds his son’s pornographer habit. Scifi ending that still scared me if you take out the scifi element and see the symbolism. Third was raunchy and NSFW, but does have you thinking about the horrors of the adult film industry, and how depraved ppl can be.

Maybe I am fearmongering a bit, but there is a reason why I am posting this. Although these horror stories are fiction, Don’t think there isn’t some realism or at least a premonition of what could happen if hedonism and lust were to go too far. Frig man, the story about the new girlfriend still gives me chills…

Scary stories help. Need to put some more of those on NoFap.com, your brainonporn or other famous youtubers.

Also reminds me of a video game deep web series called “Welcome to the game”.

Don’t let the demons take you. If you let them in, become seduced by their lies, whether it is to stagnate, or just one peek of a porn video, or touch yourself just a bit…dont let the demons take you. DON’T.

[HappySoul]

Streak = 12 (+12)

Affirmation: Har kisi ka din aata hai. Mera bhi ayega.
I am thankful for: God’s Mercy
Progress: Free And Clean Day
Urges Defeated, Practices Completed: 3, 10

[EmeraldArcher]

Hero’s Day Streak: 87

Affirmation: I commit to practicing insight more often and taking action with the information I learned about myself and the changes I know I need to make.
Another productive and clean day!
Number of thoughts: 0
Number of urges: 1
Number of practices: 2

[Backincontrol]

Reporting day 3

One affirmation - Counting mental relapses is a better idea. If you can conquer your mind, you can conquer anything.

I am thankful for - No chaser relapses.

Progress - clean day

Urges 0 / Practice 3

[HappySoul]

Streak = 13 (+13)

Affirmation: Har kisi ka din aata hai. Mera bhi ayega.
I am thankful for: God’s Mercy
Progress: Free And Clean Day
Urges Defeated, Practices Completed: 4, 10

[Wannabeliberated]

Day 55 (208)

Gratitude: feeling better after a cold. Dont suffer from Coronavirus, thank God. God bless all those who are.

Urges: the worst in a long while. Fantasizing and wanting rmto go back for the past 2 days. Maybe a little bit due to some horror stories I mentioned that had some explicit content, although mostly because of the sadness spikes. Tends to happen at least once a week, especially if I stagnate. God the urges get to me.

Progress: didn’t go back to pornhub or any site where I get my kicks intentionally, although some things I watch can be triggering. Then again, what isn’t? Still going strong. Pray for me that those urges do not come back again, as I am sure they will when I get back to my senses.

Notes: stagnation will breed relapse. It is fine to feel urges and be horny all the time; It just means you are feeling alive again. Use it to make your life better. NoFap won’t magically make everything happen; it is simply the foundation for starting your path to greatness.