Today, I got my heart broken, but learned a very valuable lesson.
So story begins…A girl, I’ll call her S in this entire story.
So i am working as a intern in startup. Its a non paid internship, so just doing it for fun and skill enhancement. So we were in a need of new interns. So , S joined as a new intern. I was in the startup since the beginning so i became quite senior there. So every intern that joined that day reported to me and there was one other guy.
So eventually S and I started talking in Dm about the reports and stuff. After a few meetings i kindda started liking S. So we started talking some off topic things (other than reports). S was good looking and had a very nice voice. So i started dropping some hints that i like her, but she just laughed it aways. I tried some indirect questions to know if she is single or not and laughed that away as well. Eventually i was able to conclude that she was not single, but half of my brain was not ready to accept it.
I still kept flirting with her and waiting for her text. Then today i followed S on insta and saw pictures of her with her Boyfriend. Which broke my heart. I was very pissed.
Then came the realization , that she was never rude to me. Even after realising that i like her, S continued to talk with me respectfully. So i thought why should i be pissed off at someone for not liking me or having a BF. Thats completely unfair right?
I think the porn addiction has affected me in such a way that now i think that every girl i talk to must like me. (Not sure about this )
I think i would prefer to stay single unless i have fully recovered or unless a girl drops some hints. Or else i would keep getting my heart broken. Do you guyz also feel bad when you find out that your crush doesn’t like you back?
Anyways that was my confessions. I am on Day 6 today. Had a nightfall yesterday. Looking forward to brighter days ahead.
Renegade signing off