Yeah its like we thought we’d be the same people in the future with the same interests… nope!!! Im doing something kinda dumb but necessary for me… sorting thru decisively and trashing or using or scheduling and only manageable chunks.
Btw I have no porn saved… but i remember deleting alot of that a long time ago… mine are things that are mostly interest/academic/work related… but it sucks to think that we spent all that time looking and selecting… essentially demanding that time from the future… the hoarder mentality… and now we’re doing the reverse of deleting it. Im at a good place… so I feel that I can’t keep storing it anymore… gotta do something now. And we’ll eventually get to it or forget about it… all thats left to be seen is what can we do here so our lives are better now and tomorrow
The root cause of my relapses has always been… not being involved in life and building it. When obligations outweigh interests, everything seems overwhelming. When interests outweigh obligations, everything seems pointless. That balance is what Im trying to create sustainably.
Mid-week checkin. A proper one coming this weekend. I plan to be on top by week’s end.
Day freaking 50. Peeked 2 days ago and alkost destroyed everything. Damn this is rough.
Primary goal: Budget my finances
Secondary: do one hell of a good workout
Tertiary: set up appointments for colleg
I refuse to even so much as peek for one second again because i am a little over 5 weeks from 90 days. Also because I made it that far during my vacation with my crush and GOD IT FELT SO DAMN GOOD not being on a binge for PMO! I mentioned before that we are supposed to feel horny and a desire for sex. Lack of something in a constant supply/scarcity doesn’t have to be bad. As Aahana on youtube said, that horniness can be used for soooooo many good things!
Thank you all again. I never made it this far ln my 68 day streak; sp much edging and watching, till the point I just gave up because it wasn’t “perfect”. It feels good. 50 days. Keep going, Wannabeliberated, keep going.
I am getting out of that productivity slump I was in. One thing I know will help is a return to regular posting. I’ll lay out my primary, secondary and tertiary objectives I am pursuing daily, and report how much effort I put in for each day.
Accomplishing at least 3 important tasks daily towards my business and personal projects as well as activities to remain free and clean from PMO.
Running, exercising and completing my morning routine.
Reading/listening to Scripture and books for my self-development, journaling and connecting with family and friends.
@Wannabeliberated Glad to see you’ve committed to keep going brother! Peeking is never worth the beauty we experience in a life free from pornography.
@hellojaani Looking forward to your post this week brother!
Primary goal is to get my car windshield replaced
Secondary is schedule an appointment for my college advisor
Tertiary is clean out the apartment
I wont relapse because I have spent 2 days now seriously looking at Reddit posts and Youtube Videos, and have seen how Porn has destroyed relationships, how porn stars are living in a literal Hell in the Porn Industry. A lot of hate and rage with /r/lifeafterporn on Reddit and NoFap and Pornfree. Kinda shamed myself into not wanting to. Urges still there, but I don’t wanna.
Im still in this! Everyone… just touch base to show your willingness to continue making your life the best.
Nothing magical will happen when the clock strikes midnight into 2020. The magic happens in all the seconds on the way!
Again… I’m still in this. This is the best semester I’ve had so far for a couple of years and it will only get better! I shall resume normal daily posting… as soon as Monday.
Goals are to update finances, reregister my vehicle and get back to a food workout.
I wont relapse because I freaking made it to 60 days, although not perfectly. Much better than the last streak, which was full of edging and fighting all the time.
I’ve worked towards important goals today, even with limited time - effort was shown. Good day today.
I completed my morning routine and went for a run - effort was shown. Good day today.
I listened to some of Can’t Hurt Me by David Goggins which @hellojaani mentioned. No Scripture reading today. I made an effort to connect and meet up with some friends. Good day today.
My dads here for a few weeks… I want to beat him at everything he thinks is my limit. Make sure he can’t ever think less of me. Today I best his stepcount. But what motivated me was improving myself.
To maintain a positive outlook… its hard with parents judgment around me while I realize how much I suck but Im doing alright.
I pulled out effort I didn’t know I had towards these goals today! More than 3 important tasks completed - great day today, thank GOD!
Morning routine completed, 100 push-ups, 100 sit-ups, 100 squats, went running in the morning and the evening - great day today.
Listened to more of Can’t Hurt Me, read some Scripture, read some of my non-fiction book on marketing. Discussion with family and friends. Great day today.
I helped my friend work on our podcast.
@Wannabeliberated Keep going brother! Passing 60 days is incredible! Don’t worry about doing it perfectly, you’ll get better as you go along. The important thing is that you’ve stuck with it. @hellojaani You’re doing alright, and you can always do better! Look at the present analytically, look at the future emotionally with passion and enthusiasm. If things aren’t great right now, state it clearly and honestly, but don’t internalise it. Think about how things can be improved. You’ve got things to do brother!