This is the first time in my life that I feel that I’m getting healed from years of PMO.
For the first time in my life the urges are no more. Don’t get me wrong, I still get morning wood, but I can control it with no problem. This is the longest that I’ve been clean from Masterbation. In 2019, I went 8 months clean from Pornography, but relapsed in February of 2020. But during that 8 month period, Masterbation was still an issue for me.
For several years, I’ve tried to get help from close friends and relatives, but all of them were Non-addicts. Because they were Non-addicts and couldn’t relate to what I was going through, I would feel so frustrated and misunderstood when I would tell them my addiction to PMO. They would give me advice, from a Non-addict point of view, that never solved my underlying issues. I was tired of getting help from people who don’t have a solution to a problem; A problem that they themselves never had to overcome.
But when I joined this Rewire forum, for the first time in my life, I felt that I wasn’t alone. I was amazed that there was a community trying to improve there lives by eliminating PMO forever. People here understands the challenges and the difficulties of fighting PMO. Because of this community, for the first time in my life, I felt comfortable enough to fully express my deepest thoughts and emotions, things I was too ashamed of. Things that regular people wouldn’t understand.
When I was confessing my addiction and the type of Pornography I was into, I felt as if I was letting people into my dark closet. My closet full of skeletons. This community is helping me clean out that dark closet. That closet
is no longer dark, but illuminated. The skeletons, they’re going to the trash . Now, I feel comfortable enough to fully express myself. Now, I feel strong enough to stand as a man. Now, I feel that I can finally move on from PMO. This is the beginning of a New Era.