The Dark Closet

This is the first time in my life that I feel that I’m getting healed from years of PMO.

For the first time in my life the urges are no more. Don’t get me wrong, I still get morning wood, but I can control it with no problem. This is the longest that I’ve been clean from Masterbation. In 2019, I went 8 months clean from Pornography, but relapsed in February of 2020. But during that 8 month period, Masterbation was still an issue for me.

For several years, I’ve tried to get help from close friends and relatives, but all of them were Non-addicts. Because they were Non-addicts and couldn’t relate to what I was going through, I would feel so frustrated and misunderstood when I would tell them my addiction to PMO. They would give me advice, from a Non-addict point of view, that never solved my underlying issues. I was tired of getting help from people who don’t have a solution to a problem; A problem that they themselves never had to overcome.

But when I joined this Rewire forum, for the first time in my life, I felt that I wasn’t alone. I was amazed that there was a community trying to improve there lives by eliminating PMO forever. People here understands the challenges and the difficulties of fighting PMO. Because of this community, for the first time in my life, I felt comfortable enough to fully express my deepest thoughts and emotions, things I was too ashamed of. Things that regular people wouldn’t understand.

When I was confessing my addiction and the type of Pornography I was into, I felt as if I was letting people into my dark closet. My closet full of skeletons. This community is helping me clean out that dark closet. That closet
is no longer dark, but illuminated. The skeletons, they’re going to the trash :wastebasket:. Now, I feel comfortable enough to fully express myself. Now, I feel strong enough to stand as a man. Now, I feel that I can finally move on from PMO. This is the beginning of a New Era.

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I want to hug u man … well done . I can understand , I was also helpless and couldn’t understand what to do of this pmo addiction until I found this community.

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@Dean_Ambrose Thanks Man. I really appreciate you and all the other warriors of the community.

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@Dean_Ambrose Thank you for understanding where I am coming from. You’re able to relate to my pain and struggle. Again Thank you.

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Well done man! I’m really happy for you! Keep going, let’s spur each other towards freedom!

We are men, we don’t PMO. Porn kills love. Keep loving :slight_smile:
All the best man, wish you awesome success.
When you cleared that closet, it wasn’t really hard at all, was it? You just needed the right tools :smiley:

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That post just made my day!
That post also makes me think the power of an app.
this is an example that the things we cant do alone, can be done together.
Every rewire companion user is waiting for that moment!

CONGRATS MAN! you did it. Once that thing seemed impossible for you to leave, once you thought i would never get out of it, but you didnt give up! kept trying and finally you are here!

I am wishing the best for your future brother!
and i know everyone here is going to write that comment one day! :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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@Ash_Matt @nofapstar123 Thanks you guys!

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Thats true bro. I’ve tried to talk about the issue with other guys who had the same problem irl, but they were giving absurd advices that never clicked me. Some would say, “its normal. Everyone does that.” Some would say, “Just get a girlfriend”. Some would say," read religious scriptures all the time and you’ll stay away from it". But when I came here, I found people who see it exactly like me. Their advices are really something, which hit you instantly. And a lot of people who even had similar stories and similar problems. This community has been very very helpful to me, and I believe it can be to anyone. Everyone here appears to be family. :slight_smile:

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Yess same thing happen to when l am in my teen age that time l also think like that time l don’t understand what l going through . That time l my mind full of frustration where l don’t know . These things make me so much depression. That time l think that’s l am only one who stuck in loop of pmo that make me soo much depressive person and that time always l blam to god why always me stuck in prblm that time blam a god to much. But now my depression illness cured this my past history of 3 year passs. Now l am full of Confidence and believe in God vary much . I think after long darkness sunlight come us your life make are life full of happiness and god prayer + wisdom :pray:

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Great post mate. Only 1 week+ but can really relate. Porn creates a lot of skeletons and distancing from reality. For me late night gaming or tv is one of my other demons, being in the pmo zone really with them leads to little sleep and all 3 linked together. This rewire really working on all 3 fronts. Keep up good work guys

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@PrDr @sakshi11 @scottf77

This is why I love you guys. You guys Know EXACTLY what I’m talking about. Thank you.

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@sakshi11

I know exactly what you mean. All throughout my teenage years, I struggled with depression and had a low self-esteem. I would take my anger out on my parents and siblings. Whenever things didn’t go well in my life, I would constantly complain and blame others for my failures. There were many times when I just broke down and cried. I so much on my chest, but It was very difficult to get it out. It wasn’t until I joined this forum and did some research that PMO was the cause of all my other problems.

I appreciate the help that I received from my close friends and family. But I know the older generation don’t have a clue to what it’s like to struggle with PMO. That feeling of being misunderstood is what made me so frustrated and alone. When I was in High school, I saw alot of kids were becoming more weird. I felt uncomfortable being in school. But again, I realized that PMO can make you weird and weak. I feel like this is a Generation of weak Men and Women, because PMO gets a hold on them when they’re young and creates all sorts of problems down the road.

It’s funny how in America :us:, they teach you Sex-ED and to be aware of Pedophiles, but they don’t teach kids the dangers of Pornography and Masterbation. They don’t teach morals and ethics. Here in America, a lot of teachers are getting arrested for Child Pornography or having Sex with a Minor. It’s sad, very sad. This is the Silent Epidemic, and no one is aware.

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Scary that mate. In UK, not so much an issue but sure that’s something that will happen. Porn is unatural amount of sexual content that our caveman brain can’t compute.

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In India one would get a beating for having a affair with teacher :joy::sweat_smile:.

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And this not the end for you … believe me … you will have and be and surprise yourself …
We are new one even we relapsed happen or fail but this community is the best and favorite in this world :rofl: :rofl::rofl: .

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