I could have done more things but there is some bad issue with my stomach and oesophagus . I will visit doctor again tomorrow . It feels unbearable at this point , I want it to stop . The problem is I can’t find the problem . Hope something works and its gets better
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So long after I heard this word again. Also what happened to you.?
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Exercising daily 
physical movements
meditation 
walking and sitting straight
not worrying and overthinking
drinking 2 ltrs water
prayer every morning
affirmations before sleeping
indoor walk in every 30 mins
not spending much screen time
no social media
not using abusive words :
maintain eye contact with people
not pretending moody , emotionless and sad
not walking like a ghost (yeah I do walk like that)
keeping smile and being happy te_check_mark: :
maintain eye contact with people
not pretending moody , emotionless and sad
not walking like a ghost (yeah I do walk like that)
keeping smile and being happy
I had fever and cold from today morning so took a little long rest but then exercised too . Did some household work and studies a little bit . I should be studying more but sickness ruins it all . Overall , a nice day .
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Take care of your health brother
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Yeah 
Thanks
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Exercising daily
physical movements
meditation
walking and sitting straight
not worrying and overthinking
drinking 2 ltrs water no social media
not using abusive words
maintain eye contact with people
not pretending moody , emotionless and sad
not walking like a ghost (yeah I do walk like that)
keeping smile and being happy
I almost got it all . It was a nice day , was feeling weak after waking up felt good after workout . Studied well and did a lot of math . Although , when it came to theory , I was getting too much distracted after every while so it caused inconsistency . I know it wouldn’t work like that so I will be adding detox while studying as a habit so I can completely focus . It feels good to be productive .
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Now I realise how cringy my username is when translated to Hindi 
. ChadthaSher123 …
Good that don’t know Hindi that time. Otherwise I may have named like that
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it gan be ugta sher aur badhta sher as well.
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Exercising daily
physical movements
meditation :
walking and sitting straight
not worrying and overthinking
drinking 2 ltrs water
no social media
not using abusive words
maintain eye contact with people
not pretending moody , emotionless and sad
not walking like a ghost (yeah I do walk like that)
keeping smile and being happy
Pretty nice day , felt very fast and overwhelming too . Wake up early , went for jogging and then exercised . It feels so nice jogging in winters with music in your ears . I had never felt so good in months . HEAVENLY
After that , completed some notes and did registration for some coachings , it took up some time but then studies after that . 6 hours to be exact .
Wasted a little time on youtube but it will get fine . I have to study hard now . I feel good now but not completely , so many days without meditation and mindfulness has made me anxious . I wasn’t able to focus so finally meditated . Feeling amazing , did it after weeks and listened to some good lofi music .
Damn bro , it hits so hard in cold winter nights .
Anyways , bye for today.
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Awesome dude, exercise and meditation both 
. Best way to live life.
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Exercising daily
physical movements
meditation :
walking and sitting straight
not worrying and overthinking
drinking 2 ltrs water
no social media
not using abusive words
maintain eye contact with people
not pretending moody , emotionless and sad
not walking like a ghost (yeah I do walk like that)
keeping smile and being happy
I am not good because of my condition . But my parents and I are working positively to get over it . I will get fine . Last night was terrible , I vomitted knowingly and my mother was very pissed . She scolded whole night and said that I was disappointment . I slept crying .
Today it was better , but my main problem was thinking tooooooo much . If I don’t focus on what I am feeling , nothing bad occurs . When I think again and again , it gets worse . I can’t control my mind .
Well started serious studies from yesterday , thought slipped a bit today but I will just keep practicing and learning . I am not gonna tense my ass off about pre boards . I will just be consistent .
Went to mandir today , to pray and refreshment .
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I broke my no porn streak today
Urges appeared (or I created it) out of nowhere . I was having bad dreams from last many nights and bad thoughts . I have come to my village . Nor my body or mind felt good .
It was getting better here , but urges killed me down . I don’t know how to react now , it may or may not go off soon and I will be notmal again .
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Don’t take pressure about it now bro.
It was just a small mistake, don’t search anything now, get some other things done, spend some time with family. It’ll get better.
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you have a wonderful mother
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I’ve been feeling the same since yesterday. Like an overwhelming urge to see or read something nasty. It’s not a nice feeling tbh. And I guess I’ve created the urge too by doing some extremely odd thing out of boredom.
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Exercising daily
physical movements
meditation
walking and sitting straight
not worrying and overthinking
drinking 2 ltrs water
no social media
not using abusive words
maintain eye contact with people
not pretending moody , emotionless and sad
not walking like a ghost (yeah I do walk like that)
keeping smile and being happy
I don’t know what am I doing . I got off the line after entrance and that what happened on sunday . Today results came and I am sad asf . I could have done better , much better . Did almost nothing today than project work . I don’t feel good from a few days , mental health is messed a bit . Overthinking still exists as a big part and eats me inside . So many tasks to do that I end up wasting time choosing what to do and what not . Confusion and irritation intensifying . My mother always tells me that I think too much on everything , and its 100% true . Even if its less , the more I think , the more I create it . Best example was after relapse , I was stressed for months just because I thought about it all time and deceased my confidence level from sky to the ground , and now after all these things , I am doing it again but I will not . I am not weak , if I take it as just a small part and completely normal , I am sure nothing’s happening . I am reminiscing myself again and again . I will let it go.
Its much in the mind than really happening . I try to not mind and let it be , whatever happens be it till I try my best . Not this time , I am going to let myself down only because of a few mess ups . I just need patience and peace .
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I have been hiding this not from everyone but from myself
Its not about nofap
Its about me
I have fallen in a great depth of existential crisis .
I tried ,
to socialize , to be extroverted like I used to before
To be confident and clear
But it doesn’t feel real in the end
In the end , it just feels like I am trying to fake it
I look myself in the pictures and feel
different , moody ,
like I do not belong here .
My self image is damaged
and its not something recent , it all started when I tried to adapt myself after relapses and in new city . I overthought and judged myself between the new people . I feel weak and loser in in front of them .
Even after performing good feats than a lot of them , I still don’t see the truth . I do no feel the energy to socialize , to them , to teachers , to new people , even if I want to . This is some mental unclarity which I can’t see , thinking about this every nights , makes me sick and increases my anxiety which is reflected in my behavior . Among the close ones , I feel very talkative and open , I tend to grab much attention and befriend with them more , make them feel good . I don’t much understand this psychology . But it does nothing but makes me feel mentally weak , increasing anxiety and worsening it .
Well , I remembered a quote from Wonder Woman 1984 and thought to rewrite it for myself .
You are not the only one who thinks ,
that life has been unfair or rough
You are not the only one who has suffered ,
has lost , broken and cried .
You are not the only who has imagined a life ,
where things were different and better
A world where you were loved and appreciated
where you were known and talked about
You are not the only one
finding your stake among the world
dying everyday just to live
You are not the only one who has suffered ,
mentally and physically , who has drowned
in the depths of grief .
But look at this world ,
This world is a beautiful place just as it is ,
You can only have the truth
The truth is enough
The truth is beautiful
Only you can save your day
Do you see…
what trying to fake is causing you ?
How it is melting your from inside .
Do you see the truth ?
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Point out the exact reason why you feel this why, what’s the particular thing that’s damaging your self imagine, if you can do something to improve it, do that, maybe add some habit that’ll help to overcome it.
Plus it’s not always necessary to talk to people, if you don’t feel like talking to someone just don’t do it.
You are actually already going in right direction by acknowledging this though. Keep improving 
.
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thanks big brother 
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Thank God you didn’t add something else here .
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