The Ambitious One's Diary - Growing up with losses

It was never about the no of days .
What an end to the year :smile: . I have progressed a lot in the short time . Even though I couldn’t achieve my fullest but I am far off from seeing myself as a failure . My marks have rocketed in last two tests consequently , so has my willingness towards my goal . Apart , from that , I have had ups and downs as usual , but in the end I have learnt so much and lived so much . I am more carefree and less stressful , above all I am more hopeful now . Taking small actions everyday , and you are much different of a person than you were .
After all , I forgave myself and moved on . I was damn relieving that the past does not define my future anymore , my present does . No matter how bad you were tomorrow , you can always choose to be different today .
A few things still bug me and all the bad things I have integrated this year still somewhere are distractions in my goal . But it was a good experience , I have understood about my abilities and I need to use my potential in the right direction .

In the pursuit of becoming a completely different person .
Happy birthday to me

And a happy new year to all . May you have a beautiful year
End this year with a good note .

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Thank you vm bro :smile:
Yeah I am doing better . About nofap , I messed up a few days in between but I have progressed in the mindset . I was stuck fighting the wrong way . I have learnt to take actions and to hate the addiction instead of myself .
How about you brother

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Well, I see your streak count as 121 days. So maybe you messed up few days by doing the P part of PMO.

I hope with this knowledge you go a long way.

One small event happened at the start of this month. That has changed my mindset. I am now pretty consistent with my efforts. I gained new perspectives.

As for no fap, my CS is 50+ days and I am also looking at no fap from a different lens.

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Oh no :skull: that ain’t right bro . I don’t use the app so I have not resetted it for long.

Its good to hear , right perspective is necessary
Hope you go a good way ahead

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Oh, well didn’t knew that. I hope you still had it under control in the last couple of weeks.

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Yooooooo happy birthday, birthday man :partying_face: :confetti_ball:

@The_Ambitious_One you will achieve more in the future inchallah. You did +330 days before after all. Wishing you a great life fall of hapiness and success, my dearest friend. There will always be a glimmer of light even in the darkest of nights.

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Thank you brother :smile: ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎

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Belated birthday wishes Mr. Aadi Verma @The_Ambitious_One

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thank you bro‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ v

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2024 is the most crucial year for me .
Not only I have the main exam in 2025 , I’ll have to finish off class 11th and enter 12th . I want it to be my last academic session so that I can crack exams and get a good college . Not a fan of taking drop . This year literally decides my future and none of the past will matter if I am able to unlock my true potential . I have to work harder than I have ever done , only then I will be able to revert back all of that I lost this year . I have no time to waste , more after all I wasted this year . I feel the pressure , it is unbelievable that I have grown so much . Just looking back at last year , I was good at nofap and all but not so mature . Things have passed very quickly this year . I have failed hundreds of times , lost many battles , cried , spent weeks living in darkness . The last three months have been the most changing for me , I didn’t understand the transition I’ve had from having lost the way and being fearful to fighting the worst and becoming braver than before. Before accomplishing , I have to break all the bad ones that have grown in me and it is not going away until I defeat ■■■■ . This is the high time.The first month is going to be the base .
I must shape my own mind :slightly_smiling_face:

I am ending this year with a big lesson of life and like before , I am not going to quote this year as the worst but as the most ‘necessary’ one , because it is going to play an important part in who I will be .
Now there’s nothing about anything being possible or impossible , its just necessary . I have to finish what I started as a dream , the first year of the pursuit of which has been nothing but lessons , to tackle everyone that comes ahead .

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Special mention to @Binocular @The_integrous_one @debellator @Strong_one @The_Rising_One @Sholtro_Tenjerrot @BlackMagic123 @prince_king @anon64122840 @CoffeeMan for showing me the way or being with me everytime I fell short .
I am on my own now , but I’ll keep visiting to report .

I won’t disappoint

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keep on rising my man. Grow stronger and stronger. Never stop till you reach your goal. Your brother’s are with you :crossed_swords:

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We both share the same goals, the same story. I understand your feelings and I can tell you that you will succeed if you truly believe you can. I can’t say that I didn’t learn anything this year, sure I didn’t achive what I planned last year but now, now it’s time to shine.

These two years are the beginning of our future. We must must absolutely work hard and be a walking energy on earth. Enough laziness, enough tommorow and enough weakness. Now is the time to prove them wrong.

The time has come to do, to be, not just say. Time for action.
Happy new year brother!

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Yes , actions :slightly_smiling_face:
The value of which I learnt very well this year .
Happy new year
Hope we both achieve our goals

Yes , yes I know :slightly_smiling_face: . May god bless you all
This community is the greatest thing I could ever find .

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no you aren’t and don’t fcking talk like that ok.
We’ll be there for you no matter what.

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yeah ok big bro :joy:
I have your phone no to call during trouble (until you get married)
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:rofl::rofl: uske baad kya ho jaega

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tum busy ho jaoge ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎

:laughing: yes he will be the first to get busy…he is on the hunt @The_integrous_one :lion:

anyways you have my number also, you are free to call…been a while since our group has conversed.

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@The_Ambitious_One @debellator @The_integrous_one I know your friendship might be dating back since covid first came out. But if after a certain period of time there’s some comfort around me, do add me to a WhatsApp group if that doesn’t have lot of notifications.

Since I will be busy with my university and studies+working towards a career.

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