As for this, brother, let me tell you my story.
Since the start of Ramadan I haven’t watched a single video. Ramadan was very different. I was very different. I started taking up exercises, working out every single day, although I am not athletic at all. My life changed, LITERALLY.
And yesterday, I had the same thoughts as yours. Urges started hitting and I gave up the fight, and Relapsed. When? After a 23 day streak. Imagine?
Now, you may ask me how I feel? Miserable.
Was it worth it? At first, no. Now, still no.
Not worth it at all. I got depressed, fatigued, I missed an important meeting today. I just am so mad I was not able to control my urges yesterday. I never felt that bad. And now I should becareful not to fall to the chaser effect.
So brother, please, do not relapse. As you will regret it.
A match is worth nothing when it comes to your future.
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